BULLIED

Submission 692

In kindergarten, the lowest grade, is when I started to get teased about how I looked and teased about my weight because I wasn't "perfect" or "skinny" like the rest of the kids. I was five years old and was being shunned by others in my class, and in my grade. Even those in higher grades would tease me. I managed to get through kindergarten up to fifth grade.

Fifth grade is when it got really awful. I still didn't look like any of the other kids. I had really light blonde hair, and I wasn't skinny.. everyone always called me dumb blonde, fatty, lardo.. just so many names. Then when the kids in my class realized how high my grades were and that I was the highest in the class, they called me nerd and too smart because I was eventually placed in advancement classes.

The end of fifth grade, I developed an eating disorder by the name of anorexia. I wouldn't eat for two days at a time, maybe three. But I still got teased because even though I wasn't eating anything, I wasn't loosing any weight. I eventually just stopped eating all together.

During the summer after fifth grade, I met a really nice guy. He was a little older, two years, but he treated me nice. He got me to eat again, and he helped me become happy. He was, and still is, my best friend.

Sixth grade, a friend of mine that I had met through NY best friend, began to tease me excessively. Anytime I would pass him in the hallways, he'd call me fat or ugly. And it wouldn't just stop at school. On the bus, someone who was older than me, in eighth grade, teased me and made many fat jokes. I went home crying one day. I just sat on the couch and cried.. My brother was furious and he called my dad and told him about what had happened and they made me go to the principal the next day. I told the principal what happened and the bullying on the bus, and in the hallways stopped..

The next year I met a group of guys on Wattpad.. I became so close with all of them and I actually started to love one of them.. I talked to them all the time, and the one I liked asked me to be his girlfriend. We went for a year strong.. we had many bumps in the road.. well a little after that year, I discovered that all of them, including my boyfriend, were fake... I got so depressed that I began cutting.. I felt like I had no one now. I ended up self harming for a year. My parents saw the cuts one day and ended up putting me on suicide watch. They watched me all the time, closely, and it got aggravating. So I told them I stopped and when they stopped watching, I started cutting again.. I developed bipolar disorder, social anxiety, depression, and insomnia, and I still have all of those.

I met this girl. She was a bit annoying to me at first, but she eventually grew on my and now we are as close as sisters. She got me to stop self harming, and she taught me to love myself. She taught me that I'm perfect the way I am. She helped me ignore my social anxiety when I was with her, and I was able to talk to her about anything.

I ended up switching schools in the middle of my eight grade year.. I was terrified of the bullying starting again.. but it didn't. I was actually protected there. That school helped save my life, along with my best friend.

I'm now a happy, 14 year old freshman who doesn't get teased because she looks different. And I have a loving and caring boyfriend who loves me for me.