"Hayes Grier you are going to be fine!"
I shouted getting out of the car.
I am feeling really annoyed because the whole way here he complained. Today is his first day of school, and he being a baby. It's not even the first day for everyone else because it's the second week. We waited a week to sign him up. He asked for me to stay with him all day on the car ride over here. This kid seriously needs to grow up. We stood by my car.
"For lunch I will bring Taco Bell for you. Just meet me by that tree during lunch time. Oh and lunch is at 11:30," I explained. He grabbed my hand and held on. I feel like he's going to break my hand.
"Okay.. I really hate Nash for making me go to school," he pouted.
We walked to the main office, and a lady was sitting at her desk.
"Hi I am here with Hayes Grier he is new here."
"Oh yes. Let me grab the papers. Are you his guardian?" She asked shuffling through pictures.
"Well he lives with me and his brother. Unfortunately his brother couldn't make it so I am here," I politely smiled.
She returned the smile, and handed me a stack of papers.
"These are just a couple more papers to help you. This one has your periods on it. The green one is the school schedule like how long each period is, and when. Last this a map of all of school with the classrooms on it."
A guy came in that looks about Hayes's age walked in.
"This is Gregg he is going to show you around, and make sure you get to your classes on time. That is it hope you have a nice day!"
We walked off with the papers, and started laughing. I am not sure why we are laughing, but we are. Gregg and Hayes introduced them selfs. Then first bell went off indicating he five minutes to get to his first period.
"Alright I am going to go. I have to finish my new song. Please stay out of trouble I know you are going to try something, but please don't." I pulled him into a tight hug. "Remember the tree. I love you, and have a good day." I gave him a kiss on his cheek, and looked at Gregg.
"Take care of him please, and don't let him get in trouble," I begged starting to walk away.
I got in my jeep, and buckled up. Before I could start it I got a phone call.
Matt.
M- Hey Matthew
Matt- Get home now, and hurry.
M- Is everything okay?
Matt- I can't explain it over the phone just please get home.
I hung up the phone confused. What could be wrong? Quickly I drove home not wanting to think about it too much or else I might drive my self absolutely insane. I pulled up into our driveway, and quickly rushed into the house.
"What's going on?" I asked running into the living room.
"Do you want me to come out straight with it or slowly explain it?" Matt asked sitting down.
I sat down on the couch across from him, and started to brace my self.
"Just tell me!"
"Okay well the fans might of found out about Kade.." Matt said getting quieter and quieter.
This isn't good. I didn't want to tell them about this because it is a part of my life I was my weakest. I mean we are suppose to show we are strong just like they can be. This just can't be happening.
I put my head down looking at my hands in my lap.
"How much about him," I whispered letting a tear fall. The memories slowly started filling my head again. I just hope this time I don't get any nightmares about him.
"They only know about him going to jail from something that involves you. That is all." Matt came and sat next to me, and wrapped me into one of his brother hugs.
I need to go to my room, and make a video. "Thank you Matt for telling me this. I am going to go upstairs, and make a video then go eat with Hayes."
I wiped any tears that I had, and walked to my room. Slowly I closed the door, and slid against it to the ground. Times like these I wish I had Luke with me... One Direction and 5 Seconds of Summer are back on tour yay me.
I went up to my camera and turned it on.
"Hey guys it's me with another video. This weeks video is going to be a little emotional, and it's something only my family and close friends know. I have really been trying to avoid anything to do with this topic, but it seems someone found out about it, and decided to put it on Twitter. So what I am here to talk about is what happened with Kade." I took a deep breath trying to keep myself from crying. "When I was 15." I stopped because my voice got really shaky. Brave face Madisyn brave face. "I thought I found the perfect person. He was sweet, kind, caring, cute, that's what I thought. Later he asked me to be his girl friend, and I was so excited. Later into our relationship I noticed something changing in him. He started to become more jealous, violent, and just different. All the things I thought I knew about him disappeared, and I started to become scared. This was the point in my life when I was my weakest. I didn't know what to do about anything. He started to leave bruises on me when I would talk to anyone else or do anything to make him mad. I just hid the bruises and said to my self 'he is just a little lost you can help him become who he once was'. I just enabled everything he did. One day Matt saw a bruise, and instantly got mad. I have never seen Matt this mad before, but before he could do anything to Kade I enabled it. I should have never done that. Kade just hit me more and more, and Matt was done with it. That is when I knew Kade was never going to change, but I didn't know what to do. I got my self into a sticky situation. Matt told me 'break up with him now or I am calling the cops.' So I knew I will have to be strong and stand up for myself. I told Kade to meet me in the park because we need to talk. There he hurt me more after I told him I wanted to break up. He left me there on the cold ground hurting mentally, physically, and emotionally. He put me in the hospital that night, and I can never forget it. The cops asked what happened, and to save him again I said someone was trying to mug me." By this point I am balling my eyes out, but I don't care. People who look up to me can know the real truth how much he did to me. "He is the reason why I have trust issues. That is not all he has done. At Magcon Orlando the girls and I wanted to eat before the meet and greet. When we went across the street to Taco Bell there he was. I tried to move, but I completely froze." I stopped for a couple seconds to calm down. After a little my the tears weren't as bad. "Sorry I just needed a second. I didn't know what to do until I realized we need to leave before anything happens. I told Anna to get Matt, and Mahogany and I tried leaving. Outside he smacked me, and threw me to the ground. But before he could punch me in the face Shawn tackled him off of me."
Now that I think about it this is why I trusted Shawn so easily. He gained my trust by saving me only to break my heart in the end.. "The cops came, and that is why he is locked up. Just don't look at me any different then you do now. I just have something really important to say. If you are in a abusive relationship get out of it now. I know you are scared, but you need to be strong. Stand up for your self. If you are scared to end it because you think they will hurt you even more bring someone with you to protect you. If they call you any names, leave abusive marks on you, or just treat you like shit you can do so much better. They don't deserve you. If you feel like you don't deserve to be in this world or feel worthless. Let me tell you this. You deserve to be in this world and to live a free life and you are not worthless. And if you don't think anything is wrong with them hurting you like I did in the beginning. Wake up and stop enabling them! No one deserves to be hurt! Just please promise me you will get help if you are in a unhealthy relationship. And I promise to you I will try and help you guys through anything you are having problems with. Send me dms, letters, messages, tweets anything to get a hold of me, so I can help you through it. Please. I am here for you guys because you guys have stuck behind me through a lot of shit. So this is it for this weeks video. It is kind of long so I am sorry for that. Make sure to subscribe for weekly videos if you haven't already. See you guys next week. Oh and I really do love you guys. Stay beautiful Peace!"
That was the longest video I have ever made. I just hope they listen to the end. Quickly I edited it, and uploaded it.
Madisyn Espinosa @MaddieEspinosa: just uploaded a new video on my channel called We are Strong. Check it out. Love you guys💕
I need to hurry up, and get Taco Bell.
"Anna want to come with me to Taco Bell?" I asked walking into her room.
"No thanks I have school," she sighed probably doing it now.
I nodded my head, and left. So glad I don't have school anymore. I decided to ask Cam Bam then.
"Cam do you wanna get some Taco Bell, and eat lunch with Hayes?" I asked giving him puppy dog look.
"Fine. Only because I don't have a reason not to."
We loaded up, and went through the drive thru. We ordered lots of food, and drove to Hayes's new school. It was 11:27 when we parked. We grabbed all of the food and drinks then went to the tree.
"Was Hayes scared when you dropped him off this morning?" Can asked sitting on the ground.
"I don't think so? He was probably nervous. He didn't want to go in at all, and he wanted me to stay with him all day. So maybe I guess he was scared?" I thought.
I heard the bell ring from outside, and saw teenagers scatter every where.
"I am so glad it is lunch time!" Hayes yelled sitting down.
He doesn't look that miserable.
"How is it so far?" Cameron asked taking a bite of his taco.
"I have friends. Gregg and all of his friends who are football players. I am going to try out tomorrow for the team. A couple girls wouldn't leave me alone though today, and it got so annoying."
He vented to us how his day was so far while we all ate. This is actually really fun.
A/N: GUYS! I went to a Tim McGraw concert last night, and it was amazing! He is such a great entertainer, and he sang a lot of his old songs. When he finished he didn't sing my favoritest song by him Live Like You Were Dying, and I got really sad. And yes I did just say favoritest. When he walked off stage people were stomping and clapping so he came back out. And the last song he sand was LIVE LIKE YOU WERE DYING! I was so excited, and he is even better in person. Okay so thank you for reading! Sorry for any mistakes. Love you guys stay beautiful! Peace XOXO