ok hi well i'm genuinely upset and my heart hurts bc ashton and bryana are dating or talking or whatever and idk
idc that people will think that i'm stupid for not being happy for him like i am happy that he found someone he likes but that doesn't make the aching pain in my chest go away because like here i am writing fucking stories and books about these four amazing boys that have overtaken my life and made me happy and excited and just overall a better person and i talk about them like they put the stars in the sky but they don't even know i exist and it makes me sad that they take up a majority of my everyday life and i'm merely a face in the crowd to them
fuck idk i just never thought it would hurt this bad and i never thought i would get so attached to them
ugh
