growing up can be hard.
facing unforgettable moments and transitions of who u are and what's your story. having major life crisis worrying about who is there at times? well this story is featuring just that.
having her whole life ahead JA'zARA Dougl...
Has changed drastically over the course of the new year , starting out with a horrible experience I've come to my senses and decided it was best to move on and enjoy life with someone who wants what I wanted.
My mother has beaten Cancer!!!!!
Which I prayed and thank God to remove from her life , but nothing isn't possible without him. After gathering my stuff I've moved out from Spanish town and lived in Kingston with Jadore who begged my mother to atleast accept him into our life.
God gave me a wonderful bundle of Joy , by Having my perfect Baby boy . His father didn't even came to the hospital but was very excited posting all over social media about him being a father.
I named my son Zaire kashwayne Bailey.
But I won't stress or let anything get me from being happy.
Life was bringing me happiness.
Present.
" mi tired," I exhaled rewatching my boomerang, deciding if I should upload something new or ghost the internet.
" yuh look sexy enuh," .
Looking up from the phone, Jadore stood by the door admiring me with a soft smile.
Since I've never enjoyed my birthday, he booked a hotel for me and my mother and the baby for 5 days . So it's our 3rd day here and already I've enjoyed quite enough excitement for the week.
" yuh nah stop say mi look sexy enuh ah bowy ," I smiled enjoying how much he admired my body for what it was instead of just ignoring it.
" but ah di truth b ," he whispered sitting beside me , I felt safe and happy around him.
My smile was endless.
" mi have a surprise fi yuh birthday, but ah when wi reach back dung a Kingston , " he laughs getting up off the bed, I snatched a pillow and throw it at him seeing his neck bend a little as the pillow hits.
" mi ago slap yuh back ," he jokes which caused me to erupt in laughter gaining the attention of my mother and Zaire.
" no sah a wah keep? Uno juss a mek pure noise ," she fussed rocking a sleeping Zaire while approaching the bed.
I cleared the area , allowing her to lay him down and let him get some rest .
Placing him on a white towel , his eyes flicked open starring up at me.
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" Hii my baby " I whispered making silly faces just to hear his little laughs, Jadore entered the room and stood beside me also making a silly face .
" Rude bowy ," he smiled picking him up.
I loved the little bond he has with Zaire , even though he is fully aware of the situation between me and dajuan. He didn't once try to say anything offensive or negative.
Glancing at my mother, my smile grew even wider . She was healthy and around me again.
She would tell me that angels came to her and spoke to her about my problems and that I needed her by my side so she knew there was no way she was gonna die and let me suffer.
" mummy pass di phone" .
She hands me the phone and I went outside to stand on the balcony. As the call connects, dajuan was seeing smoking while the screams of his daughter could be heard.
" weh mi ute deh?," he asked nonchalantly.
Not even a hello, good morning.
" see him yah " Jadore voice echoes , reaching out for the phone. He turns the camera and points the phone towards the baby and immediately Zaire began crying.
No shit !.
" seems like him nuh recognize him fada " I smiled sitting down .
Jadore had already went back inside to calm down the baby.
"seems like yuh did wah move on , cause from the looks a dat yuh seem happy bout him, " he says bitterly and I wanted to throw up mentally.
Dem bitter baby fada deh a swear !.
" hello if wi nah guh talk boh di baby it nuh mek sense, wi nuh deh again no relationship or anything connected but the baby " I stated trying to stick a pin into the real reason mi even keep him number.
else mi wudda juss block him and focus on my child and my little family.
" easy yuh fucking self, nuh get outta hand true yuh move on tuh a next man yer dat " he hissed rubbing his temple (neck back).
I sighed frustratedly.
" mi nah guh Inna di argument, cause weh yuh did deh when Zaire did a come outta me? Nuh unda yuh Nast gyal suh di fuck yah come gwan like a u star my show ?" I raged standing up once more.
He got quiet......real quiet.
Yuh know wah mi not even ago kill up mi self.
" mek mi know when yuh get yuh shit together an ready fi be a fada " I told him straight and hung up letting out a deep sigh.
Mi need fi get things sorted out , so I don't have to keep in contact with him . Cause slowly its drained so much out of my life and he feels as if am entitled to act like his Oman when him literally have hitches up and dung pon him cocky.
" why yah stress out chargi? Lowe out di man bredda cause wah dat fah " Jadore hissed joining me on the balcony.
He wraps around me, with his head in my neck as we enjoyed the view from high above. Jadore gets and understands the situation and wouldn't allow me to stress or even waste time bickering with dajuan.
" mi nuh know weh fi say honestly, at least you understand and get weh mi a stay him just wah mi fi stay single an run behind him an dah bitch deh " I hissed angrily.
Rubbing my shoulders, he kissed my neck and pulled away from me.
" just easy nuh, soon find a solution just gwan enjoy di get away wid yuh Mada an di baby " he smiled sitting down.
Just need fi exhale the stress and try to move on.
