My diary: an interactive project. Sort of.

7/16/11

Holy crap, internal freakout. Panic. Panic. ( city on fire! Mischeif!... I watched sweeney Todd this week. Forgive me.)

So I'm on the phone with F5. We were talking, and I was kind of zoned out and quiet, and all of a sudden he says," Are you okay? You're not depressed or anything, right?"

Cue the internal panic. S is on the phone too, and after that conversation we had recently, I'm sure she was kind of shocked too. I mean, he was right on the mark. So of course, what is there to do but change the subject?

So S goes, why? And F5 says that he has people in his family who are depressed. He said he was worried, and half-jokingly told me not to kill myself, or get addicted to drugs. So I promised I wouldn't, then the subject changed, with a little help from S.

For all my talk about wanting to tell my friends, I'm very scared to. It's kind of awkward to talk about. Plus, when he asked if I was clinically depressed, I'm sure he didn't expect me to say yes. So I didn't.

But I really did panic. I didn't want to lie, but I didn't know whether I was ready to tell the truth. So yeah.

Also, I've started taking a sort of medicine. It's called St. Johns wort. It's a sort of herb, and it's a "mood enhancer". It's technically not approved for kids in America, but it is in other countries, and it's safe enough. It's too soon to tell whether it is helping, but I have managed to go most of the week with only minor episodes. So there's that.

I have to say this, and I'll try not to go overboard: HARRY POTTER WAS AMAZING. You could tell they kind of made it action-y to keep it entertaining, whereas the book was more emotional, but it was good. A lot of changed details, but I still loved it. It was just the right amount of funny and sad. I won't say more because I don't want to give away spoilers. I was a little sad, though, that most of the people at the premiere weren't dressed up. But a few rows behind us was a group of college kids with like thirty people that had the entire dumbledore's army. Like, every character, plus voldemort, and dumbledore's himself. It was pretty cool.

So that's about it. Not much going on besides spanish homework. But thank you all so much for reading, and for all the comments. I promise I read them, and I will reply when I have time! I feel so bad for not replying! But I will, hopefully within the week. Thank you all so much. You are all supermegafoxyawesomehot.

That reminds me! Is anyone watching the glee project? It's awesome! They actually chose good people. My favorites are Cameron, Damien, and Hannah. I actually like most of them. But I hate Lindsay. She's annoying. I want to overbless her face with a slushy!( What the buck show reference. Sorry!) Who do you all like? Also, Darren Criss is back this week! Yay! He's awesome. I love all the guest stars on the glee project. From Darren Criss to idena Menzel to Harry shum jr., they are just the best. Completely.

So that's it! Thank you for reading!

Goodbye!