Him and I

Chapter 43: Red Roses

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Mason's POV-

I woke up and looked at the surroundings. This was most probably not my room. Where was I?

I sat up and a massive pain in my head made me hiss. I was drinking beer yesterday. I don't understand how I went out of control with that. I looked at the side table and found an aspirin and water. With a note. This felt familiar. But I had done it for her the last time.

"You will need it! Good morning." -Derina

This was written in Derina's neat, cursive. This means Derina put me here? Now, I have been told hundreds of times that I'm an honest drunk. Derek has experienced that the most. I have had some of the most memorable and funny incidents of my life with him. I still felt like reaching out to him. Because it wasn't his fault or his sisters or his Mom. I actually missed them all. They were living in London, I guess.

So I must have blurted out some shit last night. I hope I didn't misbehave. And on top of it, I hope I didn't confess. Shit.

I saw that my shoes were on the floor. Derina had done that. God, she's going to be the end of me. I mean, I'm trying to distance myself from her. She makes it impossible for me. I freaking kissed her yesterday. However wrong it was, she kissed me back. And kissing her is the best thing in the world.

Kissing her feels like I'm kissing her for the first time all over again. It always has those kinda feels. I got up and walked to the door.

Hey I remember something about kinda.

I directly walked up to Derina's room. I had to see her first. I'll understand if I embarrassed myself yesterday or not. I remember falling on the bed too. God.

I was walking up and heard faint music. It was a piano sound. Derina was playing, I guess. And then I reached her floor and heard her voice.

You're the first face that I see
And the last thing I think about
You're the reason that I'm alive
You're what I can't live without
You're what I can't live without

And never give up
When I'm falling apart
Your arms are always open wide
And your quick to forgive
When I make a mistake
You love me in the blink of an eye

I don't deserve your love
But you give it to me anyway
Can't get enough
You're everything I need
And when I walk away
Take off running and come right after me
It's what you do
And I don't deserve you

It's like, she's always singing songs which describe us. Our situation. I just stood there, at the door, looking at her. She was singing that song, but it felt like, I was the one who doesn't deserve her. And that's the truth. Her voice felt sad. All her sadness is related to me. Mostly.

"Mason?" She said. I didn't realize she had stopped and walked towards me.

"Hey morning. I was just-"

"Peeping into my room like a creepy stalker? Yeah I saw that." She said and smirked.

She had started smirking alot. That's like my influence on her. And again I was hit by how much I was hurting her and how we both wanted each other.

"Look at you, all fresh and cocky and not hungover. What the hell did I drink yesterday?" I asked her and we walked into her room.

"I don't know. I have to tell you, you were pretty honest last night."