i want somebody to love me, i want to be loved for who i am and maybe for who i am going to be. i want to feel wanted, and i want and i mean really want my sense of self WORTH back, i want to feel like i'm worth someones effort and worth someones time. i hate felling like i am nothing that i can disappear tomorrow and that no one will even notice that i'm gone. i have been told and have heard several times that it will get better that this pain its only temporary but i cant help but feel like how is that even possible, how and when will it ever get better? i used to think that i was a strong person but then i started to cut myself and even thought about and even attempted suicide so how can i even almost remotely be a strong person? i have had a lot of people hurt me people i have been close to and also people who don't even really know me or me know them but it doesn't make it any less painful to endure. i have been abandoned more times than i can count by the people who would tell me that they loved me but i was bounced around between my parents and grandparents house so i never really felt like i was wanted i mean how could i when no one seemed to want me and when i did live with someone it always felt like i was doing something wrong that i could never do anything right. i feel lost, i feel confused, i feel unloved, and most of all i just feel UNWORTHY. i have gone trough a lot in my life and don't get me wrong it wasn't all bad because it wasn't even now it isn't all bad i absolutely have my good days and also my bad ones. i'm 23 years old i have been physically, mentally and emotionally abused since i was 10 years old. i have been bullied,abandoned, lied to, and put down by the people who are supposed to love me the most but it just feels like... it just feels like god i don't even know how to even remotely finish that sentence. i have never had a boyfriend to this day maybe its because i never felt that my family loved me so how in the world can anyone else love me even though i have prayed and wished for it for a long time. i hope one day that i will feel loved again and have my sense of self worth back.
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Non-FictionBullying is a very serious issue that effects the lives of many. I hope that by many of us sharing our personal stories, it will not only help victims realize that they are not alone, but also help bullies realize how strongly their actions and word...
