Doctor Strange X Reader First Book

You Are Worth It

A/N: Hello my dear readers!

This is a request from _Gf_Bts_Hp where Christine shows up and flirts with Stephen whereas reader and our dear sorcerer are dating. This meeting made reader doubtful and results in self-harm.

No matter what, do not self-harm yourself, if you do, try to find some help, there is always someone you can talk to, MP me if you need.

Warning: Self-Harming, blood.

Hope you'll enjoy. Please leave a vote or a comment.

I do not own the picture.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Despair is one of the worst pain in the world, it's like falling into an endless abyss where hope is the last flicker of light remaining in your sight, except right now it was gone. As if you had blown off the candle.

Thousands of incredulous thoughts rooted in your mind, your doubts overwhelming your mind until one thought remained: « You are weak ».

That is why at these moments, your insecurity was hundred times stronger and made you embrace your inner demons.

You do not deserve him. You are weak. Why would he love you? You're not worth it. You are nothing.

These dark mottos weakened your determination, tightening your doubts and making you hold the razor blades above your arm.

You who were so brave, fierce and strong had turned into the scared little girl you once were when you lost your way in life until, of course, you found Stephen. He was the light at the end of the tunnel, the sun to your days, the dream to your nightmares, he was everything. He held your heart in his hands and he had crushed it.

Christine had come over to see Stephen and she made it pretty clear she wanted him back. Gentle touches there, compliments here and jealousy had invaded your body. You tried to stay calm at her behaviour, taking a deep breath, clenching your fists and dropping hints as he was YOUR boyfriend, but nothing worked.

When Stephen had to leave for an important matter, Christine and you stayed in the same room, silently eyeing each other.

She was the first to break the tensed silence.

« You do know, he doesn't love you, right? »

You scoffed, crossing your arms over your chest.

« How would you know, are you a mind reader now? »

She raised her finger and shook it, a playing glimmer shining in her hazel eyes :

« You're a lost puppy, a distraction to him, nothing more. » Christine said, an evil smirk playing on her lips.

« Believe me, if he was in love with you, he would take your hand in his, look at you with loving eyes, stay next to you all the time, exactly like he did with me. He doesn't act like that with you, does he ? » she added mischievously.

Her words sent a bullet to your heart, the blade of doubt stabbing it like a piece a leaf. Yous tumbled on your feet, the strong magician you were taken aback by the harsh words of your boyfriend's ex-girlfriend.

Christine was a beautiful woman, sharing the same passion than Stephen. She had known him longer than you and perhaps that's why it didn't completely clicked with Stephen. Perhaps, you were not good enough for him.

« I can have him in the snap of my fingers if I wish. You are nothing to him, » she stated darkly.

Crystal tears were on the verge of your eyes, her words piercing your heart, tearing your love for Stephen apart from doubt and trust. Your insecurity soared and you stepped back. You rushed to your room, passing a surprised Wong, your magic boiling as your emotions were turned upside down. You didn't hear the dark chuckle of Christine echoed in the room, proud of her work, either of her words :