Niall Horan Imagines

Imagine for Sonal!

“I can’t keep doing this,” You said, more for yourself than for anyone else, as you shook your head. Tears raced down your face and you used all of your power to hold back obnoxious screams.

“Doing what?” Niall snapped. “Crying and running away? Ha, me either!” He had a look of disgust on his face and he shooed you away. “You know, one minute we’re madly in love and the next we’re throwing each other off of cliffs. I don’t know what to do with you anymore!”

“This isn’t just confusing for you, Niall! You’re not the only one suffering here! I am too, okay. I’m confused, too. I’m scared, too,” You argued, crossing your arms over your chest and slowly backing away from him until your back hit the wall with a thud.

He let out a sharp breath before placing his hands on either side of the wall behind you, locking you in your place. He was so close to you, you could hear his raging heartbeat. He gritted his teeth and stared into your eyes.

“Are you kidding me?” He growled. “You’re not suffering,” He said with a pathetic laugh.

You turned your face away, closing your eyes and whimpering as he grew closer than you were comfortable with at that particular time.

“You’re not the one that has to hide all the time. I have to go out in the world and pretend that everything between me and you is perfectly fine. I have to pretend that we’re still in love and that being with you is all great. Well, it’s obviously not! Do you know how hard it is to lie all of the time? To lie and say, ‘Oh yea, she’s great!’ when people ask. Or to say, ‘I love her more than anything’ in every interview. I can’t stand it anymore!” He shouted.

Your voice cracked as you whispered, “You don’t love me, Niall?” You could almost feel your heart breaking as you stood there, the anger bouncing off of each other.

He breathed heavily as he shook his head and stepped away from you. “Don’t make me answer that,” He barked, looking away from you.

“Niall,” You cried. “I thought you- I thought…” You were finding it difficult to even form a sentence as your voice shattered and your lips quivered.

“Well you thought wrong,” He hissed, running his fingers through his hair.

“I can’t believe you!” You shouted, pounding your fist against the wall. “I gave you everything! I loved you so much! You meant so much to me! How could you just ignore that? How could you lie to me this whole time, and have me thinking that you felt the same about me?!” You felt yourself tremble and you used every ounce of strength in your fragile bones to hold yourself up.

The next thing you knew, you felt a sting across your face. Your hands immediately flew to your face, causing you to lose your balance and end up on the floor, anyway. Your tears paused as you realized what had just happened. You sucked in a shaky breath. The room was so silent; you could have heard a pin drop. The only thing that could be heard was the sound of Niall’s heavy breathing and your shaky breaths.

You whimpered again and closed your eyes as your vision clouded over. You felt a pair of strong arms wrap around your body and lift you up, and you cried out. “Put me down!” You screamed. “Niall, let go of me!”

He didn’t listen and instead, he carried you to your shared bedroom, setting you down softly on your bed. You felt him slide a pillow underneath your head, but you kept your eyes shut tightly, scared of what you might see if you opened them.

He placed a blanket over your figure and you heard him sigh before you heard a sound that you almost thought wasn’t real. Your eyelids fluttered open as you heard a sniffle. You looked up to see Niall hovering above you, just as you felt a warm tear drop onto your face and slide down your cheek, expect for once, it wasn’t your tear.

“I’m so sorry,” He whispered, and his voice sounded just as broken as your heart.

You blinked and took a deep breath before looking away. You couldn’t stand to look into his eyes when he was like this.

“Sonal,” He whispered your name and you felt his soft lips touch your forehead. “I hate myself so much right now. I can’t believe I did this to you,” He traced a finger along your shivering skin.

“You said you didn’t love me,” You squeaked, your voice sounding so small and insecure.

He flinched and bit his lip, shaking his head as tears fell from his eyes and onto your clammy skin. “I’m so sorry,” He repeated himself. “I do, I do love you, Sonal, I promise. I promise I love you more than I can even explain. I love you so much, why did I say that?! Why am I so messed up? Oh, I’m so sorry, baby.”

You wiped at your eyes and stayed quiet.

“You’ll never trust me again, and I understand that,” Niall said. “But I promise you that I really do love you, and I always have, and I’ll do anything to prove that to you. I know you’re hurting, baby, because I am, too. But I want to do this over again. I want to take it all back and actually say the right things this time. Please? Please look past this and let me try again. I promise I’ll get it right this time.”

You nodded, without knowing what to say. He kissed your temple, and traced the outline of your face with his finger. “I love you,” He whispered, while showering your face in wet kisses. “I love you, I love you,” He said in between each kiss.

You sniffled and turned your head at just the right time, so that his lips would connect with yours.

**Wow, this was a hard one to write! You wanted it to be emotional, so I hope this is good. I hope you liked it!**