Before The Rainy Day Ends (Rain Series # 1)

Comienzo

Love is a cycle.

You meet a stranger, you become friends with him, then, you will fall in love. Eventually, you'll fall out of love, and you're back again to becoming strangers. Tapos... makakahanap ka ulit ng iba and the same thing goes by.

Hindi ko lang alam if that's the case for everyone.

Kasi sa'kin... parang gano'n.

What's worst about it is that... hindi mo alam kung lahat ba ng mga taong dumaan sa buhay mo ay minahal mo talaga. Maraming possibilities.

Maaaring infatuation lang pala iyon. Maaari ring... hindi siya genuine love. Pwede ring dala lang ng kalandian and our desire to fulfill our love fantasies.

Nonetheless, we can't deny that every relationship has special place in our hearts. 'Yung scenario na kapag tinanong ka ng kaibigan mo about your past love, may masasabi ka kaagad. Kasi... you have memories together. Painful man or hindi, that's still memorable.

Kaya nga I really have this strong belief na you can't move on with someone. I mean, he became part of your life so... moving on means you're letting go of a portion of yourself.

Well... that's just how I think.

"You're staring at the rain again..." 

Hindi ko namalayan na pumasok na pala si Papa sa kwarto ko. I was alone the whole time as far as I can remember.

"Hobby mo na ba 'yan, anak?" He jokingly said at saka tumabi sa akin.

Napailing na lang ako. "I just spaced out, 'Pa. H'wag ka pong issue."

"I don't think so..." He examined my facial expression. "You don't look fine at all."

I rolled my eyes. So what if I am not?

People are supposed to feel a variety of emotions. Bad days are normal. Hindi lang iyon magiging okay kung i-te-take mo ito as fully negative.

"I don't really want to disturb you dahil mukhang nagdi-deep talk ka sa isip mo."

I sighed. "But you still disturbed me."

"You have a visitor."

Umawang ang labi ko. Really?

"Kahit umuulan?"

Kumunot ang noo niya. "Why? Banned ba ang mga sasakyan kapag rainy days?"

Umikot muli ang mata ko. "Where is he?"

"He? Nag-e-expect ka talaga, ano?"

Umiling ako. Definitely not, I really thought that he was just joking about coming here.

"Should I let him in?"

"Pinaghintay niyo sa labas?"

He nodded.

"What?! Baka mabasa iyon!"

"What I mean is sa living room..." Natatawang aniya. "I thought basted na siya sa'yo? Bakit mukhang concerned ka?"

"Human connections..." Nakangiwing sagot ko. And when did I tell him na binasted ko siya? I couldn't remember. "Just... let him in."

Tinitigan niya ako.

"I'm starting to get suspicious..."

"Papa!"

"Fine, fine!" May halo pa ring pang-aasar na sabi niya. "I'll let him in..."

Hindi na ako sumagot at hinintay siyang makalabas ng kwarto.

Napatitig ako sa labas. Ang lakas pa rin ng ulan. Mukhang matutuloy nga ang bagyo bukas.