Cyn thoughts.....
I can't believe the conversation I had with erica last night. I knew it was jasmine that was talking. She was the one I fell in love with. The one that would,run up to me when she walks in the door, just to give me a kiss. Jasmine was who made me fall in love with bubble baths.I remember two weeks after my brothers funeral, I was home moping and she came and packed my suitcase. She said she have a huge gig in Canada and wanted me to tag along. After an whole hour of her begging I finally agreed. Only to know that she was lying, she rented out w huge cabin in the mountain just for us. No one knew where we was it was so gorgeous snow all around and fireplace in each room. There was a huge bathroom with glass walls so at night we took bubble baths under the stars. It was one if the best trips I had. She held me as I cried and catered to my every wish. We never left the cabin for a entire week, we was just lost in us. If erica was a guy, I would have gotten pregnant that week. I would be reading on the couch and she would gather me in her arm just to kiss me. During our bible baths she would hug me from the back and whisper in my ears that she loved me. I was blushing everyday cause when I called her she would say yes wife. She promised that I would be her wife one day.when we broke up I thought I would die. I contemplated committing suicide, I was so use to her being with me and seeing her with shad was hard. The fan made it worse tagging me in her pics on IG.Even with everything that happen I still love her, and when king told me what happen to her my blood boiled. Shad messed with the wrong one. He have something coming his way I guarantee. Let me get out this bed, I have some washing and cleaning to do, but this little boy arms are wrapped tight around me. He sleep just like his mama, only difference is her head unsally be in my boobs. She would fall asleep sucking her thumb every night, I would remove them from her mouth only to have her mouth on my breast. Every morning I had a new hickey on my breast. She was always scared to fall asleep alone, she always have nightmares when she alone at night. That foster home she was in fucked her up in the head. When I was out doing gigs, king Albee or maria would always be assigned as her sleeping buddy. I wish she would see a therapist about it. Anyways back to the task at hand. I tried to get him to let go but all he did was whine and cuddled up closer to me. My big baby, his my spoiled brat. I just lie back down and played in his curls and rubbed his back. Just then my phone buzzed.
Cyn: hello
??:where are you?
Cyn: home
??: I'm coming over I'm almost on your street .
Cyn: ok, you know where the key stays.
??: ya
Cyn: king, baby I need to get up
King:*whinning* mama I sleepy
Cyn: ok, you can stay in bed but Stella coming over
King: wait Tia Stella coming, I'm up
Cyn: *laughing* you not sleepy no more
Stella: ya, but Tia stella coming over and I need a new game.
Cyn: that foul king, you musnt use my friends for your gain.
King:mama she didn't give me anything for my bday this year
Cyn: you are your mother's child.
King went to wash his face and brush his teeth, while cyn went and do her hygiene stuff. By the time she was done, stella was already there, with king sitting in her lap and promising to buy him a new game.
Cyn: glad to see I'm not The only one that falls for his tricks.
Stella: his too cute for his own good. *kissing king cheek*
Cyn: king, what you want for breakfast?
King: can we go to I hop.
Cyn: I guess, Stella you wanna come.
