I start to wake up but I am still too tired to get up. I open my eyes slowly and my sight meets with his two beautiful green eyes. I smile and he smiles back. "Good morning. Happy birthday babe" he says and pecks my lips "Good morning, thank you" I say and I kiss him again. "I don't want to get up today" I continue. He places his hand on my cheek and rubs it softly "Then don't. Come here" he says and wraps his hand around me. I lay my head on his chest. I can hear his heartbeat clearly and feel his breath on the top of my head.
He lets out a breath "I love you" he says and kisses my head. I look to him "I love you too Dean" I say and I kiss him. The kiss hot heated quickly and I climbed on top of him. I took his t-shirt off breaking the kiss for just a second. I run my hands through his body while he let my tongue to take control. I pull away and place my hands on his perfect shoulders "Today, you're gonna play by my rules" I say and I bite my lip. "No problem" he says and smiles. I smile back and I kiss him again.
I start to make my way down by planting open mouth kisses on his collar bone. I hear the door open and I curse under my breath. I turn my head back and I see Sam. "Sorry for interrupting guys, I just really need you Dean" he says and I climp off him. Dean gets up and puts his t-shirt back on. "I'll be back as soon as I can so we can pick up where we left of, ok?" Dean asks and I nod. He pecks my lips and leaves the room with Sam.
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I was willing to wait for him but I got bored alone in the room. I got up and I walked to the kitchen. There was Sam. "Good morning again" I say "Good morning, sorry for earlier but it was urgent" he says "I know. If it wasn't, you would have knocked" I say and he nods. "Also happy birthday" he says and hugs me "Thank you" I say as he pulls away. "I'll be in the library" he says and I nod.
Sam and I were best friends but we had a fight the other day about me going solo on a hunt and we ended up saying some pretty bad things to each other. He basically called me useless and I haven't forgiven him for that yet. I live with the boys four years now and I've been solo before but he was too afraid to let me leave that day because he said it was too risky and at first I agreed on staying back but then I found out that he took care of it on his own. Dean doesn't know any of these of course.
"Hey babe, I've been looking for you" Dean says as he walks in the kitchen "Sorry, I got kinda hungry" I say "It's ok. I just need to tell you something" he says and sits on a chair "I'm listening" I say and I sit on his lap wrapping my arms around his neck. "Gabriel agreed on helping us. Rowena is on her way here and will arrive probably in about 30 minutes" he says "So, you're going on the apocalypse world" I say "I'm sorry (Y/N), I really wanted to spend this day with you" he says with a sad look on his face "I know and it's ok, go and save your mom" I say and I kiss him. "I love you so much" he says and hugs me "I love you too".
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Rowena, Gabriel and Cas came. Also Lucifer was tied down next to us in order to keep the door open. The boys were on their rooms getting ready to leave. I sat down next to Cas and I took a deep breath. "Everything will be fine. We'll all come back. I promise" Cas says and I nod.
The boys came in the library and I got up from my seat. "Did you take everything?" I ask Dean "I think so" he says and I nod "Yes Dean, make sure you pack everything because mama is worried" Lucifer says ironically but we both ignore him. "I promise that when I get back we'll celebrate like we should" he says and smiles "Ok" I say and I kiss him. I hug him "You come back or I'll kill you" I say and my eyes fill with tears "Promise" he says. We pull away and I go to hug Sam. He seemed surprised at first "Forget our arguments, just be safe" I say "Always" he says. I go to Cas "Bring them back whole" I say "I'll do my best". "Ok, let's do this" Dean says 'I love you' I mouth to him and he smiles one more time before he leaves. They all leave, leaving me, Rowena and Lucifer back.
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I couldn't just stay there waiting so I went for a walk. It enden up being a really long one. When I returned to the bunker, only Rowena was there. "Where is Lucifer?" I ask "He broke the spell and got free. Then he tried to kill me and when I pushed him bavk he might fell in the rift" she says "He what?" I ask "Now, I'm trying to find a way to keep the rift open for as long as I can" she says "Ok, let me help" I say and she hands me a book.
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So many hours later and nothing. Absolutely nothing on how to keep the rift open. But before I could complaint, I saw random people coming through the rift. After a few of them I see Mary. "Mary..." I say and I hug her "Hi (Y/N)" she says as she hugs me back. The two of us were close and I really missed her to be honest. We pull away "Who are they?" I ask "They are the only survivors from the other world, they deserve a second chance" she says and I nod.
Cas and Sam come back "Rowena, close the rift now" Cas yells "No, wait--" but before I could say more the rift already closed. "No, no, no, where is Dean?" I ask but I get no answer. "Guys, where is Dean?" I ask and I can already feel the tears in my eyes. A tear rolled from Sam's eye "I'm so sorry (Y/N)" Cas says "No..." I whisper letting the tears roll down my cheeks. I wipe them off and I take a deep breath. "How?" I ask "We got into a fight with a weird kind of vampires in a tunnel" Cas says "We had a few other people with us and we were fighting. Then Dean yelled at Sam to get them out of there and wait for us outside. While Sam was getting the last of them outside, the vampires grabbed Dean and dragged him back with them. Sam run back and we tried to help him but when we followed them... There was too much blood on the ground. So, we went back and headed to Mary's location" he says "I kown I shouldn't have left them (Y/N), I should have stayed to fight with them" Sam says "You think?" I ask pissed. And with that I ran to my room and broke down.
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For the last week I tried to be ok, I really did but I get pissed everytime I look at Sam or Cas. I just can't even look at them. They didn't even brought his body back. So, I just stayed in my room going through Dean's things. His guns, his photos, his tapes, his clothes, everything. I just couldn't let him go. Getting up from the bed, I notice that my make up was all-over the sheets and pillows. I think it's time to change them. To be honest I haven't changed them since my birthday.
I take off the old sheet and I throw it on the floor. While pushing the sheet inside the corners, I noticed that one side was a bit higher. I lift the mattress and I see a little red velvet box and a note. I immediately start crying and I kneel down. I take the box in my hands hoping that it will be just earrings or something else. But it wasn't. Inside the little box was a white gold diamond beautiful ring. I take the note and I unfold it. It had a few smudges but I could read it.
It's time for your birthday gift baby. This dinner was just a start.
I take her hand
Since you came in my life, I found a reason to keep fight, a reason to be happy to wake up in the morning, a reason to smile everyday. You're the best thing that ever happened to me (Y/N). I love you so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Now I kneel down and show her the ring and I hope for a yes.
Oh my God, he even wrote a script. I chuckle between my tears and I look back at the ring. I get up from the floor and I pack a few of my things. I put the little box in my pocket and I get out of my room. "Where are you going?" Sam asks "Wherever I want" I say and I close the door behind me. I get inside baby with my second keys. "Sorry baby but I have no idea where the normal keys are, neither where he is" I say and I am ready to cry again. But I hold it back and I start driving.
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I got out of the car, taking my bag with me, and walked to Jody's door. I knock and she opens. "Hi, I really need a place to stay because I can't be in the bunker right now. If you don't want me here, I could go to a motel" I say with tears streaming down my cheeks "No, come in" she says and I do. She hugs me and I hug her back. I start to cry "I need him really bad" I say between my sobs "I know" she says and rubs my back.
We sit on the couch. "Sam told me that at the beginning you tried to act normal but then you seemed pissed everytime someone talked to you" she says and I nod. "I found this before coming here and I just couldn't stay in there any longer" I say and I show her the little box. "(Y/N)..." "He was going to propose, he had even wrote a script on how he was going to do it. And now he's gone. I want him so I can tell him the big yes, to let him know that I will froever love him" I say. "How about you go upstairs and take some rest. Well talk about it tomorrow, ok?" she says and I nod.
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The next day I wasn't in the mood for getting out of the bed. But Jody forced me to and laso go for a wlak with her. We sat on a bench next to the park but none of us talked. "Forgiveness is a powerful thing (Y/N)" Jody starts saying "...not only to make the other person feel good but to heal you. You need to forgive Sam, forgive him for not being Dean, forgive him for being the wrong Winchester just enough to remind you of what's missing but not enough to bring him back. That's not his fault, you need to forgive him. You don't have to like him again, you don't have to love him again, just forgive him. So you can forgive Castiel for being there when a wrong decision cost you your boyfriend. To forgive Dean for dying too soon, to forgive yourself for hating him for dying too soon. Let it go (Y/N) and forgive" she says and I stay silent.
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I drove back to the bunker and I ran inside. I found Sam in the library but because there were already too many people there, I took his hand and dragged him inside my room. "What happened (Y/N)?" he asks "I forgive you. I know it's not your fault but I was mad at everybody for what happened and I need to forgive them so I can move on" I say and he hugs me "I'm glad you do" he says. We sit on the and I lay my head on his shoulder. "I found this under the mattress" I say and I hand him the ring. He wraps his hand behind my back "We'll get through this together, ok?" he asks and I nod.