Unaccepted

Chapter 8

Deceit finally spoke:
"Finally those lunatics are gone. Let's have some real fun, Virgil"
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TRIGGER WARNINGS: CUTTING

Virgil's POV:
    Like what? Can I get some sleep? Wait, I might have a nightmare. I didn't the last few times, but I either passed out or I was... with someone, weird. Oh well...
"Umm... like what?" I asked nervously.
"Use Logan's blade and draw on an empty canvas, haha" he said.
"I don't think I have a... clean spot anymore."
"Well do it over other ones. Shoulders much?"
"Okay, I'll do my shoulders." Now that I think about it, I am pretty useless.
"Here. Now lock your door and go to the bathroom." He handed me the blade. I walked over to my door, locked it, then entered my bathroom.

    I slid off my hoodie and started to cut on my shoulder. I winced at the pain, but it was bearable. I've been used to it. I'm cutting a bit deeper than I was. Not enough to get to a vein though.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10...

    I think I'm good for now. I heard knocking on my door and I quickly got up and put my hoodie back on. I hid the blade in my hoodie pocket, opened the door and walked to my bedroom door. I unlocked and opened it to see Patton.
"Hey, Patton." I said, emotionless. More like dejected, cause' that's how I feel...
"I just brought you some food. Also, are you ok? I'm sorry about earlier." He said, frowning.
"Yeah I'm fine. Nothing's broken or sprained. Just bruised." I stated. He smiled a little.
"Oh that's a relief. I'm still a bit worried. You've been acting different for the past month. Is everything actually... alright??" He asked, frowning again.
"I'm fine. I was going to sleep when you knocked." I said. God I hate how stupid and weak I am.
"Oh I'm sorry! Can you... eat first?" He asked, half smiling. No, I can't.
"Fine" I lied, grabbing the plate.
"Yay! Okay, you eat up and get some rest." He said smiling and walking away to go downstairs. I rolled my eyes but I knew he couldn't see.

    I closed my door and locked it once again, and sat on my bed. I can't eat this. I'll gain weight. It's new, Deceit didn't tell me to do this like all the other shit he's been telling me for the past month until recently.
"You know you can't possibly eat that?"
"I know, I was actually thinking of flushing it."
"Good..." Deceit said, sitting on my bed.
It was chocolate chip waffles. I felt bad a little for flushing it, but I had to get over it. This is my life now. I took only 2 bites. God, it was good.

Next day...

    I woke up at 2 pm, wondering why no one decided to wake me up. Everyone wakes up at 8 am and makes breakfast. I kinda stayed up until 7 am looking at Tumblr and mostly watching Netflix and YouTube.

    I felt the familiar tug. Thomas. Thomas needs me for some unusual reason. I appeared in my spot to see everyone else staring at me.
"What?" I asked, obviously not amused.
"Hey Anxiety. We've been discussing, and we're all concerned about you." Thomas said.
"I'm fine I didn't break anything Logan knows too just ask him" I muttered.
"No, not that. For the past month you've been acting up a little. Are you okay?" He asked.
"I'm fine. Why is everyone so concerned? Can't I just have a moment's peace?" I muttered, looking down at my lap. You're so useless, a voice said.

    Patton was silent and frowning until he finally spoke up.
"Kiddo, I haven't seen any of your hoodies come down here in the past month. I haven't washed any of them." He said, still frowning. I put my hands in my pockets nervously, but played it cool.
"I'm fine. Plus, I'm always freezing. Can I go?" I needed to get out of here.
"Sure" Thomas said, sighing. I sank out and appeared in the commons. I think Roman is starting to grow on me. I never thought about this before, but I always envied his love and support he gets from the others. I wish I could be as loved as him. I think I might have a crush...

(A/N: Extra chapter because I just started writing chapter 16)