Thikaana

Forty Five

"Sana? Seriously? That fucker will not get it no matter what you say or do. Itna samjh nahi aaya kya abhi tak? Ya tum bhi uski tarah hi khaali ho upar se?" he spoke bringing his face closer to hers and staring at her face angrily.
"Tch Sidhaaaarth. Aap baat tou suno na araam se. Apna dimagh khol k suno meri baat, ghusse ko side pe kar k" she said softly coming closer to him and cupping his cheek in her hand.
"Mai apna dimagh kholu? Are you even listening to yourself Sana? Gadhi lag rahi ho bilkul. Lag kya rahi ho, ho ek number ki. Akshay ko kuch na ho bas, humari band wo jitni marzi bajata rahay, haina?" he harshly pushed her hand away.
"Sana honestly, I get that you have a soft corner for him and I know you don't like it when I say something to him. Tum mujhe ek hi dafa bata do na, k usko kya kya keh sakte hain aur kya kya nahi, taqay aap ko bura na lagay" he smiled sarcastically.
She rolled her eyes. He was being his angry childish self now. This is what he did. He always closed his mind off when he was angry. She slammed her palm on her forehead.
"Hey Bhagwan" she closed her eyes, losing control of whatever she was trying to hold on to.
"Akshay mai aisa kya hai Sana? Mujhe bhi batao. Itna hi khayal hai uska tou what are you even doing here, ussi k paas chali jao na waapis" he said stubbornly.

She snapped her face towards him shocked at what he just said. He was doing it again.
"Sidharth, bakwaas mat karo. Suno meri baat, idhar aao" she moved closer and extended both her hands to hold his face. He cowered back and held both her hands in his midway.
"Nahi nahi please enlighten me. What is it about him Sana that you just can't seem to let go off him? Why are we even here then? Why waste my time, hmm?" he asked her calmly, smiling slightly scaring her.
"Sidharth please. Mujhe darr lag raha hai" she said softly.
"Kya dekhne mai acha hai Akhshay? Does he have a good body? Nice built? Aur haan, umar mai bhi tou chota hoga na. Tere jitna hai ya tujh se thora bara?" he said calmly, looking in to her eyes. He was scaring her senseless.
"What??  Bakwaas mat karo" she said shocked at where he was going with this. She knew his mind was blocked with anger right now and so she was trying to be as calm with him as possible. He still had her hands in his hold.
"No seriously, please tell me. Kabhi picture nahi dikhayi tu ne uski. I'm sure he's really good. Wo kya kehte hain Punjabi mai? Haan, Gabru jawaan hoga na" he smiled venomously.
"Sidharth stop please. Kya boli jaa rahay ho?" she said softly, her arms were hurting now because of the way they were stretched out in the middle.
"Arey kyun? Don't like discussing about him? Then why not let me talk to him and find out for myself? Ya uss mai bhi darr hai k kahin mai usko hurt na kar doon?" he asked her in the same tone. Though he was smiling but his eyes and his overall face was telling her how mad he was.
"Sidharth, will you please stop? Ye sab faaltu baatein kyun kar rahay ho jab aapko bhi achi tarah pata hai k aisa kuch nahi hai. Mere dil mai kuch nahi tha aur na hai uss k liye. You know that" her voice lightly quivered in the end as she tried pulling her hands out of his hold, her arms were hurting. He tightened his hold on her hands instead, keeping them in place.

"No you know what? Actually, I don't. I don't know Sana. All I do know is k this Akshay is really living here in between us despite being miles away, and no matter what I try, I'm unable to get rid of him. So now, I really don't know." He said calmly, looking in her eyes. He could see the fear in them.
"NAHI HAI AKSHAY KUCH. SIRF AUR SIRF MERI ZINDAGI KI SAB SE BARI PARIKSHA AUR GHALTI HAI BAS WO. NA MENE USEY TAB CHAHA THA NA AB CHAHA HAI. THOP DIYA GAYA THA USKO MERE UPAR. I DON'T WANT HIM SIDHARTH" she shouted looking in to his eyes. He could see her eyes wetting the slightest bit. She again tried pulling her hands out, but he didn't budge.
"Tell me. Is he good looking? Awaaz achi hai kya? Does he talk sweetly to you and make you feel loved and wanted?" he asked her calmly. He knew he was riling her up, but he didn't care. 
She was shocked. She just opened her mouth to answer but nothing came out. She just stared at his face helplessly.

"Tumhari umar mai yahi sab fascinate karta hai na? K kon aapko kitna chah raha hai, aapke peeche pagal ho raha hai. Baar baar aapko ehsaas dila raha hai of how much they want you? Does he ever try getting romantic? Kabhi express kia hai usne of all the things he wants to do to you? Ek baar you didn't let him kiss, tou uske baad kya he never tried anything else? I'm sure there's so much he wants to do, knowing that you're untouched and untainted" he was being downright mean, impulsive and possessive. He knew it.
She couldn't believe her ears. Her arms were numb at this point.
"Sidharth? Seriously?" her voice was a low whisper, he could hear the crack in it as her eyes filled up but she didn't let the tears fall.