Stray Kids Ships One-shot

[SeungJin] Selfish

A/N: This one is special to me. It makes me scared at the same time sad. I'll explain later.

Ship: SeungJin

Hyunjin
Seungmin

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I can't bare it, seeing you smile and laugh because of others

He was the one who made me smile and laugh when you weren't there

Why do you look at others, when I'm here

They were there when I needed you the most

I admit I'm angry and jealous
I don't want you talking to others, just me

I also get angry and jealous when you talk to others
But I didn't stop you from talking to others

I got used to being only the two of us
You're attention only on me

I can give you my attention
But not when you're like this

I know I'm being selfish but, I don't want to loose you
I don't want to loose your attention
I want you to focus on me

I wanted to be selfish, I wanted you for myself
But I didn't. I didn't take you for myself
Cause I know, you also have your own life

I'm scared the moment you look at others
You'll leave me
I don't want to be left alone

I won't leave you if you don't give me a reason to leave
And I already know what it felt to be left alone
And you know it because you were the reason I was left alone

The only way I thought of was distancing myself
But it was harder than I thought
I couldn't bare seeing you happy with others

Because of what you did, I got more broken than I already am
Why can't you be happy that I'm happy?
Why are you breaking me like this?

I want to see you happy because of me and only me

I can't be happy, if you're restricting me like this

I want you to stay by my side
Don't leave me side
Only talk to me
I'm selfish, I only want you for myself

No, I can't
I won't always be by your side
People come and go in our lives
I once wanted to be selfish but I held myself back

I won't let you go
You're mine
You'll forever be mine

You're crazy
I'm not yours, I'm no ones property
Let me go, I need to be free

I Love you

Don't leave me Seungmin, please don't

Hyunjin, you're killing me. You have to set me free.

I'm selfish for you

I'm selfish for my freedom

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A/N: Done! This one is the shortest so far.

Okay, right the explanation.
Well, my friend(a girl) got possessive of me. We've been friends since our 8th grade, and got close on 9th. We're now on our 10th.
Since 9th she always gets jealous easily. She once got jealous and cried when I talked to my crush.
She's only like this to me.
And yesterday (Oct 20, 2018) she told me she was jealous.
I was talking to someone different. Well they wouldn't talk to me so I talked to someone different. And she's jealous because of that.
She said that I was only hers or something like that which creeped me out.
Mom said it might be because she was traumatized or she likes me romantically(I don't wanna believe that) or she's a obsessed psycho.
I put myself into Seungmin and her into Hyunjin.
I'm still scared, so give me advice on this.