Wrote: 20th September 2014
Edited: 11th august 2015
*Archie (Ooo)*
It's been around two days at the most since Harry left Niall here, he went back home, good thing too Gemma was back, so I haven't talked to him but Niall hasn't been worse.
He doesn't eat.
He doesn't sleep, and when he does it's like an hour then he goes back to sobbing and wishing he'd never done it in the first place.
He doesn't talk much, it's only 'yes' 'no' or 'go away, you're not him' it's kinda hurtful seeing him like this. He's never been this depressed, he hides away in his room all day and night. I just hope he hasn't hurt himself anymore, when the hate got bad he harmed himself and then stopped when Harry came around, and he'd never seemed happier.
I get up to go make him eat something, I walk to his room and silently open the door. I carefully shut it and it's pitch black in here, but he's always loved the dark. He doesn't know I'm here.
"Please come back," he whispers and it makes my heart hurt, "please," I just, He's never been so broken.
"Niall.. you need to eat something," I say quietly and it doesn't startle him, he just sighs in between his sobs and starfishes in his bed, cuddling on to one of the memory foam pillows.
"This pillow isn't as soft as he was," he sobs loudly and cries into the pillow.
"Niall.. you can't keep doing this, it's been two days. He's probably the same way, come on.. please eat," I practically beg him, he just sobs and well the least I can do is try to comfort him. I walk over to the bed and gently rub his back.
"I just- I-I, I just wanna s-see him one more time," he looks up with broken blue eyes, bloodshot and cold, and there's some other emotion I can't pick out in them.. I think it's guilt? Love? Loss?
"One more time?" I ask and he nods.
"That's all I want, it would keep me strong," he sobs and lays his head down on my lap, looking up at me.
"Do you think you love him?"
"I don't know," he sobs and I think to myself as I see the state he's in. I grab his wrist and he winces as it opens the cuts that he's made there again.
"Niall.. what did Harry mean to you? Just for once open your heart and say what it wants,"
"I want Harry back!" He shouts and cries harder into my lap, I gently stroke his hair and wait for him to calm down a little bit from his full on crying.
"What if, I tried to get Harry to come for one more day? One more?" I ask and his saddened features do their best to lighten up at the mention of Harry.
"You would??" He sounds so heartbroken I really don't know what to do with him, he hasn't practised any football and gone to the gym, he's almost deflated.
"I could try, but he probably wouldn't want to see you again," I tell him the truth because no matter how painful it is to hear it, it's the right thing to do.
"I know," he sits up and wipes his eyes.
"I'm sure he feels as bad as you do, you were his idol Niall and you broke his heart," I remind him and he sits there with a broken look on his face as I leave to make him something to eat.
*Harry*
"Could you get me another blanket please Gem?" I told her all about Niall's sleezy experiment with me and trying to have sex with me. That's just. Oh who am I kidding? I'm crying my eyes out non stop!
"Harry when you stop crying I will," she says and she's been trying to get me to stop crying for the two days I've been home but she can't and I can't stop, it's too hard.
"I can't!" I sob and clutch the blanket she's already got me.
"Oh fine.. I know he's hurt you little brother but just forget him!" I shake my head as another blanket is laid over me.
"I can't.. he just wanted to fuck me then leave!" I cry out and she sits beside me as I do a scrubs marathon.
"Well what do you want?" She asks and I know how she means it.
"Him,"
"Harry?" A voice sounds through our door and Gemma gets up to answer it.
"Archie?" She asks and I slump down in my chair.
Archie stands in front of my worn out and no tears left body. She looks me up and down and can see I've clearly been crying non stop all of two days, I haven't slept but I've eaten comfort food but it doesn't fucking comfort me.
"He looks worse than you," she says and Niall's hurting?
"What?" I wonder and she sits next to me.
"All he's done is hide away and he hasn't slept or talked or really moved from his room since you walked out," she explains and I feel my heart sink a little deeper inside, it's not a nice feeling.
"So? He has no right to cry," I say coldly and Archie gets her phone out.
"What If I told you that a few minutes ago, he was sobbing in my lap and crying and whispering 'I want Harry back, please come back' he misses you Harry, a lot, and in the process of two days he's made 5 cuts on his arm," I blink away the tears that need to fall and try not to think about him. But I can't.
"No, I can't forgive him like that," I say and she nods.
"Ok I did tell him you wouldn't be interested in one day with him," she says and stands up.
"Wait.. to see him one more time?" I wonder and kick all the blankets off.
"Yeah, he said it would keep him strong,"
"Take me to him," I command and one more time seems nothing, if he's as broken as she's making out.
"Ok."
....
"Go right upstairs.. he's probably up there crying his eyes out again," my chest tightens at the thought as I go slowly up the stairs. It hasn't been long but I have to admit I miss him.
"Niall?" I whisper as I open the door, I shut it behind me and I don't think he heard me.
"Now I'm hearing his voice," he sobs and he doesn't think I'm here.
"No Niall I'm really here," I say a bit louder and walk over to his bed.
"Harry?" He looks actually awful as bad, if not worse, than Archie said, he breathes in quickly as I wrap my arms around him and he hugs back tighter than ever.
"I m-missed you s-so m-much!" He cries into my shoulder and a few tears fall from my eyes, he missed me, but what he did was wrong, you can't just use someone and expect them to have sex with you then leave. That's called a one night stand as I found out! Oh check me out.. getting hasty now!
"I missed you too," I whisper back and his arms are still round me, tight and it feels nice to be held by him once again.
"Why did you.. why.. why are you here? I thought you hated me?" He looks down after pulling away from my hug, his blue eyes are dull and full of guilt and tears as he can't even look at me.
"Because Archie said you wanted one more day with me... So here I am," I say putting no emotion in, he's not knowing how I feel. Even though seeing him like this is heart breaking.
"Y-you came back because of that?" I nod with a small smile, that's not even forced, I cant pretend when I'm with him. I've loved him all my life and he choose me and I got hurt.. like always. This is why I don't fall in love.
"Thank you," he says before pulling me close and I can't deny him, I take his wrist in my hand and stare up at him with a 'why?!' face and he looks ashamed and still very guilty.
"I got sad," he says as his tears roll down his cheeks.
"Did you do this because.. of me?" I ask cautiously and in a whisper.
"Yes," he says back his voice small and vulnerable.
"Please don't. I thought you'd stopped," a tear trickles down my face and his face sinking.
"I'm sorry," He whispers and that's all I need. He really is. That I'm sorry means more than just that, he means about everything.
"Kiss me," I whisper and he doesn't take another hesitant look, he just does it and it feels so good to kiss him again, like the world is at peace once again.
I pull away from his gently kiss and he smiles.
"I have to go," I sigh and hug him one last time before getting up and heading for the door.
"Ok..."
*Niall*
"Bye Harry.." I love you.