14 Dec 2014
Right now I'm shattered but alive.
Losing time but living.
Craving your attention but simultaneously not caring for you at all.
Fucked up but good.
It doesn't matter to me what happens to you.
Every emotion that isn't hate is my heart rebounding from hate.
Everyone says I see relationships wrong.
Boys see girls feelings wrong.
I'm not so scared as to admit that I've never been hurt.
At the same time I'm not so scared as to admit that I will crush any boys heart before he has the chance to do it again.
There is no second choices.
You do what you have to and I'll do what I want to.
I want to be a whole person without having to have a relationship.
The scariest moment ever is when I woke up and smiled.
I was happy
Not because of him
Or anything like that.
It was purely because of me and the beautiful morning sunlight.
I'm happy and whole alone.
YOU ARE READING
The recollection of my misunderstood thoughts.
PoetryLife's a struggle and it's hard. There's nothing you can do. Just get trough it. I hate my life. There's nothing new. But when the sun is out and the sky is void of clouds you can't help but feel a smile is overdue
