POV | Yeji
She got behind me, kissing my neck, and touching my naked body softly yet with a little grip to it. I tilted my head to the other side, giving a soft moan, "Mmh.." Ryujin gave a bite and pushed me back, making me lay on top of her, she being pinned against our bed. I exhaled, leaning back in her neck. My wife massaged my shoulders, whispering, "Lay back with me.."
I slid off her carefully and laid more comfortably next to her. Ryujin put her hand on my body, moving it around, giving me butterflies in my stomach. She pecked my ear, "I miss you.." Shin Ryujin just admitted she misses me. Wtf. I widened my eyes and she looked up, "What?" I smirked, biting my lip, "So did someone miss me huh?" Ryujin huffed, "Shush!" I laughed and pulled her into a kiss.
Ryujin pulled away, "Why can't I miss you?" I furrowed my eyebrows, pulling on her neck, "It's just nice of you." She looked down, "I couldn't stop thinking about you and wanting to give you everything when you get back." I pouted, kissing her cheek, "Aww Ryu.." She blushed, pulling me for a long kiss that turned heated quickly. Ryujin moved, getting on top of me, and grind her body against mine.
I pulled away, exhaling, and looking at her hump me like a dog in heat. She ripped off her boxers and placed her pussy on top of mine. I grabbed her thigh, putting it over my thigh, so that way we feel each other better. Ryujin laid on top of me, gripping my body as she thrusted. I moaned, pulling her on me more, making her fall into my neck, and make hickeys. I gasped, throwing my head back, feeling overwhelmed with pleasure.
She lowered her voice, "Shh.. be quiet.." Shit. How the fuck am I supposed to stay quiet? Our kids were asleep which was basically good yet I could wake them up. I ran my fingers through her hair, begging, "Please harder~" Ryujin obeyed my wish, going hard enough to where the bed squeaked. She moaned too, "Ohh~ fuck~" I grabbed her neck, kissing her as our climaxes were reaching. We both moaned loud when we came, Ryujin falling off me after.
Breathing heavy right next to each other, one kid started crying. I looked at Ryujin, "Fuck.." She kissed me before getting up and putting her robe on to go check on them.
I was laying there for a while. And finally my heartbeat and breathing were normal again. I wondered what was taking so long. Soon, Ryujin came in holding Sana, our 4 month old baby. She was still crying. I sat up, taking her from Ryujin's arms, and held her to my chest. She grabbed onto my breast so I figured she wanted fed. Ryujin tiredly took off her robe and backhugged me on our bed. I leaned back in her arms, waiting for Sana to finish. Ryujin suddenly snuck under my arm and started sucking on my other boob.
"Ryu," I whined, holding up Sana and now her. Ryujin looked up at me and my milk started to come out. Shit she's better at it than Sana. Our baby took her mouth off so I held her tight while she fell asleep because I had to feed this one now. I chuckled, watching her, "You don't even like milk and now you like mine?" She huffed, finishing up, "Yes." I mumbled, "We have to save that for Sana, you know? No more special treats until she doesn't need as much anymore, okay?"
Ryujin kissed my neck, "Yes ma'am." Sana started crying again. I huffed, rocking her back and forth, "It's okay, momma's got you.." My wife held out her hands, "Let me have her." I looked up at her like she was crazy, "Ryu, I don't wanna make her cry even more." Ryujin always gets really frustrated when trying to calm down our kids to the point where they just have meltdowns.
She crossed her arms and I shook my head. I snuggled our baby tighter and picked up Ryujin's robe, wrapping it around me and the younger. As I was putting her in her crib, someone clinched onto my leg. I looked behind seeing our 2 year old and 4 year old. Great. I picked them both up, hearing them say, "Momma we couldn't sleep..." I sighed, "I know babies-" Then Sana started crying. Jesus.
I picked up Sana too, carrying all my kids downstairs, "Ryu put on some clothes," I said before entering the room when she let me. Ryujin looked at me, "Why are they all awake?" I gave a look and set Chaeyoung and Dahyun down on our bed. We both got on our bed, pulling them under the sheets with us, and snuggled our girls. Ryujin turned off the lamp and took Sana, holding her, making me feel anxious.
Ryujin rubbed her arm soothingly while the other girls fell asleep. Soon everybody was asleep but us. She kissed me softly, whispering, "It's more fun doing this with you." I kissed her back, "I'm glad I'm back." She pecked my cheek, "Goodnight, my love." I blushed, "Goodnight Ryu.."
| Time Lapse | The next morning
POV | Ryujin
I woke up drooling in Yeji's neck, nearly jumping when I didn't see Sana in my arms. I carefully wiped off my spit and looked around, seeing the kids gone. I was about to get up because I was terrified but Yeji put her arm around my chest sleepily. She wasn't awake. Panicking inside, the kids came in, and Chaeyeong was holding Sana. I took a sigh of relief and shifted my body, closing my eyes in Yeji's neck while my arms tightened around her waist.
Suddenly Yeji's phone started ringing. Yeji groaned, waking up, still holding me as she picked up the phone, "Hello?" I couldn't hear much of what the guy was saying. Yeji looked at me sadly though. My anxiety was racing again. "Alright, I'll be there." She ended the call and was about to say something before looking around, "Wait where are the kids?!" Chaeyoung showed up again with Sana in her arms, "Morning momma." Yeji sighed, whispering to me, "I-I have to leave again." My heart dropped.
"W-why?" I looked at her, pulling away a bit. "Work emergency. They need somebody to fly out. Not enough employees." I felt myself get teary and kissed all over her face, "P-please Yej.. don't leave me and the girls.. you just got back.." Yeji kissed me, "I have to baby.. do you have enough breast milk?" She took the sheets off and started packing quickly. "Uh a little bit left.." Yeji said, "I'll pump some in a minute, can you go get the kids breakfast while I get ready? My flight is at 2."
"B-baby.." I muttered softly. My wife came over and kissed me, "Ryu, kids." I furrowed my eyebrows, hugging her tightly. She laid her head on mine, holding me for a few seconds. I pulled away, looking up at her sadly, before leaving the room. I picked up Sana, putting her in the baby harness I attached to my chest, and lowered my head. I got out baby food and cooked up pancakes. I wasn't hungry and it was pretty obvious as to why.
| Time Lapse | 30 minutes later
Yeji came in the room with her suitcase and bags, fully dressed, makeup, everything. I will admit, she's good at doing things fast. She put a few bottles of breast milk on the counter. My wife kneeled down, "Dahyun, Chaeyoung come here!" She put her hands on each of their cheeks and said, "Momma has to go somewhere again for work, okay? Mommy's gonna be here though, she's gonna take care of you just like she's done before."
Chaeyoung started whimpering, "W-what?! Momma don't leave us!" I choked on my saliva and looked the other way, I couldn't stand to see my daughters crying. Yeji said, "H-hey, Chae I'll be back before you know it. Come here babies, I love you so so much, we can call, I'll send you stuff, don't worry. And I don't wanna leave my baby girls either but I have to, okay?" I looked over again, seeing her hug the crying girls. Yeji kissed their foreheads both and went over to me. Fuck.
A tear slid down my face and she kissed Sana's forehead, "I love you Sana-ssi." She was asleep. Now it's my turn. Yeji wiped my tear and kissed me softly and I just started crying harder. I looked away and she rubbed my cheek, "Hey you're gonna be okay, you've got our girls." I whispered, "Not all of them." Yeji frowned and kissed my cheek, "I have to get going Ryu.. I'll text what the stuff you need to when I get to the airport, okay? I love you." We kissed one last time and I mumbled, "I love you."
Yeji took a deep breath, grabbing her bags, and waved, "I'll see you guys soon, okay? Bye!!" She closed the door and it was just silence. Well with the sniffles and whimpers going around in the room. I wiped my tears quickly and heard the beep on the pan, making me put the pancakes on plates for them. "Dah, Chae, go sit down at the table." Soon, I came over, putting Sana in her baby high chair, feeding her yogurt as the girls ate their pancakes. Still some sniffles.
"Why do momma have to leave again?" Dahyun asks. "Cause she's stupid!" Chaeyoung cries. My ears and eyes perked up, looking at my eldest, "Chae, who taught you that word?" Chaeyoung yelled, "I don't care! Momma is stupid!" I licked my lips, putting down the spoon I was feeding Sana with, and softly spoke, "Chae, can you come with me to the bathroom?" She huffed, getting up, and going with me. I closed the door and asked, "Can I give you a hug?"
She looked at me and huffed, soon nodding her head. I hugged her softly, "I get it baby.. trust me, I did not want her to leave again, but it's what she has to do, okay? That's why she can get you toys, food, and everything you want. So don't call her stupid, she's your mother, and she loves you a lot and she would do anything to stay here with us but it's out of her power. One thing I must teach you in life is that life doesn't always go your way. Sometimes we react to it and get upset or we can find the good in things like that you even have a mom to be here with. But almost always, things will turn out good, okay?"
Chaeyoung nodded, "I-I'm sorry.. I shouldn't have said that." I pulled away, "It's okay. Always remember that though. Now let's go finish breakfast."
| Time Lapse | 3 weeks later
I was out with the kids at the park, all of them in a triple stroller, and the leash to our dog on my wrist. It was a quiet afternoon almost evening, the kids pretty quiet too. They've always been like that though. It makes sense because me and Yeji are both pretty quiet. Ugh there she is again. Yeji. It has been a lot longer than we all expected. She still wasn't home.
I was running out of breastmilk, which was perfect. I was fucking tired. Changing diapers, feeding 3 girls, dishes, laundry, dressing them, getting groceries, walking the dog, working from home, and all this shit.
Soon, I had gotten back home, and put the girls to sleep while I couldn't make it to my bed and snoozed on the couch, I was so fucking tired. Suddenly, I felt something touch my face so I groaned and turned the other way, "Go back to sleep.." Then something touched my lips. I flinched, opening my eyes, looking at the pair of lips on mine. I pulled away, looking back at Yeji. I gasped, hugging her tightly. Yeji ran her hands through my hair, "You look tired." I pulled away again, "Ya think?"
My wife frowned, "I-"
I interrupted her, saying in a stern voice, "You didn't tell me you were coming home."
Yeji looked at me, "Well I wanted to surprise you."
"You surprised me by being gone for almost a whole fucking month." I will admit, I was still pissed about it.
She nervously looked down, "Yeah.."
I sighed, "Goddamnit. I can't tell if I'm mad at you or happy you're back. A little bit of both actually."
Yeji looked at me carefully before grabbing her bags and carrying them to our bedroom. She came back in a couple seconds later, and looked around at the mess with toys. "They've kept you busy."
I just straight up said it, "I can't do it again."
"What?"
"I can't handle everything on my own. Tell your boss you can't do the trips anymore."
Yeji wrinkled her eyebrows, "Who are you to tell me what to do?"
"I can't fucking do it anymore!" I yelled.
"Shh! You're gonna wake up the kids, are you nuts?!" She looked at me.
"Fuck it, I'll do it my goddamn self!" I grabbed her phone.
Yeji ran over to me and tried to grab her phone back and I growled, fighting off her grip, and my hand slung back. Smack.
She lost her balance, trembling, and grabbing her nose. Blood rushed out of her nose. Yeji looked at me terrified. Maybe a stronger emotion than terror. Betrayal.
I gulped, "I-I didn't mean to hit-" Cries and whimpers were heard. Chaeyoung was standing at the bottom of the stair case with tears streaming down her face. She watched me hit her momma..
Yeji quickly grabbed tissues and bundled them up in her nostrils, going over to our daughter. She picked Chae up, walking up the stairs, and all I could see was her red sobbing face in Yeji's neck.
I set down her phone on the counter, standing there in shock. I fucked up.
| Time Lapse | The next morning
I woke up in my bed, noticing that Yeji had slept somewhere else. Then looking over to see that it was 12 pm. Jesus, I slept in that late? I groaned, stretching out, and dreading the moment I left this room. Quietly, I stepped out, looking at Yeji in the kitchen. The kids were eating lunch. Her nose looked a little bit better. She cleared her throat, walking over to me, trying to give a sign that we should not talk in front of the kids.
Yeji took my hand into our bedroom and shut the door. I looked down, "Yeji, I wanna apologize-" She looked at me, saying, "This is MY job, okay? Look I get it, you had a lot to do, but we can hire a babysitter or something. This is my fucking job and I'm not gonna have you tell me what to do."
"Yeji. We have 3 kids, all under the age of 5, and they fucking need you, okay? Not just me, they do. They don't need a babysitter, they sure as hell don't need me anymore.. but they need you, okay? You're still breastfeeding for fucks sake! Sana is 5 months old now. You're missing it all happen. I'm sorry, but I want them to have their mom when they're growing up because one day you're gonna regret it and you're not gonna be able to go back. And I get that it's your job but Yeji there's plenty of more jobs in this world that don't require you to have to be gone gone all the time. I miss you, okay? We miss you. It hurts us." I put my hand on her cheek, "But I shouldn't have hurt you and I do apologize for that."
Yeji removed my hand, not saying anything. I furrowed my eyebrows, looking at her, "Please Yeji.. they need you." She sighed, "Fine." With that, she moved me, walking out of the room. I bit my lip, following her into the kitchen. Chaeyoung looked at me like I was the guiltiest person alive. I looked down, just starting to give up. It was like everybody was against me. I sadly grabbed my phone and my keys, and opened the front door.
I got in my car and drove off, not even knowing where I was going. Truth is, I am bipolar. I do took my medications but sometimes I can't control it. Especially since I didn't take them today. Or yesterday. I was sick of it honestly.
So fuck it.
| Time Lapse | Later that night
POV | Yeji
I was laying in bed, under the sheets, worried. I hadn't heard from Ryujin and it was starting to scare me. I picked up my phone, checking text messages to see if she had responded... nope. Fuck. Why is she doing this? I licked my lips, my heart racing at an unsteady beat. I wonder if she's okay and safe. She has to be.
| Seven days later |
Fuck. Ryujin's gone M.I.A and the cops are out looking for her, and the girls were terrified seeing me talk to a cop and not seeing their mom. Goddamnit Ryujin, I can't believe this is happening. Then my phone started ringing, I picked it up, and the cop said, "Hello, is this Hwang Yeji?" I nervously said, "Y-yes, yes it is. Do you have any updates on Shin Ryujin?"
"Yes ma'am, we have her down at the station right now." I gasped, "Okay, okay, I'll be right there!" I hung up, grabbing my jacket and keys, speeding my way down to the police station. I walked in, rushing over, and seeing her in handcuffs, the cop taking them off once I was standing there. I gasped, hugging Ryujin tightly, and tears fell down my cheeks. I pulled away, holding her neck, and looking into her eyes. She looked empty.
"Mrs. Hwang, your wife here was involved in a car crash... that's how we found her." My face looked terrifed. I looked at Ryujin, my mouth open, and my eyes lost. The cop said, "We have previous records of her bipolar acts and tested to see if she was on her medication which she was not. We recommend you give her medication as soon as we discharge her because if it happens again, she will serve jail time or inpatient service."
I nodded, looking at him. "Alright, you're free to go." I grabbed Ryujin's hand, taking her to my car. She got in the passenger seat and was silent. "You scared the living hell out of me Ryujin! You fucking hit me and my nose was bleeding for 2 days! And now you got in a fucking car crash?! And you're off your meds?! What the hell! Ryujin, what has gotten into you?!" She looked at me, again empty, "You fucking left me."
I looked at her, "Ryujin! I already said I'd quit my job! What else do you fucking want?! The kids are afraid of you, you know!" She furrowed her eyebrows when she heard about the kids. I teared up, hitting my head against the interior of my car, "Fuck man.." Ryujin didn't say anything until we got home. I opened the door, getting out, and going to the front door. Ryujin got out, mumbling, "Yeji.."
"What?" I looked at her. "I-I don't think it's right for me to be here.." I spoke, "Be where?" She sighed, "Here, with you and the kids." I wiped a tear that came down my cheek, "So what are you saying?" Ryujin was about to speak but the front door opened with the kids staring at her. Chaeyoung looked like she saw a ghost. Ryujin whispered, her voice breaking, "I don't want to hurt you guys."
"Why would she hurt us?" Dahyun held Chaeyoung. Tears were streaming down my cheeks and I picked up the girls, closing the door. "M-momma why are you crying?" Dahyun asked. I cried harder, holding them tightly. Then I remembered I was a parent. I took deep breaths, saying, "Mommy isn't gonna be around for awhile." They both started sobbing. It broke my heart. "B-but she just got back... s-she wouldn't hurt us!" Chaeyoung yelled. I licked my lips, "Girls, it's finally time I tell you this."
They looked at me strangely. "Mommy has something she can't control. But she has medicine like you guys take when you're sick that helps control it. When she doesn't take it, she can't control. Does that make sense?" Chaeyoung tilted her head, "So mommy's sick?" I nodded, "Yes. But a different kind of sick. Not like a cold." They looked down, "Why won't she take the medicine?"
"I don't know," I said truthfully. Dahyun cried, "I want mommy backkkkk!" The kids started sobbing in my arms and throwing tantrums. I held them tight, "Shh.. it's okay, mommy will be back.." They yelled, "I want her right now!" I gulped, saying, "Shhh.. you guys need to get some sleep and I'll talk to her while you're sleeping, okay?" They huffed, going upstairs, and I followed, tucking them in their beds. Sana was still in her crib. I closed the door, going downstairs, and picked up my phone.
I called Ryujin.
POV | Ryujin
I heard my phone ringing and I don't know why, but I picked it up. "Hello?" The other line said. Yeji speaking.
I mumbled, "What?"
"I explained to the girls how it works."
"How what works?" I raised my eyebrow.
"Bipolar." Yeji says.
I clinched my teeth, "Without me, huh?"
Yeji spoke, "Ryujin.. you said it'd be best to take time, the girls were sobbing, and they wanted you back. They couldn't understand it, I mean they're 2, 4. I tried my best to explain it the best I could-"
"You're not the fucking one who has it." I hissed.
"Ryujin? I've been here for you every step of the way in this."
"Oh really huh? Then where are you right now?"
"Ryujin! You wanted to take time! Goddamnit, where the hell are you?!"
I growled, "So now you want to show up?"
"You're not making any fucking sense, Ryujin. You're sick. I need you to come home."
I hung up, pissed off, and put my phone in my pocket. Fuck her for telling me that shit. Fuck this.
| Time Lapse | 10 minutes later
Someone grabbed me, taking me into an alley, and covered my mouth. I panicked, looking back, and the girl took her hood down. Fuck. Yeji held both of my hands behind my back and removed her hand from my mouth. "What the hell! Let me go!"
Yeji put her chin on my shoulder, her other hand moving around my waist. It was quiet and her breathing on my skin made me loosen my muscles. I looked down, "What are you gonna do?"
She kissed my lips, "You realize I love you, right?" I looked down, "Just put me on the meds.." Yeji pulled away, still holding my arm as she put me in her car. I felt sad. I felt like I ruined it.
Yeji took me home that night, made me swallow my pills, and stripped me, giving me a bath. I was laying in the bathtub as she cleaned my body with soap, "You've been awful quiet. Are you okay?" She asked while water splashed. I whispered, "I apologize for everything I said." My wife stayed steady and looked at me, "It's okay. I shouldn't have said anything either. But we're a team, okay? I love you," She kissed my lips so softly.
I furrowed my eyebrows, wrapping my wet hands around her neck, and pulling her in for longer kisses. Yeji pulled away after a few minutes and kissed my forehead. "Shit I got your shirt wet," I mumbled. "It's okay Ryu." Yeji ruffled my hair and squirted out shampoo, making me move forward as she massaged it into my hair. I closed my eyes, leaning against the other woman I cared about so much. Yeji says, "It's like I had another kid," She and I both chuckled. Then she whispered in my ear, "Wanna know a secret? You're my favorite." I blushed, giving a little grin which made her laugh.
Yeji filled a cup of water and dumped it over my head, rinsing it. The rest of the bath was soothing and warm. Once she was finished, she got off her knees, and stood up, saying, "I'm gonna get you some pajamas, I'll be right back." Very soon, she came back, and helped pull me out, wrapping a warm towel around me. I dried myself off along with her help as she dressed me comfortably.
Yeji smiled, "I'm gonna change real quick." She was drenched and I kinda felt bad. But she soon came back, draining the tub, and took my hand, pulling me to bed. I laid there with Yeji in my arms. It was peaceful. I ran my fingers through her hair, kissing her nose, "I'm sorry baby.. you don't deserve me.." She stopped smiling and put her hand on my cheek, "What?"
I looked down. "Baby.. you can't control what happened.." I said, "I could've taken my meds." Yeji tilted my head, "Are we really gonna do this? Ryujin, listen, we can't change what happened in the past, but we can learn from the past, and change what happens to the future. My future is you. And yes honey, I deserve you." I was kissed after being scolded by my lover and gave a little blush. My wife and I kissed for a few minutes until we were both tired. That night we cuddled the whole time.
When I woke up, my wife was still in my arms. I never wanted to let her go. Yeji smiled, snuggling me tight suddenly.
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