Loving a Believer

Chapter 20: Cannot Be

I couldn't sleep. Who could sleep with what I heard? Hindi ko alam kung ilang minuto akong nakatalukbong ng kumot habang pinapakinggan ang pag-iyak ni Storm.

"Lord, I'm sorry..." I heard him say between his cries.

He kept saying "sorry" over and over, and I didn't have any idea what his sorry was all about.

Minsan talaga hindi ko maintindihan si Storm. Marami pa akong hindi alam tungkol sa kaniya, at hindi ko alam kung paano iyon aalamin dahil napakahirap niyang intindihin.

I just heaved a sigh and forced myself not to open my eyes so that I could sleep.

Mayamaya lang, wala na akong narinig na kahit ano mula kay Storm, ngunit naramdaman ko ang pag-alog ng kama, nangangahulugan na humiga na siya. Naghintay ako ng ilang sandali bago ko dahan-dahang inalis ang pagkakatakip ng kumot sa mukha ko. I looked at him - he was already sleeping. I just stared at his closed eyes that had no blemish of tears but they were swollen. However, it didn't minimize the handsomeness he had, at habang nakakasama ko siya nang matagal, lalo siyang gumug'wapo dahil sa maganda niyang attitude at behavior na pinapakita.

I felt a warm feeling in my chest while I was staring at him. I felt like I wanted to hug him, but I stopped myself. I shouldn't do that.

I just heaved a sigh and closed my eyes again.

***

I was awakened by the sunlight against my eyes, giving my face a warm touch. I sat up promptly and turned my head on my right side but Storm was no longer there. I just took a deep breath when I remembered the scene last night.

I took a peek at the wall clock - it was already past seven o'clock in the morning. I went straight to the bathroom and took a shower and then wore my school uniform. It was a good thing that my class was nine o'clock. I wasn't yet late.

I put a light make-up on my face before I fixed and arranged my things. Kukunin ko na sana ang libro ko sa study table nang mahagip ng mga mata ko ang isang libro na nakabuklat―it was Storm's Bible. Ito ang Bible na binigay sa akin ni Storm noon. Napansin kong hindi na patag ang pahina nito, tila nabasa ng tubig.
Nilapitan ko 'yon at dinampot. Nasa book of 2 Corinthians 'yon. I noticed that there was a verse highlighted by a marker, so I read it.

Do not try to work together as equals with unbelievers, for it cannot be done. How can right and wrong be partners? How can light and darkness live together? How can Christ and the Devil agree? What does a believer have in common with an unbeliever?

Napatigil ako nang mabasa ko iyon. Wala sa sariling dahan-dahan kong binitawan muli ang Bibliya at nilapag sa study table.

Do not try to work together as equals with unbelievers, for it cannot be done...

I wasn't stupid not to understand what I'd read. Storm was a believer and I was an unbeliever. It's clear in the Bible that a believer and unbeliever cannot be partners.

Did Storm violate the law of the Bible? I thought.

I attended the class with a chaotic mind, so the lessons my professor was discussing wasn't entering into my mind.

Since this morning, I had been thinking how Storm allowed himself to marry me when he knew that the Bible forbids the believers to marry an unbeliever. Now everything is clear why he was saying "sorry" to his God and why the pages of his Bible was wet - dahil 'yon sa mga luha niya na pumatak doon.