Sound check is complete. Now I need to get ready. I walked back to my dressing room, and looked at my outfit. I am going to put that on after makeup and hair. Sadly Lou couldn't do my makeup and hair because of the boys. Sad day..
The lady did a smokey eye on me bringing out my green eyes, and red lipstick. After she did my makeup she curled my hair. I put on my patterned tank top that went just above my belly button, and ripped skinny jeans. Lastly I put on my black heeled boots, gold long necklace, gold arm cuff, and my ring back on.
Finished!
Some workers put my equipment on me. When they give me the sign that is when I start.
"Good luck Madisyn!" Niall shouted before being dragged into a room.
I tucked a small piece of hair behind my ear. Someone gave me a point towards the stage while saying, "Go now."
Listening I ran up to the mic.
"Hey everybody! (A/N: WE DONT HAVE TO LIVE THIS WAY! Sorry I had to break out into song) It is such a honor to be able to come on these couple of stops. First I am going to start out with my newest single 'Should've Been Us'."
I gripped the mic with my two hands, and listened to the drums waiting for the right time.
"Walking round with my head down, but I can't hide with these high heels on.."
*
I cleared my throat, and listened to the transition to 'Drown Me In Your Love'
*
The order of my performance so far went
Should've Been Us
Drown Me In Your Love
Words
And now I am doing Bleeding Love.
"This is another cover of the song 'Bleeding Love' by Leona Lewis,
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that their goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love..."
A long time ago that was my favorite song. My mom and I would listen to it on replay forever.
After Keep Bleeding I sang my favorite 'Human'. Now it is time for my last cover 'Love the Way You Lie' part II the Skylar Grey version.
"If you know this song sing along!
On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Now there's gravel in our voices
Glasses shattered from the fight
In this tug of war you always win
Even when I'm right
Cos you feed me fables from your head
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
Til the walls are going up
In smoke with all our memories
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie,"
And for the finally My very first song 'On Purpose'. This is probably my favorite to perform because it is my first single.
-After-
"Thank you New York! I had a blast performing!" I shouted into the mic before running off.
I was panting hard core from Addicted.
"Water love?" Harry asked coming from behind me.
I nodded my head, and he handed me the water. Within 10 seconds I already drank all the water.
"That is why I tell you to drink water before you sing that song! Don't you hate when I am right?" Harry laughed.
"Not really because you aren't right that often," I smirked.
He rolled his eyes before giving me a hug, and walking towards Louis. I grabbed a towel out of the dressing room, and wiped all the sweat away from my chest, neck, and face before throwing it on the couch.
"Good job Madisyn," I proudly told myself looking into the mirror to put my hair up in a pony tail.
When I walked back outside into the hallways Luke was approaching me. Okay I can run back into my dressings room, and act like I am sleeping or... There isn't another option since he has probably already seen me. I need to give me a pep talk.
You can do this
It's isn't going to be bad
It is just a conversation
Be mature
Oh shit he's getting closer
And closer
And closer-
"Hey Madisyn," Luke shyly said.
You can tell he's nervous because he is biting his lip.
"Hi Luke. You did great tonight." Before I could turn around he spoke again.
"Can we talk?" He asked.
No
"Sure."
"I just want to say I am sorry; sorry for everything. I don't know why that girl and I kissed, but I didn't think it would do anything between us since we weren't dating. I really do like you a lot." He explained.
Great him bringing up him kissing that girl is just what I wanted to hear. Every time I think about it my heart aches, but hearing him saying it makes it shatter into a million pieces. Before he can continue I am going to cut him off.
"I did like you too, and seeing you kiss that girl broke my heart. And especially when I was going to find you to tell you that I really liked you, and to say sorry for everything. And just because we weren't dating doesn't mean it wouldn't hurt me. It hurt you when Shawn kissed me, and I told you right after I pushed him off! Because I liked you, and only you. And if you really liked me you would of never kissed her back. I don't want to even know anything about her, so don't say her name, or height, or anything! I liked you, but I am not too sure about it now." Yes I probably look like a maniac because I am crying while yelling at him.
HE looked at me with guilt in his eyes. I can't handle this. He stepped closer to me.
"Please, after I do this I want you to look me straight into my eyes, and tell me you didn't feel anything, and don't like me." He whispered.
He stepped closer to me, and with one hand he cupped my my face, and pressed his lips against mine.
I
His lip ring was cold.
He pulled apart from the sweet kiss, and looked me into the eyes still keeping his hand on my face.
"I-I-I," I paused. I can't get the words to come out of my mouth. Almost like I am a baby trying to talk.
Slowly I rested my hand on his, and pulled it away from my face. Then I looked down not wanting to look him in the eyes.
"You Luke Hemmings broke my heart.. Please just leave me alone for a while," my voice was really weak saying those last sentences.
Before he could say anything I ran off down the hall to the girls' bathroom.
"IM SORRY!" He shouted from down the hall.
I rushed in, and ran into the biggest stall locking it behind me. I fell to the ground, and brought my knees up to my chest. I need my bobo or Nash..
Slowly I pulled out my phone after getting rid of any mascara on my cheeks.
After a couple rings he answered my facetime request.
"Hello? Madisyn are you okay?" He asked immediately getting concerned.
I shook my head no. "I want to come home," I cried.
"Nash!" Matt yelled. A couple seconds later Nash showed into the fame.
"Madds tell me it all," Nash softly spoke sitting down.
"I don't want to be here. I love touring and all, but I can't stand seeing Luke everyday. He just talked to me, an-and I broke. I miss you guys, and I just want to go home," I cried.
It was starting to get harder to breath.
"Rae calm down. Breath in breath out," Matt said trying to help me.
It wasn't helping. My heavy breathing turned into hyperventilating. Quickly with my phone still in my hand I went into the hallway. I saw Ashton walking towards me.
"Ashton," I breathed.
"Is it in your purse?" Ashton shouted running into my dressing room.
I nodded my head still trying to breath. Within seconds he came running back towards me with my inhaler in his hands.
With my hands I brought it up to my mouth, and took in deep breaths.
"Maddie?"
"Rae?!"
I sat down on the ground with Ashton mocking my moves.
"Are you okay?" Matt asked/shouted. He looked scared.
"I am good now." I softly whispered.
"Thank you Ashton so so much. I don't know how to thank you enough," Matt thanked.
"No problem," Ash smiled.