Amour
There I sat in his arms in the early morning breeze on the shore.
I had his wallet in my hand. Stuffed with pictures... And cash. Hundreds and hundreds of dollars.
"I feel bad for taking this. I'm sorry." I handed it to him.
"Here, take this and keep it. Take as much as you want. I love you." He said stuffing his black card into my shorts pocket. "You know the code. Don't lose it. I'll be putting more money there every week or 2. Goodbye." He forced me off of him.
"What? Where is this coming from? When are you coming back?" I trailed after him like a strayed puppy.
"I don't know, Amour. Ok? I'm sorry. I have to tell you something."
"What?"
"I'm sick. I have an issue."
"Tell me about it! I want to go with you!"
"No. Amour I don't want you to worry about me. I want you to have a good life here and forget all the trouble. Forget what I told you. Forget I'm sick. Forget we were lovers. But don't... Just don't... Forget me." He said with tears in his eyes.
"No! Don't leave me! I love you!"
"I have to. Maybe I'll see you soon. But I have to get to work."
"You can't work sick!" I semi yelled after him.
He quickly turned around, grabbed my face, and kissed me hard and passionate. I closed my eyes and wrapped my arms around him. He hugged me without ending the kiss.
"Goodbye, Amour." He said handing me his jacket with his shirt tucked into it.
"No! Don't say that word! There's no such thing as goodbye! You can't go!"
"I have to. I love you. I don't want you getting hurt anymore. Take care, Amour." He said walking fast in the sand towards his car.
"Lucas! Please don't go! I need you here! I love you!"
I stumbled down and fell into the sand. I watched him get into his car and drive away. With a part of me that I'd probably never get back.
"Lucas!" I cried into the jacket. "Why?!"
***
"Where did you go last night?" Aundre asked.
"To an old friend's place... She moved here last year." I smiled sadly.
"Oh. Ok."
I would have lost my virginity last night if I wasn't raped. But it all seems wrong because I've had 3 real sexual encounters so far and 2 were rape. Fingers and tongues don't count, and nor does giving head.
I miss Lucas really bad already. I need him. I wanna know what's wrong with him. What made him sick?
"Are you ok?"
"Yes... I just really want an abortion." I said biting into an apple.
"Are you sure about that?" He asked.
"No... Yes. Oh I don't know! All I know is that I'm really not ready for this." I said sadly.
"It's ok. I'm here to support you. Me, AC, and Devon... Well he doesn't know and probably wouldn't care but you get it right?"
"Thank you." I nodded.
"You hungry?" He asked glancing at his watch.
"Sure I guess."
"What can I make you for breakfast?"
"It's ok I can go out and..."
"No. I'm making you food."
"Ok. I guess."
"You wanna go take a shower?"
"Umm yes." I got up and walked upstairs to the room.
I got my stuff and walked into the bathroom. Turning on my speaker, I connected my phone and played some Janine.
Baby don't let me down
Got a lot goin' on right now
And I need you to hold me
Need you to hold me
Baby don't let me down
Got a lot goin' on right now
And I need you beside me
Need you beside me
And when it gets cold
And I'm feelin' kinda lonely
I'm hopin' that you
Gonna put a cover on me
When it gets cold
And I'm feelin' kinda lonely
I'm hopin' that you
Gonna put a cover on me
Baby if I break down
Will you catch my tears
Before they hit the ground?
The ground
Baby if I open my mouth
And let my darkest memories come out
I need you to stick around
Need you to stick around
And when it gets cold
And I'm feelin' kinda lonely
I'm hopin' that you
Gonna put a cover on me
When it gets cold
And I'm feelin' kinda lonely
I'm hopin' that you
Gonna put a cover on me
Give me something good to feel
Touch me so I know it's real
Make it so I won't forget
Take me far from my regret
Give me something good to feel
Touch me so I know it's real
Never want to ask for help
But I'ma ask'm this time
Baby don't let me down
Got a lot goin' on right now
And I need you to hold me
Oh baby don't let me down
I got a lot goin' on right now
And I need you.. beside me
By the end of the song, I was sitting in the shower sobbing and crying my heart out. My half of a broken heart.
"Amour? You aight?" I heard DD say through the door.
"No!"
"Want me to come in?"
"No!"
"You wanna talk?"
"No!" I said into my palms.
"Can I do anything for you?"
"No! Just go away!"
"Look hea... You in my house lo girl!"
I turned off the water and put on my clothes after drying off. Then I opened the door.
"I'm fine, Devonte."
"DD."
"Devonte."
"DD."
"Devonte you stupid boy!"
"DD stupid girl!"
"Stupid boy!"
"Stupid girl!"
"Stupid!"
"Dumb!"
"Palm tree!"
"Fat ass!"
"Ugly!"
"Hideous!"
"Sloth!"
"Ha! You cute." He smirked and walked away.
"Ok well... You... You're hot... Not! I mean you're cool... But... Ugh, you get it." I stuttered.
"Yeah. For sure!" He said from downstairs.
What part was he talking about?
I blushed and walked back to the room.
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Teen FictionDescription: Amour has this problem; She's usually all alone. When she meets somebody, they're constantly having issues. She has the feeling that she cannot trust anyone but she does it anyway. What will be the outcome? (Part 1 Published, Wattpad on...
