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The sound of lightening a lighter made its way to Jimin's ear, followed by the quieter sound of paper catching fire and soon a smoke cloud left the older's mouth.
Jimin caught himself staring at his Hyung who was lighting his cigarette and taking a long drag before releasing the smoke.
It's still unusual and strange to see Yoongi smoking, but Jimin guesses he will have to get used to it since Yoongi seems to be smoking daily.
"Still haven't stopped smoking?" Jimin cuts off the silence which has been surrounding him since they sat down on a bench in a small park.
Yoongi smirks, "I can't survive one day without these little bitches."
Jimin chuckles at his Hyung's responds while watching him taking another drag of the small life taker.
"How comes?"
Yoongi shrugs, "I don't know. Once you start smoking you can't stop. It takes away the stress somehow."
"Really?" Jimin rose his eyebrows, eyes resting on the older's beautiful lips.
"Yeah. Whenever I smoke it's so-- well how to say it's a satisfying feeling you know." Yoongi responds finally looking back at Jimin, their eyes meeting and staring at each other what felt like 100 years.
The younger is the first one to break the eye contact, his shoes somehow seeming more interesting than Yoongi's beautiful dark brown eyes.
"How is your face by the way?" Jimin asks after the older hasn't said anything in addition to his explanation of what he feels while smoking.
Once again the older shrugs, "It's fine I guess it doesn't hurt."
Jimin nods, not looking at his Hyung who also is looking at a different direction.
"I-- I didn't get to thank you yesterday.." Jimin says, thinking about it the whole night but somehow he forgot to tell it when he had the chance to. But the almost kiss and the skinship were too much for his head and heart to deal with. He doesn't even know what he did or said last night, his mind was so full that time that he barely noticed his surroundings or anything that wasn't Yoongi.
"It's okay." The older responds, throwing his cigarette away, "You don't have to thank me."
"I do. W-without you he--"
"Forget about it okay? Don't think about it." Yoongi interrupts him.
Jimin nods slowly still looking down on his feet.
The almost kiss popped up in his head once again, making his heart race once again. It has started racing fast the second he and Yoongi left the cafe but now remembering how close they were, how small the gap between their lips was, makes him shiver and his heart run a marathon.
Before he could think any farther about his feelings, the older brings him back to reality.
"How are you feeling today?" Yoongi asks his gaze meeting Jimin's.
Jimin shrugs, "I'm fine."
Another moment of silence took place before Yoongi suddenly stood up from the bench making Jimin frown.
"Let's go somewhere else." Yoongi shrugs, already going ahead while Jimin is still sitting on the bench.
Following his Hyung Jimin thinks about what place they are going to go but Yoongi just remains quiet.
When they arrived at a certain 'restaurant', Jimin immediately knew what Yoongi wants to do there.
"Let's go inside." The older says, grabbing Jimin's wrist and pulling him inside of the building.
The smell of fast food immediately found its way to Jimin's nose making him feel dizzy and as if he has to vomit any second. It's so strong and way too much for his stomach but he stays quiet so Yoongi won't notice.
"Two McSundays. One with caramel and one with chocolate, please."
The older one of them orders, getting a nod from the worker as a response before the man turns around to make the ice cream.
Meanwhile, Yoongi looks at Jimin who is playing with his fingers a bad habit of his when he isn't feeling well or when he is nervous.
"Is everything okay?" Yoongi asks the younger, causing Jimin to look at him with a slightly shocked expression as if he got caught stealing something.
"Y-yeah." Jimin nods but gulps at the same time hoping that the older hasn't noticed his sudden change.
After a few minutes the order was finished and Yoongi had paid, the two now searching for an empty table, finding one next to a window.
They sit down quietly, Jimin saying a small thanks to Yoongi for the ice cream even if he really doesn't want to eat it.
It is hot and humid in the restaurant, at least for Jimin, and everything smells like 'disgusting' fast food, as if the air they breathe in is made out of the smell of fries and burgers and Jimin immediately felt the urge to vomit just by breathing in this air.
Of course he tries his best not to show it in front of the other male who is looking out of the window while eating his caramel ice cream, like they used to do in the past.
"Remember how we used to go to McDonald's every time we met?" The older asks suddenly making Jimin looking up from his ice cream that he hasn't touched yet. It was as if Yoongi read Jimin's mind and knew what the younger was thinking about.
Of course he remembers, how could he not? How could he forget about the time, the wonderful time they spent together?
"I-I remember." Jimin responds before Yoongi looks at him, both of them staring at each other once again on this day.
The younger looks down on his ice cream, playing with it rather than eating it.
"You don't like chocolate ice cream anymore?"
Jimin frowns at the other's questions, but he just shrugs, not knowing what to answer.
"I was in thoughts." He simply responds, thinking this was the best excuse he could make. Even if it's hard for Jimin, since he has already eaten today, he still tries the ice cream so that his Hyung hasn't wasted his money for buying it.
Yoongi nods, a silence fell over them once again.
Jimin heart is racing fast, the humid place and strange smell making him feel dizzy.
Everything in this place, even if it's not the same restaurant (since they met in Seoul not in Daegu), reminds him of Yoongi, their relationship every memory coming back hitting him like a wave of emotions in addition to his urge to vomit and the suffocating feeling.
It feels like something cut his breath away, rip his heart out of his chest, Jimin feels like having a panic attack and maybe he did, Jimin isn't sure since what is happening at the moment, his head is spinning.
"Jimin you okay?" Yoongi asks worried grabbing the younger's hand, making it even worse for Jimin.
The younger is breathing heavily, his heart running fast in his chest, while Yoongi almost freaked out not knowing what's wrong or what to do.
"Let's go outside for some fresh air." The older says helping Jimin to stand up from his seat to bring him outside.
A breeze of fresh air hits Jimin and it's like he woke up from a bad dream, finally being back in reality.
His heart is still beating fast and his breathing still hasn't got back to normal but he is feeling way better.
Suddenly Jimin feels strong arms around his slim body, hugging him tightly as if his life depends on the younger human being.
"I'm so sorry, Jiminie."
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Argh i haven't written on this book since September 2nd ugh kill me
However to all German readers:
Ich habe ein Buch mit Zitaten aus 'Demian' von Hermann Hesse, schaut doch bitte mal vorbei würde mich freuen!
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