Missing you || KSI

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Tomorrow is my birthday.

Holy fuck.

I'm almost 22.

20 fucking 2. That's so crazy to me.

I knew it was coming but not this quick holy fuck.

Tomorrow is my birthday.

I am scared but excited at the same time. Scared because I'm positive JJ won't show up.

Wait he texted me! He might have remembered!

My everything 🌎💞
You excited for tomorrow?!

Kay ❤️🌎
For what?

My everything 🌎💞
THE FIRST NEW AGE ALBUMS SONG TO COME OUT DUH!

Ouch. That hurt.

Kay ❤️🌎
of course

My everything 🌎💞
Love you ❤️

Yeah no I'm not answering that.

I can't believe he forgot. Like this genuinely sucks. Have you ever had your own boyfriend forget your birthday? Not even your boyfriend, you best friend? The one person you depend on?

Maybe JJ and I aren't meant to be like everyone says we are. I mean, he can't even go two weeks without cheating on me. So are we really YouTube's 'perfect' couple?

If you met us you'd say otherwise. I mean I sure as hell would. I fucking love him so much, but like Jake said I'm starting to get tired of him fucking me over. It freaking sucks.

I kind of hate everyone and everything right now. I miss my mom, I wish my dad hadn't left me when I was young, I wish my brother haven't gone to his friends house for the next week. I miss him. He left a day before I got here, and isn't coming back till next Monday.

I wish my sister and I weren't arguing. I wish JJ still loved me. At this point I don't think he does.

Fuck this.

I need someone. I need somebody here with me who won't ask me a bunch of questions.

"Hey Anthony?" I spoke into the phone I was FaceTiming Toner on.

"Hey baby girl, what's up?" He laughed.

"I just wanted someone to talk to." I smiled.

"Well I'm always here." He smiled back.

"How bout you walk over and we can have a few drinks?" I offered.

"Always. But you have to tell me what's up and why you seem so sad. Deal?" He chuckled softly.

"Deal." I said.

"Meet me halfway?" He asked.

"Of course." I answered, slipping on my slides and a hoodie.

*5 minutes later*

"Hey tony." I grinned as he wrapped his arms around me.

"Hey Kay." He grinned, pulling out of the hug.

"Damn. You even look hot in an oversized hoodie and messy hair." Tony said licking his lips, as I playfully pushed him, laughing.

"Back off. I still have a boyfriend." I laughed.

"I know. I know. Just teasing." He winked.

"Okay. Okay." I said mocking how he repeated his words.

"Oh shut up." He laughed as we walked up the stairs to my porch.

I grabbed my camera and hit record so that I could have vlog content for today.