Have you ever wondered what it would feel like if you just died.
You just woke up and you were dead.
What would happen.
I wonder about that a lot.
But not in a good way.
I hope that it would happen.
I hope that I would just die because it would make things easier for everyone.
My parents wouldn't have to deal with my laziness and stubbornness.
My friends wouldn't have to deal with my ranting and depression hits.
Everything would be better.
Right?
Because why should I be here.
What's my purpose.
Is my purpose to just kill myself.
Sometimes it feels like that.
Maybe everyone's lives would be so much better if I was just the girl who died in high school.
It's not even a maybe at this point.
It's a certain.
And I haven't talked to anyone about this because I'm scared.
I hate being a burden and I hate putting my issues in other people hands and hoping it will help.
I should talk to them.
I should.
Should.
Could.
Would.
Won't.
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Non-FictionThis is a daily updated journal/diary thing that started in January of 2018 and has not ended yet. There will be a part two to this book, because I've found writing in this book so relaxing and helpful when it comes to my mental health. • • • Somet...
