My diary 2

15.7.22

just blocked my american ex because she's out with that guy again. i think it's sad how she can't realise what she's done wrong even after all this time. she can't see the bad in him so i've given up trying to help or know her. she is nothing to me and has done nothing but hurt me

earlier my mum was talking to me about my sisters grades. she's expected to get a 6 in drama and has even auditioned for aladin. in her recent exam she got a 1. she also got a 1 in maths and science and computing. is it even fucking possible to be that bad?? i don't understand at all. it's as if she's not paid attention to any lesson at all
i hate to compare myself but i revised three or four times IN MY LIFE and was consistently top of my classes. now imagine if i revised i would easily be getting 9's or A*
i have/ had so so much potential but it got thrown away because i was told that grades mean nothing. i mean it's true it's just a waste of your life. i found an easy way to earn good money for my age. at the minute i'm being paid probably the most i can be for my age. but my progression is so limited because i haven't got specific specifications in subjects. ofc i'll find a way around but my sister has nothing. she can't even go into a college or an apprenticeship because her grades are SO bad.
she's even getting private tutoring
my parents had two children. one who wasted their potential and one who struggled
my grandparents had three children. one died, the other was a complete failure and one successful. i must carry on this successful chain in the family by any means possible

work tomorrow.
i keep failing the online training for fire drills and chemical safety because of a singular question ugh

goodnight