I don't know what brought any of that up. I don't know why I wanted to take 'steps' with him all of a sudden. Maybe it's because I felt bad, poor guy has to deal with me everyday and get nothing in return.
And sure, last night was nothing but kissing with no shirts on, but I felt him slightly stiff, down there. So I know, I might have did something right.
Plus, I need to explore. I'm an adult and I shouldn't be afraid to do what I want to do, what I dream of doing.
Sure - I'm not ready for sex but I need to get myself ready for whenever that day comes. Right?
I don't know, I really didn't like talking about this stuff.
I huffed out a breath as I got out of the bed, my hair unruly on top of my head. I stretched my arms over my head as I began to make my bed.
"Morning," Ashton says walking back into my room. I quickly realize I'm shirtless and cover myself, again realizing he's seen me like this last night, I drop my hands but then can't help but cover myself again because - I'm insecure.
"No need to cover up love, beauty like that needs to be shown." Ashton says simply, sitting at my desk.
"Actually it doesn't, keep that hidden from the world forever. Don't show anyone." Ashton says seriously but jokingly as he grins at me. I chuckle as I finish up the bed, grabbing Ashton's shirt from the floor, chucking it at him I grab mine and throw it over my body.
"So I guess you won't be seeing me shirtless anymore, Mr. Anyone." I joke at him, raising a brow. Ashton makes a 'pft' noise, standing and grabbing my hands.
"I'm anything but anyone." He cockily smirks at me and I can't help but notice how he looks like a college kid bragging or some type of jock. It's funny, really.
"Then who are you?" I question dumbly just for the amusement of his answer.
"Let's see, I'm Ashton also known as your boyfriend, also known as the best guy ever... Also known as your lover, also known as the only guy that can see what's under your clothing." He continues to smirk at me, I can't help but blush t all of his words.
"At least your modest." I joke and he nods. "I know right."
I chuckle, rolling my eyes as I let go of his hands and walk out my room, Ashton on my tail.
"What time do you start work?" He asks from behind me.
"6, I get out at like 9 I think." I say looking at him, he nods, grabbing a grape from the assorted fruit I had on my counter.
"I get out at 11, maybe you can spend the night over there with me?" He asks and I jokingly groan at him.
"Maxie will be there." He says in a sing song voice and I instantly perk up, dramatically.
"Only am I going for her." I say and he nods, attaching his arm around my waist. "Yeah, okay."
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Filler AF. So I'll be going on summer break soon... This book will probably end around the end of July.. Still undecided but yeah. How are you guys holding up?
Also! I have a new book: Fears, it won't be starting till probably June but yeah go check it out? It won't have any ties to this one if you were wondering.
