Blaming Dylan(COMPLETED)

Chapter116:The Incident Part One

Have you ever thought of never feeling pain anymore   that you end yo trying to take your own life?

Have you ever thought that you would get better in life but it is too stressful to handle?

So all you do right now is give up on everything and everybody because you are too weak.

January 6th
3:36 pm
10 hours before the incident

"What are you writing in that journal anyway?" James asked while trying to sneak a peek but couldn't because Cole closed the notebook as fast he could.

"Just some song lyrics that's all." Cole said while lying through his teeth.

"Cole I don't believe you at all." James said.

"Look  if you don't believe me at all that's fine because I rather have people minding their own business." Cole said.

"I wasn't forcing you to show me but okay."  James said before walking to the kitchen.

Cole rolled his eyes at him and went back to writing in his journal.

What if tonight I end my life and the pain is all gone right?

As much I love my family and friends, I just want to get rid of this pain and end it already.

I know what the outcome would be but I have no choice.

The drugs ain't helping me.

The alcohol ain't helping me at all.

Seriously I just want to end my life right now because nothing is helping me at all.

I thought music would save me from everything but I haven't been doing that shit since two months ago.

I know people can see the signs of someone in pain but can't do anything about it because that person don't want any help.

I am sorry for everything and the shit I caused.

I am sorry for what I am about to do tonight.

I just want the pain to be gone already.

I am sorry mom that you are gonna lose someone else in your life.

And to anyone that read this, I am really sorry for everything.

Cole's phone rang and he took out of his pocket to answer it.

"Hey Maddie what do you need?" Cole asked.

Hi are you free right now?" Maddie questioned.

"Like in a few minutes but I will be there right now if you want." Cole said.

"Yeah just come when you are done with whatever you are doing." She said.

"Okay."

Cole hanged up the phone and grabbed his notebook then before leaving he bumped into Justin.

"What's the rush like where are you going?" Justin asked.

"I need to do something." Cole said.

"Okay and you will be back tonight you know for me and Jonathan's birthday?"

"Yeah don't worry I will be here I promise cousin."

"Okay I will see you later and tell Maddie I said hi."

"How do you know that I was going to her place?"

"I just knew and besides I thought you broke up with her?"

"Yeah I didn't but I am working on it."

I am sorry for this and I know it would hurt.

I am sorry for the pain that I caused.

I am sorry for hiding my emotions and lying that I am okay which I am not.

I am sorry for the pain and sorrow.

I don't make everything about me but all I am gonna say is that I am sorry.
Okay
If I don't make it then I hope I see you guys in the after life.

I am sorry for my grandfather, my grandmother, aunts, uncles and cousins.  Also my brothers and sister as well.

All I want to do is die that's all.

5:00 pm

Cole was putting his clothes back after "talking" to Maddie and right now he knows he regrets doing this but can't stop it.

"You leaving right now?" Maddie asked.

Cole sighed and then looked at Maddie for an minute before this end up being messy.

"Maddie there is something I need to tell you and please don't be upset about this but I feel like this is right thing to do." Cole said.

"What are you talking about Cole?"

"Our relationship really been toxic and you know that but everytime we tried to fix it, it doesn't not work so I think we should break up."

"Are you saying that we should-"

"Yes I am and I can't take it anymore, I am sorry but the love I had for you is gone."

"Cole-"

"Wait I am not finished, I think you should find someone that probably want a long term healthy relationship and I hope that everything go great for you because you deserve better and I do too."