The second week went by super fast. When Monday rolled around I had the routine on lock. I was still in my head about this man. But I had managed to shift my focus to the matter at hand. I realized that he was my distraction. I hadn't completed school or anything for that manner. I must also take accountability for my actions because all I've been doing is running. I have had the chance to set up a stable foundation for myself.
On Monday I spent the majority of my time inside of my room. I felt it was best to just stay tucked away from everyone and everything. I didn't wanna be babysat or anything like that. I just felt it would be best for me to keep myself out of trouble. The only
Other time I left my room was to eat dinner. Apart from that I went back in and didn't come out until the next day.
The next day was pretty much the same and so was the next three days. When Friday rolled around I was getting a new kind of attention I didn't really know I wanted. I was in the kitchen making a smoothie. Lucifer walked up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He placed a kiss on my cheeks and then my neck. I focused my attention on the fruits that were blending together to create a deep purple shade. When it finished blending I poured it into a large cup. I added a straw and washed up the dirty dishes. Soon after I dried my hands and grabbed my cup of smoothie. I just needed to read a book and relax for twenty minutes. Then after I finish it I need to go shower and continue the book.
I had gotten into this routine of reading more and more. It was actually benefiting me. I was able to shift my focus from my bird cage to another persons world. It helped to pass my time. I wanted to use Dominique's expertise when it comes to running away from this man. I just need one more try and then I'll get it .I just need something for myself. I don't like how dependent I feel on him. I also don't like the way he makes me feel. I feel like I can't do anything without his name or face being attached to it.
I sigh to myself as I heard him trying to open my door. I got up and opened my door, he came in immediately. I shut the door and he locks it. He leans forward and places kisses on my lips. I kind of pull away, but he pulls me close to him. "Baby, I want you." He said to me. About an hour later he was cumming all over my stomach and I was fast asleep. I awoke the next day knowing that Dominique would have some idea as to what too place between Lucifer and I last night.
He was already out of bed. I looked at the clock and saw that it was 5:00am in the morning. I put my head back down on the pillow. Wondering if I'll get to make it out of the country without him finding out. I'd literally have to take some strong tonic or just find some witch to cast a spell for me. It's so hard to plan this, maybe I should not tell anyone my plans. Cause I honestly don't know if these men will really be for me.
Meaning they'll support my Exodus with no questions asked. Maybe the only question being how they can assist. For now I will have to figure out a way to leave the house during the day to go out to the city. Then again I do have two more weeks. I know that because I am not going to be taking on the role of Queen of the underworld. Scarlet will be doing that. My only job is to learn the basics so if she goes on vacation I can take over for that short bit of time.
Other than that I really have no interest in taking on such a huge responsibility. I know Lucifer would enjoy that but not me. I roll out of bed and get myself into the shower swiftly. Today was one of my days off. So I can chill and be in my own element. I felt calm today,
It's almost like I knew that I would some how be able to get help and escape from this man. I hop out of the shower and get dressed. I really want to go off of the property today. Even if it's to the beach down road, I just need some outer distraction to help me disassociate from this madness for a moment.