"Hey are you planning on working alone?"
And Jay goes,
"Oh no girl I'm not about to work alone. Sebastian's working with us too."
And I had to hide my excitement cuz I couldn't EXPOSE MYSELF and be like "omg yes Sebastian I have a fat ass crush on you pls be my boo!!"
So I had to play it cool but I think I played it maybe too cool ?? Okay here's the thing y'all. I have a resting bitch face. And I'm not just saying that to sound like somebody, but I genuinely do. Unless I'm with my friends or I'm in a good mood already, I'll probably be walking the halls looking mad as hell. Like my math teacher in 8th grade stopped me like once or twice asking if I was okay or if I was about to cry and I always ended up laughing in her face cuz I was actually in a good mood LMAOOO.
But anyway, part of having a resting bitch face is when you look at people, you might look like you're actually disgusted by them. Like for example, this kid named Mark ( @ holly wink wink ) in my class sometimes looks at me and he's really cute and all that but sometimes I accidentally give him dirty looks ??? Like I don't mean to and I KNOW I'm giving him that "what, BITCH" face but I neva mean to lmfao it's a sad case.
so I guess I meant to smile at Seb but instead I looked him up and down with the NASTIEST mean rude disgusting "yea I'm that bitch" face and in the most flat, dead, monotonous tone, I go,
"Cool."
And then I look away. YALL LMFAOOO I can just feel the accidental bitchiness radiating off of the page. If anyone from my school ever finds this and thinks I don't like you cuz I gave you a dirty look, 96% of the time it's because that's literally how my face is. 2% of the time I don't LIKE yo ass. The other 2% of the time I'm just spacing out and thinking of some shit that makes me mad, but it's not you.
But anyway I gave Seb a huge bitch face hahaa and he looked kinda dejected after that and then I realized I gave him that face hahaa. But then Jay laughs and goes,
"Hahaha Zuzu just threw shade she sounded like she did not care at all she does not want you here."
And then Seb jokes along and goes,
"She's just like 'yeah, whatever.'"
And I start laughing and going,
"Noooo I didn't mean to throw shade!"
And it was all good lmfao I kinda felt bad but I can't change the way I accidentally look at people lol sorry !
Anyway, we had third lunch and Seb has my lunch today. So I get my lunch and then I sit down at the table where Seb and Jay and most of the people in my Bio class were(cuz Bio class is the period I had lunch in.) And I'm just at the table next to where Seb and Jay are and Seb is so comfortable with Jay like y'all I'm not jealous pero like ... yo quiero tambien you know like I want Seb to be comfy with me ¿
And so I'm at the table talking to my friends and in the last five minutes of lunch while Seb isn't talking to Jay I go,
"Yo, Seb (he turns around.)" I look at his face up and down except this time I'm smiling and then I go: "I'm diggin the afro thing, ya know? That's really cool, you look like you could be in The Get Down."
And then he literally got sO FLUSTERED like YALL I really thought he was Smooth-Master supafly boiiii but no! He was legit SO flustered like it was like no one had ever told him that in his entire life ?? And he like looked down and he was smiling but it was like one of those smiles that you try to fight off of your face and he starts laughing and smiling and blushing and he murmurs,
"Thank you."
And y'all it was literally the cutest thing ?? Cuz ya girl Zuzu was NOT expecting that out of Seb of all people lmaoaoao like he just seems like one of those guys who would just nod at you and smile if you gave them a compliment. But Seb, who I thought was the grand master of smooth ,,, is BLUSHING and unable to make eye contact with me and is just smiling so hard at this one compliment ? ¿? Um @ God ??? Explain !! Like he seemed SO out of sorts LMFAOO it was just so cute omfggg yall.
And I didn't tell y'all this but on either Wednesday or Tuesday I go,
"Wait, Sebastian."
(Cuz he was about to leave the class), and he goes,
"What's up?"
And I swear y'all I was about to say something so smooth and so lit but he had me SHOOK cuz he turned around real casual and idk the way he said "what's up?" was so cool like he just seemed so smooth and relaxed and chill and I was SHOOK. So I was like,
"Uh who's your Latin teacher?"
LIKE IT WAS SO WACKKK LMFAOO but then he was like,
"Ms. Herold." And I go,
"Oh, right. Bye."
LMFAO YALL IM SO AWKWARD YIKESSS !!
but today went way better so it's all gucci :-) but one of my new friends said that every time she tries to talk to Seb, he gets really creeped out and shy or something. Which was weird cuz he seems completely fine when other people talk to him like at lunch he was all laughing and smiling and sigh ,,, i want ,,,
anyway y'all if he doesn't notice me by next Friday or we don't interact to the point where we're friends i'm dead ass dropping him i hate worrying about boys because they're ugly and a waste of time :-). But Seb ,,, I'm gonna snatch !!
#zuzaf
my birthday and Seb
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