'Actually, I change my mind.'
The biggest relief I've ever felt in my life washed over as Jimin's finger stopped at So Jin's words, his gun dropping down on the ground with a deep breath.
'I don't want you to die.' He said to Jimin, and then pulled me up by my hair, making me stand up as his words warmed my ear with a low whisper. 'I think I'll stick to my original plan.'
Sharpest pain I've ever felt dug in what I felt was my heart, and my breath completely left my body. The simple try to take a breath failed, and instead, blood splurted out my lips, nearly making me choke on it.
I grabbed onto my chest, but there's nothing there even though it hurts. There's no blood.
I raised my head, watching Jimin's legs moving towards me, but it feels like he's moving in slow motion. And he's saying something. Screaming. His lips are moving, but his voice is too echoy for me to distinct. Why can't I hear him?
My vision blurred rapidly, and before I could figure out what was going on, I was laying on the ground, looking up at the sky. There are so many stars... I never noticed...
I felt being shaken, and barely focusing my eyes, I saw Jimin's face. He's holding me. He's here.
'RAIN!!! BABY!!' His voice came into focus, but it's full of dread and panic. 'NO, RAIN!! Stay with me!!!'
Jimin... Why can't I say his name? I can't-I can't move my hands.
He frantically touched my face, crying and pleading for me to stay with him.
It's okay. I'm not going anywhere. There's no reason to be scared. We're finally together. I love you.
I wanted to say all those things. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to touch his face. But I can't.
The sharp pain was subduing, but I was going numb all over. My vision was darkening and I couldn't breathe.
He pulled something out of my back and then pressed firmly into the spot, screaming at me not to leave him, pulling me on his lap. Only then it started making sense.
I'm dying.
I'm happy it's me.
I'm happy that it's me and not him.
And I'm going how I always wanted to. In his arms. In the arms of the man I love. His face will be the last thing I see.
I gathered all the strength in my weak body, trying to reach his face, but my body is not functioning.
He saw me trying, and took my hand in his, putting it on his face himself as he cried and cried and cried. His lips were marking my forehead as he rambled on in his sweet, sweet voice.
'It's okay. It's going to be okay. I'll be right there with you. I'm coming with you, baby. I won't leave you. Not ever. I love you. I love you...'
His voice slowly faded in my blurry mind, much like his image. Darkness is fading into my eyes and he's slowly disappearing.
I can't keep myself from going under, so I'll just think one thing until I do.
Jimin, I love you.
JIMIN POV
'Actually, I change my mind. I don't want you to die.'
He grabbed her off the ground, raising her up on her feet, whispering something in her ear, and then her eyes shot wide open.
He grinned at me, his smile nothing short of sinister as she looked down at her chest, and the blood spew through her lips and she collapsed.
Every possible feeling of pain, panic, dread and fear washed over me at once. In that very moment, there was no force in this world that could stop me from getting to her.
I fell and pulled her on my lap, not even caring that he ran. Not caring about a single thing in this cursed universe but the woman in my arms. A knife was dug into her back, right in her heart.
'RAIN!!! BABY!! NO RAIN!! Stay with me!!!'
I wheezed through the sobs and the pain. I felt my own heart dying with each breath she took, knowing these are her last. These short, shallow, stuggling breaths.
'Please, please, I'm begging you baby, don't go. Don't leave me alone. We haven't had any time.'
No matter how much I kiss her face and touch her, her glistening eyes are turning glassy as she's fighting to keep them open, not looking away from me.
Her blood stained lips are moving, but the only thing coming out of them is blood. And no matter how much I press into her wound, it won't save her. I can't save her.
Wanting to feel her touch one more time, I took her hand in my shaky, bloody one, pressing it desperately on my face.
I know she's fighting it, but she's fading away before my eyes. She's dying in my arms, and there is not a thing that I can do to save her.
This is all my fault.
She is dying because I was incapable of keeping her safe. Because I was too late. Because I couldn't do a single thing right by her.
I'm dying right here with her. She has gone completely limp in my arms, her body giving up on her as her eyes close. Kissing her forehead, wanting her to feel it one last time, I whispered her all the promises.
'It's okay. It's going to be okay. I'll be right there with you. I'm coming with you, baby. I won't leave you. Not ever. I love you. I love you.'
I listened to her take her last breath, and I still couldn't accept it.
'No... Rain. Open your eyes. Come on, baby. Open your eyes. Look at me... Please look at me...' I whimpered and whimpered, my words sounding more like squeals than words
I screamed all the pain out, pressing her into my chest and rocking back and forth. My hands soaked in her blood as it kept pouring out of her cut. And even if I know she can't feel any pain anymore, even if I know that she can't hear a single sound, I couldn't stop.
'Come back to me... Baby come back!' I weeped, nearly choking on my own words
'We haven't had any time. I need more time. I want more time with you... We haven't had any time...'
I will never get to hold her in my arms and hear her laugh. I will never get to wake up with her in my arms. I will never get to watch her sleep.
But right now, she's asleep in my arms. The only difference is that she is never going to wake up again. She is never going to open her eyes and smile at me. She will never get to tell me she loves me.
She will never again... be. But neither will I.
I have kept her waiting long enough. Every second without her is excruciating pain and suffering. It's time to keep at least one promise I made her. It's time for me to go with her.
I took my earpiece, giving my last words to the guys.
'Is anyone there?' I mutter
'WHERE ARE YOU?!'
'Jimin where is Rain? Did you find her?'
All I could do was look down at my lap, looking at the woman in my arms that just took me with her, leaving behind nothing but this empty shell that is supposed to be my body. I was looking at my entire universe fading with every breath I decided were my last. And I knew that these words would my last, too.
'Guys. Thank you. Good luck. Goodbye.'
I took the earpiece out, cutting off their yelling that I didn't need to hear, throwing it to the side.
Pulling her head to lay in the crook of my neck as she always loved to do, I placed a few kisses on her hair, stroking it one last time.
'I'm sorry to keep you waiting, my one and only. I'm coming to you. I'll be there any moment to love you for eternity.'
Whispering my last words into her ear, I took the gun from my holster, not hesitating in the slightest to wrap my hand around it.
She died to a knife. Something she always said belonged to me. So I'll use her gun to take myself to her. I did always tell her that my life is hers to take.
Pressing my lips to her forehead one last time, I pressed the cold barrel to my temple.
There is no fear within me. There is no wondering about anything. No confusion. No grief. No feeling at all. There is nothing left for me anymore. This is what I want. To leave this nothingess behind and join my wife.
I barely even heard the gun cocking, even though I did it myself. Instead, all I heard was my own voice, for one last time before it all went dark.
'Rain. I love you for eternity.'
*BANG*