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"Papa, how old were you when dad had his first seizure in front of you? Like the first big one?"
Flashback:
"Niall, how many times do I have to tell you? I'm fine, mum was just being over-protective..." Harry whines as he and Niall walk up to meet Louis and Liam - their boyfriends - at their lockers. "Hey baby, how are you this morning?" Harry smiles into their kiss, they share a few more sweet kisses until Harry pulls back to put his books in his locker. "I'm good... a little tired, but I'm fine." Louis furrows his brow in concern. "How much sleep did you get last night? You didn't stay up to late did you? You know I can talk to your teachers if-"
Harry cuts him off with a smile.
"I'm honestly fine, I went to bed at like eight last night... and I'm fine, I don't want you to have to worry about when you've got GCSE's to worry about." Louis sighs, realising it's no use, Harry will do it anyway. Even if it's detrimental to his health.
The two couples say their goodbyes, going to their classes. "Are you sure feel ok H? You look a little peaky love." Harry nods, brushing Niall's hand away as the older boy tries to feel his forehead.
"I'm fine, you're just worried because mum said I'll have a seizure, but I'm fine.... I'm only a little tired, just stop Niall." He hisses, walking ahead and into their class.
Currently, Harry is sitting with Louis, he's successfully been avoiding Niall all day. And he hasn't even had one seizure today, so he doesn't know what his mum and Niall's problem is. "Haz, do you want me to get a flavoured milk?" Harry nods, kissing Louis' lips as a thank you.
When Louis comes back, he smiles sadly as he sees Harry looking distantly, he slowly sits down next to him, making sure not to scare him. "You're ok babe, just wait it out darling." Harry blinks a few more times, clearing the fog in his eyes. "Are you ok baby?" Harry nods, looking around like nothing happened. "What happened Lou?" Harry asks as he gently pushes his hair out of his face. "You just had a little seizure babe, nothing I haven't seen before." Harry nods, a little embarrassed.
"Why are you and Ni acting all weird? You've been giving each other death stares and ignoring each other." Harry nods, fiddling with his fingers again. "He's just freaking out.... and mum didn't help this morning telling him that I kept having tonics in my sleep so he was on my case and I sort of lost it... and... and..." He stops, leaning on to Louis a little. "Baby, Hey Haz... What the fuck? Harry!" Louis worries, as Harry jerks a little, his head and body slumping forward.
Hearing the commotion, Niall and Liam quickly come over, Niall moving Louis over so he can help his friend. "It's ok Haz, I'm just here... don't worry love." Niall reassures, looking up to see some people gathered around them. "Can you guys fuck off? It's not for your entertainment, he's having a seizure so fuck off!" Niall swears giving the onlookers a deathly glare. Making them walk away, and leave the cafeteria. "Lou, can you get a cup of water? And Li, will go and ask the office to ring Anne? He won't wanna stay here after this." The two older boys nod, heading off to do their assigned tasks.
As Harry slowly comes to, he groans loudly, making Niall shush him. "It's ok, you just had a seizure Haz... you're alright, Li's getting mum for you and Lou is bringing you some water." Harry sits up a little, sighing as Louis placed the water down in front of him.
"Hey baby, are you ok?" Louis asks as he kneels down next to Harry. "Lou, just give him a second, he's still coming out of it." Louis nods, rubbing his back and smiling as Harry starts to look around. "Hey baby, are you with us now?" Harry nods a little, still in a slight daze. "Wha'.. happened?" Louis gently kisses his forehead. "You has a seizure baby, it's ok though... don't worry about it, mums coming just to take you home.... you scared me baby." Harry nods a little, cuddling into Louis side as the older boy sits next to him.
The couple sit there for a while, until Anne comes running into the cafeteria, a worried line running along her forehead. "Harry darling, are you ok? Do I need to take you to hospital baby?"
Harry shakes his head, reaching a handout for Louis. "I don' wanna go home..... jus' stay here with Lou." Anne shakes her head, grabbing his hand and wrapping her petite hands around his massive one. "You are coming home, I don't care what you say Harry, you are coming home with me. I don't want you to have a big seizure here." He nods slowly, standing with his mother and Louis by his side.
"Just take it slow with him, Lou."
End Flashback:
"And... he... he was fine, but as we were walking down the corridor.. he just-" Louis gets cutoff by his phone ringing through the bluetooth, he answers the call, seeing as it's Harry. "Hello my darling, we're just coming around the corner now... what's wrong?"
They hear Harry groan a little on the other end of the line, breathing heavily. "Harry baby, what's wrong? Can you talk to me?" Harry slurs a few words that don't hold any meaning over the line, making Louis panic. "Shit! Did you have a seizure?" He hears some shuffling and a wounded noise. "Ok baby, it's alright... Darcy and I are just outside now."
He quickly parks the car, and runs to the door. His hands shake as he tries to open the door quickly and get to his ailing husband. "Papa! Stop, you need to calm down.... dad doesn't need you panicking, you'll just make him panic... he's ok." Louis nods, looking into his daughters greens blue eyes. "Thank you baby, I love you.... will you get your phone out and be ready to ring for an ambulance?" Darcy nods, following her father in to see her younger father still withering a little on the floor.
"Hey baby, you're ok.... it's Louis darling." Louis says as he gently placed his hand on Harry's chest. "Ring for an ambulance Darcy, he doesn't look well and he's cut his head." Darcy nods, dialling 999 and holding the phone to her ear.
"Papa... he's asking questions I don't know."
Louis nods, taking the phone from her and talking to the unnamed man.
"Hello, this is Louis Tomlinson...yes, he is epileptic..... he's obviously had a seizure and cut his head open, my daughter and I were out and he rang us just as we were coming down the road..... he cut his head, and I think he popped his shoulder out."
They eventually hear the sirens, an all to familiar feeling starts to bubble its way into Louis stomach, making him feel queasy. "Go and open the door for them Darcy... I don't want to leave him alone." Darcy nods, knowing better then to question his father in a time like this.
The medics run in as fast as they can, to see Harry still lying on floor, his blood all over Louis' hands and his face a sickly green colour. They get him prepared, and into the van without so much as a single word said from Harry. Just a few groans and whimpers of pain.
"I'm sorry to say but you'll have to go by yourselves to the hospital. If he crashes again, then we need room to stabilise him." Louis nods as though he understands, but his mind is still reeling about what just took place. They slam to doors to the van shut and drive away.
Darcy comes out to see him standing on their drive, his finger tips stained red from Harry's blood. "Can we go see him?" Louis nods, rubbing a hand down his face and getting the keys again.
"My husband was brought in about half an hour ago by ambulance? Harry Styles?" The young girl at the desk nods, typing in his name and smiling at the father and daughter. "He's in room 257, just follow the signs and you'll be there in no time." Louis nods, he knows this hospital better then the back of his hand.
They find the room in a matter of minutes, thanks to Louis knowledge about the hospital. Louis pushes the door open, seeing a doctor and nurse still in there. "Oh! Sorry... I'm Louis, I'm his husband, this is our daughter, Darcy.... is he ok?" The doctor nods a little, dismissing the nurse out of room.
"He lost quite a lot of blood from the wound on his head, so we've sutured that... And you were right about his shoulder, he had dislocated it.. so we've popped that back in and placed him in a sling, which he'll be in for six weeks. I'd like to ask you a few questions regarding his epilepsy, if that's alright with you?"
Louis nods, telling Darcy to go and sit inside with Harry while they talk outside the door.
"How long has Mr. Styles suffered from epilepsy?"
"Since he was born, he's always had absence seizures and complex partial seizures, and since he was about five he's had grand mal seizures.... I think he started having tonics and atypical absences when he was about ten."
"Right, and how long has it been since he had the last tonic-clonic?"
"Like eleven months... but that's normal for him, I've been witnessing his seizures since I was 17... and he's always big ones about a year apart." The doctor nods again, asking him a few more questions. "Very well, He did have another seizure on the way here, which was stopped by anticonvulsants and then as he came into the postictal state, he began to fuss... so we gave him a sedative, which should only keep him asleep for another half an hour." Louis nods, thanking the doctor and walking into the room, finally seeing Harry's form.
He's laid on the bed with wires and tubes sticking out of him. His hair in a matted mess from all of his blood. "Darcy darling, are you ok? I know that must have been scary... do you wanna talk about it?" Darcy shakes her head. "No.... it's not like I haven't seen it before, that was maybe a little more gory but it's still pretty normal." Louis nods, he's gone through a stage where he thought not talk about the pain that Harry's seizures caused him was fine.
"Ok, but if you want to talk... you can talk to me, or dad... you can talk to anyone in the family love, we all just want you to be ok."
She nods again, tucking her hair behind her ear as they wait for Harry to wake up. "I'm just going to step out and call aunt Gem and ask if the twins can stay the night." Darcy nods, drawing her knees up to her chest and blankly looking at Harry still form. "Why do you always have to do this dad?" She cries, looking at his closed eyes, the slight bruising on them makes her feel sick, add to the feeling of seeing your father hooked up to many machines to count and she needs to vomit.
Running into the attached bathroom, she spills the content in her stomach into the toilet, sliding down the wall beside it she quietly starts to cry, tears streaming down her face as she pictures her father on their lounge room floor, convulsing and weeing himself.
"Darcy? Darcy where are you?" Louis worries as he comes back in to find Darcy has vanished. He hears muffled sobs coming from the bathroom, he rushes in seeing her on floor, knees draw in to her chest as she cries. "Baby, What happened?" He slowly kneels down, bringing her into his chest, making her fight a little. "Darcy stop it, what's wrong?" Instead of answering him, she cries harder, fisting his shirt and soaking it with her tears.
The father starts to rock slowly, calming the girl and making her cries settle to small sniffles. "What happened?"
"I don't- it's to hard to like... constantly be coming back to this place place, and all I can see when I close my eyes is dad having a fucking seizure! I've never been a normal child papa, and won't be, ever, I've never had a nightmare about 'monsters' or 'the boogy man' all I've ever had nightmares about is dad having a seizure and never waking up, or having to go to hospital because he hit head and got a concussion-"
Louis shushes her, kissing her head and cuddling her in close. "Ok, first of all, watch her language young lady. Second, I know it's hard baby, hell I've been having those nightmares since I was 17, but you can't dwell on that, you've got to think about the positives too baby girl.... how many times has dad made you laugh when you've been upset? Even with his stupid dad jokes." Darcy nods, smiling at the thought of her father telling her a stupid joke.
Eventually they stand, walking out of the room and sitting down next to where Harry lay.
"C'mon baby, wake up for me... let me see those beautiful green eyes of yours." Louis whispers as he gently takes Harry's cold hand in his much smaller one. "Do you wanna go home? I can call Aunt Gem, or Nana." Darcy nods, mumbling that she'd like to go to Anne's.
Louis calls her and asks, which she agrees to, making Darcy thank her when she comes. "Will you guys come around tomorrow?" Anne nods, taking Darcy with her.
"Mmmm..... Leh...." Harry groans as slowly opens his eyes, peering around the room in shock. "Hey baby, you're ok... you had a seizure... so you have to stay in the hospital for a few days." Harry nods a little, shifting on the bed, then wincing when he jars his shoulder.
After sitting in silence for five minutes, Louis hears a small knock at the door. "Come in," He says loud enough for whoever it is to hear him.
"Hiya darlin', 've got some food for ya if ya want."
Louis thanks her. "Do you have anything light? Like some crackers or something?" The nurse nods, saying she'll be back in a second with some crackers.
"Harry baby, the nurse said she's going to bring you back some crackers, are you hungry?" Harry shakes his head, sighing a little. "Jus'..... tired." Louis nods, kissing his chapped lips and then his forehead. "Go to sleep then darling, I'll be here when you wake up." Harry smiles lightly, his eyes slipping shut and soon small snores can be heard showing how relaxed he is.
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When Louis wakes the next morning, the sun is shining brightly through the window. He stretches, then stands and closes the curtains, letting Harry get as much sleep as his body needs.
He turns his on, seeing a message from Gemma about the twins being crazy yesterday and then a few photos of them. Then a message from Anne saying that her and Darcy will be coming by at 10 o'clock, which is in only an hour. "Shit!" Louis curses, realising the time, he's obviously not going to get a shower but hopefully Anne will bring a bag for H that has some cologne.
"Oh! I can come back again if you want, I was just bringing him breakfast." A nurse says as comes into the room, seeing Harry still passed out on the bed. "No it's fine, he's should be waking any second.... thank you." Louis smiles as she places the food on the little moveable table and then leaves.
Hearing Harry start to groan makes him smile, moving over and rubbing his chest. "Hey, how are this morning?" He asks, watching as Harry sits up a little. "Sore.... why is my arm in a sling and why am I in the hospital Lou?" Louis sighs, he hates when Harry can't remember things.
"You has a seizure while Darcy and I were out yesterday, you rang me just as we were coming down our road, and you couldn't make a sentence. And then when Darcy and I came in we're on the ground and you cut your head open and popped your shoulder out H, so you had to come to hospital, and you had another seizure on the way here." Harry nods, looking at the food. "Are you hungry?"
He nods, reaching for the toast as Louis pushes the small wheely table to him. (Lowkey have no idea what they're called)
"Mmmm cold toast, lovely." Harry jokes as bites into the toast, making Louis chuckle. "Don't be to excited darling. By the way, mum and Darcy are coming by soon to check how you're doing."
Harry nods, finishing his toast and then having a little conversation with Louis about Darcy's meltdown yesterday. "Ok, I'll talk to her when I get out, we can go for lunch or something." Louis nods, hearing some voices outside.
"Good morning sweetheart, how are you feeling?" Anne says as she comes in, hugging Harry tightly and kissing his cheek. "Darc, Baby, papa told me about yesterday.... so I was thinking we could go out for breakfast once I get out of here?" Darcy nods, and Harry can see that behind all of the fear in her eyes that she wants o hug him. "You can hug me, you won't hurt me, you've just gotta watch my head and my shoulder." Darcy nods, smiling as they hug. It's a special hug, one that she receives after almost every seizure she's witnessed him have. It's one that says 'I'm ok, I'll always be ok', and she does always to try to remember that. But sometimes, the dark and painful thoughts just get the better of her.
She decides to lay on his bed with him, snuggling up to him, making Louis smile. "You two are just to cute." Louis says after he snaps a photo of them, smiling at them.
The four of them talk for a while, Darcy asks if she and Louis can take a walk. "Of course my darling, we'll be back soon H, don't get into to much trouble will you?" Harry shakes his head, kissing Louis as the father and daughter leave the room.
"So, what made you want to take a walk with me?" Louis questions as they walk to the front doors, turning to walk around in the garden.
The girl shrugs, trying to bring up the conversation they were having yesterday. "Ummm..... well, you never finished telling me about dads first big seizure he had in front of you... and I was just wondering what happened." She says unsurely, taking Louis hand as they sit on a bench in front of a pond. "Well..... where did I get up to yesterday? Oh just after he had the seizure in cafeteria...."
And so he tells her again, the story of the first haunting seizure Harry had in front of him.
Flashback:
"Just take it slow with him, Lou." Anne tells him, walking slightly ahead of the couple.
Louis kisses Harry's head, smiling when Harry looks up to him. "I love you baby, so so much... I never wanna lose you."
It only takes a second for Harry to go from standing on his own two feet, to being held up by Louis.
"Ok baby, it's ok.... Anne! Anne!" Louis calls as he struggles to hold Harry up, the younger boy tries to call for Louis but struggles, his tongue feels numb and his mouth won't move in the way he wants it to. "You don't have to talk darling, don't worry... Mamas here, she'll make it better." Anne whispers as she gently feels his face, her heart pounding as it always does when Harry has any type of seizure.
She softly tells Louis to place him on the ground, on his side if he can. "Harry darling, can you tell mum how you feel? What feels funny baby?" Anne whispers as she gently moves Harry's hair out of his face, kissing his forehead as the young boy tries to utter a single word to his mother. "Don't worry about it baby, you're ok... stay calm for me darling, Lou's here too, we're gunna help you baby, don't worry sweetheart." She looks to Louis, seeing his hoodie in his hands. "Can I please have your jumper? I need something to cushion his head when he starts seizing."
Louis nods, handing her the jumper and watching as she bundles it, "Can you please hold his head up so I can put this under it?" He gently wraps his fingers around the underside of Harry's head, lifting as Anne tucks it under his head. "Thank you Lou, he'll be alright." Anne assured the older boy, stroking Harry's hair as he tries not to fall into the seizure.
"Darling, let go.... you'll hurt yourself more if you try and stop it."
As if on command, Harry let's out a wounded cry as he starts to seize, his body going from still to moving in massive jerks. "Time the seizure Louis, please." Anne says, sitting back on her heels as Harry let's out groans and squeals. "Calm down darling, shhh... we don't need those noises do we?" Anne whispers as a small crowd start to form a little down the hall making her sigh and move to prevent them from seeing Harry in this state.
"Stop fucking staring! I literally just told you not to stare at him when he having a seizure! Fucking stop!" Niall spits at them, glaring as hard as he can at them.
He kneels down next to Anne, smiling sadly at her as she turns around. "I told him to be careful.... but he didn't listen." Niall says, making Anne nod. "He's alright, he's starting to slow down now." Anne whispers as Harry's seizing begins to slow and soon is breathing loudly, almost snoring, as he tries to come to. "You're ok baby, wake up for me... can you open your beautiful eyes for me darling?" Anne soothes, massaging his head.
His green orbs slowly flutter open, and he groans. Trying to tell his mother he doesn't feel right. "It's ok baby boy, we don't need you to talk yet... when your ready." Harry whines, grabbing her sleeve and tugging lightly - he doesn't have much strength. "You're ok, calm down darling... Louis' here, you wanna have a cuddle with him? Then I think we'll head home." Harry opens his mouth to speak, but gags and then vomits down the front of himself.
"Oh sweetheart, that's no good is it?" Anne quickly puts him back on his side so if he vomits again he won't choke on it. "Louis, can you please go to the nurses office and tell her Harry's had a seizure? And ask her to bring his little bag?" Louis nods, running down the corridor to the nurses office and knocking in a rushed manner.
She opens the door, and Louis tries to tell why he needs. "H-he um..... Harry...... I-I, the...." The nurse sits him down, telling to calm down so she can help him.
"Harry had a massive seizure and Anne wants you to go and bring his little bag?" The nurse nods, digging into one of her draws and pulls out a little pack, she asks Louis to show where the mother and son are.
"Oh my! He didn't hit his head did he Anne?" Anne shakes her head, wiping Harry's mouth as spit dribbles down his chin. "He vomited all over himself and he's taking a little longer to come to than I'd like." The nurse nods, scooting closer to him and quickly wiping away his vomit. "Hi Harry, is it ok if I take a little at you? I need to make sure you're ok, you had a seizure." Harry groans, he doesn't want to have a seizure.
"No Wan' seizure.." He slurs, tears welling in his eyes as slowly looks to his mother. "It's ok darling, you already had a seizure, you're recovering from one now baby. Don't cry sweetheart." Anne says, helping him sit up and lean against her. He slowly calms down, sniffling against Anne's neck. "Do you think you can stand sweetheart? Or do you want Lou to help you?" Harry looks at Louis, his brow furrowing as he looks at his boyfriend.
End Flashback:
"And so Nana and I took him out to the car and we went back to Nana's house and he was fine after a few hours."
Darcy nods, fiddling with her fingers. "I know it's scary sometimes baby, hell I remember one time when Nana was out with friends and I was staying the night and then dad had a big seizure and he stopped breathing and his lips went blue and then he started turning blue... that was the scariest thing ever, but he was fine once he came to."
They continue talking for a while, until Louis gets a call from Anne, her voice frantic as she tells Louis they need to come back to Harry's room immediately. "Let's go baby, I don't think dad's well."
They quickly run back to his room, seeing Anne near tears outside. "What's wrong? What happened?" She shakes her head, making him bring her in for a hug as she finally breaks down. "H-he just started seizing...... and then.... when he was in postictal he started seizing again, and then they made me come out here. My baby, Louis I want my baby to be ok." Louis nods, hugging her close and letting her cry on to his shoulder. "Excuse me, Mr. Styles is stable... we can only allow family in at this time though." Louis nods, smiling at Darcy and gesturing for her to come in.
"Would you like me to ring Aunt Gem? And ask if you can go to her place?" Darcy nods, looking at her sickly father as he sleeps peacefully on the hospital bed.
The little oxygen device sitting on his face and making him look even sicker. "She's coming baby, said she'll be here soon." Darcy nods, slowly walking to Harry bedside and grabbing his hand, she squeezes gently, afraid to apply to much pressure and hurt him further.
Before Louis can offer to take her down to the front of the hospital, a doctor comes in to talk to him. Telling him about what happened.
"Darcy baby, would you like me to walk with you down to the front? Aunt Gem's here." Darcy shakes her head, walking out of the room after giving everyone a kiss.
Louis sits down next to Harry's bed, his soft breaths easing Louis' anxiety a little. "What are we going to with him?" He chuckles lightly, grabbing Harry's hand and kissing his knuckles.
Anne smiles at the interaction, sitting herself in a seat a little further away from his bed. "The doctor said he was having cluster seizures, and his meds might not be working anymore. They're gunna try him one a new one, something like Valproic Acid... I don't know, maybe another one.. he was using big medical terms and I didn't know what he meant."
Anne chuckles, watching as he gently brushes Harry's hair out of his face and then gets a baby wipe from the bag that he'd brought and wipes Harry's face of all of the dried spit and blood.
She smiles to herself, feeling lucky for Harry. Louis takes such good care of him, and she couldn't have asked for a better man to marry Harry. "I'm going to get some coffee from the cafeteria, would you like a cup?" Louis shakes his head, asking for tea instead.
"What are we going to do with you H?" He asks rhetorically, rubbing his finger through Harry's hair.
After a while, Harry starts to come to, moaning as he opens his eyes and squints at Louis. "Wha'?" He slurs, his mouth obviously torn up. "You has a few seizures babe, we've gotta try you on a medication... don't worry though, you're ok."
With that, Louis carefully slides into Harry's bed, and they fall asleep together. Harry tucked into Louis chest as the older boy gently breathes into his hair.