A/N: will I reach 2k followers till my bday (13th September) as a present? Rather not lol
THANKS FOR 80K+ READS
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Looking at the food in front of him, Jimin feels strange pain rushing through his stomach, either signalling him that he shouldn't eat it since he will vomit anyways or that his stomach is literally screaming for food.
No matter what it means Jimin isn't sure if he should touch the meal he just prepared or not.
It isn't something big, just some healthy food and not even enough to make someone full but in Jimin's eyes it's way too much. Too much for him.
For my mother. For my friend. For me. For my health, I have to do it.
Slowly moving his chopsticks to his mouth, Jimin closes his eyes and pulling his lips apart.
For my health.
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"So what's up?"
Yoongi can't take his eyes off Donghyuk's quitely visible collarbones, the dry hands, playing in front of him with each other, the lifeless glance in his eyes.
Finally the younger looks up to Yoongi, just staring at him for a few seconds, using the time to collect his thoughts and to find the words his wants to say to the older. He thought the whole night about it, what exactly to say, but now that Yoongi sits in front of him he can't manage to say a word.
"Yoongi, I-" He stops, "I.. we.. whatever we had, it's better to end it."
Yoongi had never thought hearing these words from Donghyuk's mouth, would feel so hurtful. They started with being friends, friends with benefits but now it's more, dangerously more. Enough to break Yoongi's heart.
Slowly opening his mouth, he closes his lips again before even saying something.
"W-why?" His voice is quiet, cracking lightly. Trying his best not to show how hurt and sad he was, he looks into Donghyuk's dark eyes, hoping to find something in them, but there's nothing.
"P-please tell me why." Yoongi repeats himself, since Donghyuk just blankly stares at the table without saying a word.
"It doesn't matter anymore. What we had is over now." Donghyuk responds now looking into Yoongi's eyes.
The older feels tears forming in his eyes, making him realize what a pussy he is but at the same time it shows him that he has feelings for Donghyuk.
Yoongi blinks a few times, trying to suppress the tears, while smiling in disbelief and shaking his head.
"Just tell me the fucking reason!" He raises his voice, slamming his hands on the table making Donghyuk flinch at the sudden reaction.
Donghyuk just shakes his head and avoids Yoongi's angry and disappointed eyes. It's not that the younger doesn't want to tell him, he just can't.
"Tell me." Yoongi's voice suddenly sounds calm but Donghyuk knows that Yoongi is really angry, "You owe me an explanation."
"We are over. I don't owe-"
"Was I right? You cheated on me? Is there someone else?"
Donghyuk frowns, "No I really didn't. Please just accept that it's over now."
Yoongi breathes out frustrated while shaking his head, "You are kidding, aren't you? You can't just break up without saying why!"
"We never were official, Yoongi.." Donghyuk responds, his eyes resting on his pale, skinny hands.
It fucking hurts. His whole chest hurts. The pain is rather annoying and Yoongi wants it to disappear.
Why is he so hurt? They weren't a couple, that's right, but Yoongi felt more. More than friends. He knew from the beginning that shouldn't let anyone that close to get to him, but it was already too late.
The reality hit him way too late and now he has these stupid feelings for someone who is about to leave anyways.
"So.. this all.. never meant something to you?" Yoongi asks quitely, hoping to get the answer he wants to hear.
"That's not what I said Hyung it's-"
"What is it then??" Yoongi interrupts him, being way too nervous to handle the whole situation but at the same time he is scared and impatient.
"It's.. we.. we can't be together." Donghyuk responds, causing Yoongi to frown, another painful stab in his chest.
"Why?"
"We just can't. I don't want to."
That's when Yoongi realised that there's no chance from him, his dumb feelings, their relationship. There is no happy end.
Yoongi himself doesn't even know what he wants, does he really have that strong feelings for the younger? Is he in love with him? Is it enough? Does he want a relationship? What is he expecting?
Is it the best to end it all? Should he fight for the thing they had, should he give up?
So many questions in his head, the answer sits in front of him, but Yoongi remains silent.
A nod, that's what Donghyuk gets as a response, making him feel slightly relieved. He doesn't have the strength to explain himself anymore. There is nothing to explain anymore. There's nothing more that Yoongi should know. Even if he really wants to stay with Yoongi, because he really likes Yoongi, damnit he loves him, but they can't stay together. That's their fate.
No one can control it or change it, it is how it is. And they have to accept it even if Yoongi first may refuse to accept.
Donghyuk is just protecting him from something way bigger, something he has to handle by himself, without Yoongi.
Both of them just stare at the table, both of them are quiet.
"I will leave now." Donghyuk interrupts the silence before standing up to leave. "Goodbye."
Going past Yoongi, the younger gets stopped by the other male.
Donghyuk slightly turns around, only a little bit so Yoongi won't see his teary eyes.
"Ah.. nevermind." Yoongi let's go of Donghyuk's arm.
The younger just stay there for a few seconds. "Don't try to call me or text me. I'm moving to America."
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A/N: now u know why they can't be together~
Idk when i will update.. i finally finish chapter 43.. it took me like 2 weeks...... bc i had no motivation but chapter 44 is going really fast lol
There won't be much yoonmin in the following chapters.. sryyyyyy
ok. :-)