They slowly and silently had led me downstairs. As I walked down I was nervous and worried as fuck. When I was still on the stairs, Logan called, "Virgil, are you friends with Insanity?". I just froze.
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TW: A panic attack
Virgil's POV:
I stood there, silent.
"I don't kn-know why?" I said, mentally cursing myself for stuttering, going downstairs slowly.
"Insanity claims he was getting a glass of water and said he was hanging out with you. When I got more suspicious, he punched me" Logan said, holding an ice pack to his nose. Oh shit...
"Logan I'm so sorry," I apologized. He doesn't deserve this, I do. I didn't tell anyone, so if Logan claims that Insanity punched him because he was getting 'too suspicious', then he's already hurting the sides and I haven't even told anyone about the beatings...
"It is okay, Virgil. You're fine, it wasn't you," he paused as I sighed a tiny sigh of relief. "But you still didn't answer my question. Are you friends with Insanity?".
"Well, not exactly but he comes to my room a lot," I said, trying to brush it off.
"Why?" He asked, sounding a little irritated at the thought of Insanity, not irritated by my responses.
"I don't know..."
"Well..." he trailed off, sighing heavily. "It's fine, it's just a little aggravating that he punched me".
"Again, I'm very sorry" I said, sounding dead.
"Don't worry Logan! It'll heal soon, right?" Patton said, trying to lighten the mood.
"Yes, as I've explained before" Logan replied.
"I want to teach this child a lesson for messing with any of us..." Roman said, making fists.
"Roman, " Patton said. I wanted to say something, but I'm ignoring Roman to the best of my ability without him knowing I'm ignoring him...
"I said that I wanted to, not that I was..." He said.
"Is there anything I could do to help you?" I asked Logan.
"If by 'help' you mean your physical assistance, I don't need that nor mental help. I have a recipe upstairs to make a liquid that will ease pain and another to help the wound heal faster" he replied.
"Oh... ok" I said, embarrassed.
"Why can't you just take Advil or something?" Roman asked a little dramatically.
"That is because it wouldn't mix right with the other liquid, possibly causing nausea and vomiting, but those consequences are a littl unknown," Logan replied. Roman nodded in realization at that. I went to the stairs and started to go up.
"Where ya goin' buddy?" Patton asked.
"To my room, where else?" I remarked sarcastically.
"Hey, don't be rude now." He scolded lightly. I didn't care. I'm leaving because it's now awkward– or at least seems awkward between Logan and I. Almost every interaction I have with anyone is bad or awkward so I guess I'm used to it.
"I'm sorry" I whispered on the verge of tears. Emotional breakdown? Probably. Wasn't talking to you. Well I'm still in your head so I'll talk to you if I want. Yeah I know I've given up on caring at this point. It's a panic attack I think, who knows, hehe...
And sure enough, it was a panic attack. I ran to my room and slammed my door (unintentionally). I fell to the ground and had a sobbing fit, crying out and barely able to breathe like usual.
After a 2 minute panic attack, I was tired as hell. I wanted to be okay, but it seems I'm never okay. I tiredly looked around to see if Deceit or Insanity were around, and they weren't. I grabbed my guitar and tested the strings by strumming them quickly.
When I finally thought of a song, I cleared my throat...
"Placing a smile at the perfect event,
Gracing your skin with the side of my hand
If I ever leave I could learn to miss you
With sentimental boy as my nom de plume
Let me save you of this wrong
I may never sleep tonight,
As long as you're still burning bright
If I could trade mistakes for sheep,
Count me away before you sleep
I'll still wait till I trade my mistakes,
So they fade away
I feel marooned in this body,
Deserted, my organs can go on without me
You can't fly these wings
You can't sleep in this box with me
Let me save you of this wrong
I may never sleep tonight,
As long as you're still burning bright.
If I could trade mistakes for sheep,
Count me away before you sleep
I'll still wait till I trade my mistakes,
So they fade away
Don't let me tell you of this wrong,
Then I'll pull you in
'Cause I am an anchor, save her oar
Feel it sinking in
Don't let me save you of this wrong
I am an anchor, sinking on
I may never sleep tonight,
As long as you're still burning bright
If I could trade mistakes for sheep,
Count me away before you sleep
I'll still wait till I trade my mistakes,
So they fade away"
After singing that, I felt a lot better. I put my guitar back under the bed and got under the covers. I don't even know what time it is, I'm just exhausted and in a bunch of pain.
Logan's POV:
I don't mean to be rude to Virgil. I hope I didn't give off that impression. Oh well.
I went upstairs to read through my recipes and find the recipe for pain relief and the recipe for faster healing speed. Once I found it, I got the materials set up to make them. But, it is pretty late so I will repose and get the ingredients and make the liquids in the morning.
A/N: Sorry for this one being short I was a bit overworked because of my roommate mostly, but partially my mother. Also, right now it's 10/16/18 and I can't wait for the new Sanders Sides vid whenever it'll come out!
A/N on 10/29/18: THE NEW SANDERS SIDES VIDEO WAS AWESOME I SAW IT RIGHT WHEN IT CAME OUT NOW IT HAS BEEN PROVEN THAT VIRGIL LIKES CORALINE AND DHMIS!! YEET!
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