dempeo/merder oneshots

my boyfriend is dead

I don't know if anyone will follow this one-shot and understand it so here's some background info...

Merder are 16. At the start, her parents tell her he died. He got hit by a car.

Wherever derek is in this story, its either in her imagination or she's thinking about him (their memories together)...

I put my hand over my mouth. Tears stream down my cheeks. "Honey I'm so sorry" my mom says. "No you're not! You hated derek from the start" I say.

"Baby, don't.. I know you're sad but you can't blame us for this" my dad says. I sob, running upstairs to my room. I lock the door behind me.

I fall to the floor, sobbing uncontrollably. Hes dead. He's really- my boyfriend is dead. "Baby" he sits next to me. "Derek" I cry, pushing my face into his arm.

"I'm so sorry" he says. "I can't- I can't breathe" I put my hand on my chest. "You're such a drama queen.. just breathe" he sits between my legs, putting his hands on my cheeks.

"You're not.. you're not really dead.. you're not.. tell me you're not" I sob, putting my hands on his cheeks. I can't feel anything. I can't feel him.

"I love you meredith" he rests his forehead against mine. I cry hysterically, tears streaming down my cheeks.

My phone starts ringing. He disappears. I pick it up. "Cristina?" I choke out through my tears. "Where are you? Are you home?" She asks. I sob into the phone.

"He's dead" I whisper. "I know" she says quietly. "Can- are you- will you come over?" I try to quiet my cries. "I'm here" she says.

She climbs through my window. She rushes over to me. "Hes dead" I sob into her shoulder as she wraps her arms around me.

Flashback:
"He's dead" I sob into his shoulder. "I'm sorry mer" he wraps his arms around me.

I pull away from him and get up. I look in the fish tank at my dead fish. "Can we bury him?" My lip trembles. "Of course baby" he whispers, walking behind me.

He wraps his arms around me from behind. I turn around in his arms, wrapping my arms around him. He puts his hands on my cheeks. He wipes my tears.

Present:
I'm sat in bed. It's now 3am. Cristina left a while ago. I'm looking through the pictures of him and me and him on my phone.

I sob hard. Tears roll down my cheeks onto my phone screen. "Don't.. don't hurt yourself more" he sits next to me.

I'm basically hyperventilating, I'm crying so much. He rests his head on my shoulder. I go to our old messages, looking through them.

16.05.2019:
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Der: so, we still on for our date tomorrow?
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Me: definitely
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Der: where do you wanna go?
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Me: I don't know.. wherever you want
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Der: dinner and a movie?
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Me: that sounds good
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Der: okay, I'll see you then
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Me: see you then.
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18.08.2019
Me: good morning
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Der: good morning beautiful
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Me: yesterday was amazing
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Der: we should do it again sometime
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Me: oh, you can afford to get a hotel room again for us to have lots and lots and lots of sex in?
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Der: I'll find a way
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Me: shut up
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Der: I love you meredith
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Me: I love you too baby
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Yesterday (17.06.22-the day he died):
Der: good morning baby
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Me: good morning der
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Der: you okay?.. we okay?
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Me: yeah, I'm sorry about yesterday
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Der: I'm sorry, i shouldn't have shouted at you like that
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Me: I deserved it
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Der: yeah, you did
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Me: shut up
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Der: but you forgive me?
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Me: of course
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Der: I love you so so much

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"I didn't reply to you.. I got distracted and put my phone down" I whisper. "I know you love me too" he says. My lip trembles.

"I didn't say I love you back" I sob. "Its okay" he says. "No, it's not okay!" I cry. "Baby, we spoke on the phone later.. you told me then" he says. I think about it.

Flashback:
"Whatcha doinnnggg?" I ask playfully. "I'm just sat in bedddddd" he says playfully. I giggle.

"I'm going to the park later.. you wanna meet up?" He asks. "Who with?" I ask. "A few friends" he says. "No, I hate your friends" I say. He chuckles.

"Can we meet up after?" I ask. "Of course.. I'll come to yours" he says. "Okay" I say.

"I gotta go baby, my mom's calling me" he says. "Okay, I love you!" I smile. "I love you too" he hangs up.

Present:
"You were on your way to me" I whisper. "Its not your fault" he says. "It is.. I asked to meet up.. if I would've just met you at the park-" I say. "Then I'd be walking you home and we would both be dead" he says.

"It'd be better that way!" I say. "Don't say that" he says. "I wanna be with you" my lip trembles. "I am with you" he says.

"I don't wanna- I don't wanna date again... I don't want to move on from you.. I can't" I say. "Yeah, you can" he says. "I'll fucking kill the driver" I say. "No, you won't" he chuckles.

"Stop arguing with me" I sob. "You love it" he grins. "I don't" I say. "You do" he says. "I- Stop it!" I say. He laughs.

I close my eyes, tears streaming down my cheeks. He sighs. He puts his hands on my cheeks. "You'll be okay" he whispers. I look into his eyes. "I love you" I whisper. "I love you more" he says.

My eyes go wide and I sob as he disappears. "No! Derek!" I look around my room. I cry hysterically.

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I gasp, sitting up quickly. I tear up. "What baby?" Derek sits up next to me. I sigh. I wrap my arms around him, pushing my face into his chest.

"What's wrong?" He hugs me tight. I pull away slowly. "I had a dream that you died" my lip trembles. "Its okay" he whispers.

He pulls me into his arms. "How many times have I told you meredith? Door open" my mom opens the door. "We were just sleeping" I sniffle.

I pull away from him. She walks away. "You okay?" He puts his hands on my cheeks. "I love you" I say. "I love you more" he kisses me softly.

"I'm sorry for waking you up" I say. "Its okay" he smiles. I put my hands on his cheeks, looking into his eyes. He smiles. I kiss him deeply.

We pull away slowly. I smile. "Please don't ever leave me" I say. "I can't live without you" he says. I climb onto his lap, straddling him.

I kiss him passionately. He puts his hands on my cheeks. I giggle, pulling away. "You were still just as annoying dead" I say. He grins.

"I dont care what my mom or my family says.. I literally want to be with you for the rest of my life" I whisper. "Me too" he says. "Really? My family isn't too much for you?" I ask. He shakes his head, smiling.

I snuggle into him. He pulls me between his legs. I cuddle into his chest, eventually falling back asleep