It's hard to describe it,
The emptiness I feel,
It's as if you've been hit,
By something that isn't real.
I was there for the worst,
Waiting for you to come back,
With this love I am cursed,
And I'm under attack.
Because when you left things suddenly changed,
My mind was unhinged while my heart was in pain,
My world is rearranged,
As I struggle with these chains.
There is no want or need,
For food nor water,
Even if it's like birdseed,
This disease has got her.
The day is a fog, cold and dark,
My nights a nightmare,
As I cry myself to sleep in the dark,
I wonder if you care.
Because as you're strong and ok,
I am not,
As I wither away during the day,
And by night I'm close to forgotten.
But if I died how would you feel?
Would you even miss me?
Or know how to deal?
As I think of the lost promises that could be.
Because though you once cared,
You don't know how much I did,
The impact of those moments we shared,
You made me feel like I wasn't some kid.
Did you know that while you were away,
I missed you back here,
I would wear your necklace,
To make you feel near?
Because now I can't take it off,
Even though you left,
Because I'm so lost,
After my heart encountered a theft.
Because I love you everyday,
Even when you hurt me,
In any kind of way,
I'll still be here wait and see.
If only you knew this pain I feel,
After the faded bliss,
Maybe you would know it was real,
If only you knew this.
