Him and I

Chapter 38: I'm attracted

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Derina's POV-

The car bursted.

I rushed towards the track. I ran and I was crying and I didn't know what I was doing.

I reached there and saw that the paramedics had already taken Mason out and he was on a stretcher. I wanted to sink down to my knees when I saw him. I thought he wouldn't have come out of the car. He was rushed to the hospital. I couldn't even think about it, he still being inside and the car bursting. God.

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"Derina, look he's going to be fine okay?" Jessica said but she looked just as bad as me. She was scared too.

I just nodded. I couldn't stop blaming myself for his accident. I screamed at him before the race. He must have been thinking about everything that I said. How could he lose control of the car? He never loses a race. He was born to race. And he was actually the Best.

Mason's parents were here. I'm sure they would be the ones who are scared the most. They wouldn't want to lose their child. Again.

"Is he alright?!" Cassandra ran to the doctor and asked him which caught everyone's attention.

I stood up.

He was going to be fine.

"There's a lot of complications. Blood loss, fractures, and-" He stopped talking. "He's still unconscious."

"What do you mean?" His Father asked the doctor.

"He should wake up soon. Or else, there's going to be the fear of slipping into coma." He said.

Oh my God. I couldn't believe it. He had to be alright. I'll never be able to forgive myself for this. I shouldn't have talked to him, about us, about anything before the race.

Cassandra came out of the ICU. She walked towards me.

"He's going to be fine Cassandra. He has to be." I told her.

I, myself, needed to understand this because from the moment I saw his car flipping, I couldn't stop crying. I was a wreck.

I didn't even know why it mattered so much?. Why it mattered more to me than it mattered to all the other friends? Who was I kidding? It was obviously gonna matter the most to me. We may not be together, but what we have, had, is different. It is limitless, neverending. Jessica and Dan saw him and came out. I should go too. But I just couldn't. I didn't want to see him like that. Still, I got up and pushed the door open and walked in.

I wanted to break down right there, seeing him like that was almost killing me. He looked lifeless.

"I've never been so scared of losing something in my entire life." I sat beside him on the chair. I caught his hand.

"Then again, nothing in my life has meant as much to me as you do." I continued talking, tears running down my face.

"You gave me a happy life. You made me, a better me."

"Maybe I'm scared because you mean more to me than every other person."

"You are everything I think about, you are everything I want."

"You are everything I need."

"And why's that?"
I looked up, surprised to hear a voice. I looked behind me and Ashley had entered. When did she come to Seattle?

"What?" I asked her. I didn't want her to listen to what I was saying because this was something I couldn't tell Mason if he was awake. I didn't want anyone to know.