Quinn, Hilltop
I opened my eyes, they felt so heavy. I looked around, the sun was shining outside. I saw Eugene on the bed next to mine, he was reading a book. My belly hurt like hell and my jaw was still in pain. Eugene noticed that I was moving.
"Good morning!" he said, he put down the book. "How are you?" he asked quietly.
"Hurts," I said, but I didn't really want to talk because my jaw hurt, so I said it with the least movement I could manage.
"I know. You will be okay in no time. Siddiq just left, but he will tell you everything."
"How long?" I asked.
"You were asleep about 14 hours if I'm correct."
I was too tired to even widen my eyes or to react in any way.
He reached out and took my hand. I looked at Eugene, I saw he was clean, he must have showered while I was asleep. I liked his Pocahontas hairstyle. I smiled at him, weakly. He smiled back at me and caressed my hand. Siddiq just came back.
"Good morning, Quinn!" he stepped to me immediately as he saw I was awake. "I already checked your wound, I changed gauze and Enid washed you while you were asleep. Everything went well, without complications. You just have to stay in bed and heal," he smiled at me.
I smiled weakly at him too and I slightly nodded.
"How long?" I asked.
"Don't talk, please! You might break your jaw, you put a lot of pressure on it, you shouldn't talk for at least four days. You hear me? No talking!" said Siddiq seriously. I nodded. He continued. "I'm afraid you have to stay in bed for about two months."
I rolled my eyes and sighed.
Rosita just came back to the room and lay in the other bed next to mine. I didn't even realize she was here. She smiled at me.
"What did I miss?" asked Rosita.
"She's fine, she's in pain, but she'll recover," said Siddiq.
"It was a hell of a night. I was scared you might turn into a walker in any minute," said Rosita, without thinking, then she realized what she said. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean...! I was just saying you were sleeping really deeply! I'm sorry," she said and put her hand on my shoulder. "I didn't mean it."
I won't lie, it hurt a little, that she thought I was dying.
"She wasn't dying. She was just really tired," said Siddiq quietly.
"I know! I was just saying stupid things. Sorry!"
I nodded slightly. I pointed my finger at her stomach, then I gave a thumbs up, I tried to congratulate on the baby.
"Oh, thank you. It's not really public yet, but I guess you figured it out," she said. "I never thought I would be pregnant one day. Not after what Maggie has been through..."
I took her hand and squeezed it a little. She smiled at me. Aaron entered the infirmary.
"Hey!" he greeted all of us. He stepped closer.
"Before you ask, she is fine," said Eugene. I smiled, I tried to hold back laughter, not to hurt my jaw.
"That's good news," said Aaron smiled at me, then his smile faded away at once, he continued. "So... uh... Michonne asked me to get you guys going. We're heading back to Alexandria."
My heart skipped a beat.
"Alright. Eugene you should get up really slowly, I see if I can find a crutch for you," said Siddiq, then went to the other room. Rosita left the room too, she changed her clothes. Eugene didn't move.
I looked around, scared. Since I was still holding Eugene's hand, I squeezed it really hard to get his attention.
"Ouch. What's wrong, Quinn?" asked Eugene. Aaron looked at me too. I felt my eyes widen in despair.
"I..." that's all I could say, my jaw hurt again.
"Aaron, can you please bring Michonne here?" asked Eugene. Aaron nodded and left. Eugene looked back at me.
"I don't think Michonne would let you back to Alexandria. I'm sorry. Do you want to ask about Negan?" he asked. I nodded. He caressed my hand."I need my hand to sit up properly, would you mind?" he said gently. I let go of his hand, he slowly pushed himself up, turned towards me, and put his legs on the ground. Then he took my hand again and smiled at me. Michonne just came in. She looked moved.
"They told me what happened to you," she said and sat next to me on my bed. She started to stroke my hair. "It pains me to see you like this."
"She cannot talk, because her jaw might break, but she wants to know if she can come back to Alexandria," said Eugene. Michonne looked at him, sighed, and looked back at me.
"You know I can't let you. I am truly sorry."
"Negan..." I said painfully, tears started to sting my eyes. Michonne felt my pain, she grabbed my hand with both of her hands.
"I know, but you can't see him. He is not on holiday at Alexandria, I don't want him to feel good. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry it concerns you too, I don't want to do this to you, but... it's Negan... You know what he did," she said quietly. Eugene looked away and nodded slightly.
I felt my tears roll down my temples and land on my pillow. Michonne looked at me heartbroken, I saw tears in her eyes too. She kept stroking my hair.
"He is fine. He is alive and fine," she said. I nodded slightly. Rosita came back to the room.
"What's going on?" she asked when she saw me crying and how frozen the atmosphere was. Michonne quickly wiped her eyes and stood up.
"Let's go," she said. "Goodbye, Quinn. Get well!" she said and left the infirmary. Rosita stood there questioningly, Siddiq brought Eugene a crotch.
"Alright," said Eugene, he looked me in the eyes. "I have to go, Quinn. I'm sorry. I wish I could stay, but I live in Alexandria, I have to be there. I can't go back by myself if they leave me here now," he said and caressed my cheek.
"Bye," I said quietly. Eugene looked me in the eye for another minute, then stood up and grabbed the crutch. Rosita took his arm and helped him walk.
"Get well, Quinn!" she said and they left. Siddiq stepped next to me.
"I taught Enid everything, she will be able to help you recover. You are in good hands, don't worry," he said. I nodded slightly. He smiled at me, said goodbye, and followed the others. As soon as I heard the door close, I started to cry again. Sobbing was really painful, but I couldn't stop. I covered my face with my hands. I heard someone come in, I wiped my eyes to see who it is.
"Are you alright? Does it hurt so much?" it was Enid, she hurried to me as soon as she saw me crying. I shook my head and pointed at the window.
"Oh, they left already. Siddiq said I should give you intravenous infusion, so I'm going to put it in, okay?" she said. I wiped my tears and nodded. She went to the other room to get the infusion then came back to me. She set the hanger next to me and put the bag on it. I gave her my arm, I looked away while she put it in.
"There," she said, smiled at me weakly. I thought she seemed troubled, I frowned my eyebrows and tried to ask.
"Worry?"
She glanced at me.
"It's just... Alden... my boyfriend... he hasn't come back yet. I'm a little worried."
I nodded understandingly and took her hand.
"You don't have to worry, though, I'm paying complete attention to your recovery."
I nodded and patted her hand a little.
"Alright, now you should rest. We don't have a nurse call here, but I brought you a little bell. You should ring it, someone must be able to hear it," she put a palm-sized bell next to my bed, on the nightstand. I nodded. She smiled at me weakly and left. I closed my eyes, I was still emotional from talking to Michonne. I felt tears start to sting my eyes again.
I was alone for a couple of hours, sobbing quietly.
I just wanted to be with Negan, why was it a big deal? I know exactly why, but I just couldn't calm down. Michonne was so ruthless. I understood her, why she did it, but it still hurt me. I couldn't fall asleep again, because I slept 14 hours, so I just lay there crying. I saw through the window that the sun started to set. I heard the door open and close again, I thought it was Enid, but it was Jesus.
"Hi, Quinn!" he said smiling, but his smile faded away immediately when he saw me crying. I quickly wiped my eyes, he hurried to me. "Are you in pain?" he asked. I shook my head, I was, but I wasn't crying because of the pain. He took off his huge coat and throw it on the other bed, then sat next to it.
"I hate to see you like this," he said gently. "Siddiq said you shouldn't talk, because your jaw might break. So, I guess, I'll talk only."
I nodded slightly. He continued.
"Why were you crying?"
I shook my head slightly.
"Because of Negan?"
My eyes widened. Jesus continued.
"We couldn't finish our conversation, and since you can't talk, I asked Aaron and he told me about you and Negan..."
I frowned my eyebrows.
"How?" I asked quietly.
"How does he know?" he asked, I nodded. "He said the council knows, I don't know who told them, maybe Michonne or Daryl. But a couple of people know that you were banished because of Negan."
I let out a quiet sigh, then buried my face in my hands.
"Come on, it's not a big deal. Everyone was very understanding," he said and pulled my hands off from my face. He looked me in the eye. "Is this why you wanted to commit suicide?" he asked carefully.
I shook my head.
"Everything," I said carefully, not to hurt my jaw.
"Everything? You mean, there was more to it?" he asked. I nodded. "Sorry for interrogating you. I want to help you in any way I can."
I grabbed his shirt at his arm when he said the word interrogating.
"You want to know how the girl's interrogation goes?" he asked. I nodded. "Not well. Henry said Daryl went all crazy. I think he is upset because you got hurt.
I didn't expect that. Daryl would be upset because of me? It kind of felt good, but I hated the thought that he was already upset because of his lost girlfriend and now I made him more worried.
"He okay?" I asked carefully.
"He's fine, he's just... a bit nervous. Hasn't he visited you yet?"
I shook my head.
"That's strange," Jesus said.
I wanted to change the subject, I didn't want to feel bad because of Daryl too. I had enough pain in my body and in my heart, I didn't need more in my soul too.
"You?" I asked.
"Me? What about me?" he smiled. "I gave back the leader title. I'm not suitable for the task. Tara does it so much better."
I shook my head, he laughed.
"No, no I know what you're thinking, but... no. I'm not a leader type. Tara will rule. This near-death experience made me realize, what I should and shouldn't do."
I nodded understandingly. Enid just entered the room.
"Oh, hi Jesus. Quinn, we should change gauze."
"Oops, I'm going then," said Jesus smiling, he stood up, put on his coat. "I'll come back tomorrow," he said smiled at me and left. Enid prepared the gauze, stepped to me. Lifted the blanket and my pajamas, then she carefully removed the gauze from my belly.
"Hurts," I said quietly, painfully.
"I know, sorry. Just a little longer... There, I'm finished," she smiled at me. "I will give you some painkillers and change the infusion."
I nodded and closed my eyes. She quietly changed the infusion, then said good night, and left. I kept my eyes closed, I think I managed to fall asleep.
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Author's notes: Listen to "Nobody's Home" by Avril Lavigne. Thank You for reading! ❤