Jimin
"You're so...ah! You're so nice to me Y-Yoongi hyung! Ah!" I moaned out.
I was beneath him in his bed. Both of us were completely undressed. His lips attacked my neck and chest. He was pumping both our dicks in one hand. I arched my back at his touch.
He smiled at me. Staring into my eyes with his lust filled ones. I bit my lip before leaning forward and attaching my lips to his.
I couldn't help but feel guilty. We were being so loud and I felt so insecure. I was so worried about Jungkook, yet I keep letting Yoongi go further and further. I felt my face heat up because of how I'm letting someone else touch me. How i'm letting the guy I used to like and who likes me touch me.
I could see Jungkook's hurt look already. I feel so bad. I felt my eyes gloss over and my breath hitch due to anxiety.
I love Jungkook. What am I doing? Why am I doing this to him? Isn't this the very thing he was worried about happening? Why am I so disgusting? I'm hurt him right now and I know it. I love him so much so why am I letting this happen.
I felt Yoongi place himself at my entrance. He'd already fingered me before I pushed his hand away. I've been hesitant from the start. He prepped me, but I just kissed him and he began to pump both of us. He seemed so needy though. I can't make him wait longer. I don't want this though. I'm so afraid of hurting Jungkook. I love him so much that I'm so scared of what he's feeling now.
"N-no.. i'm sorry..." I finally cried.
I pulled away from him and hurriedly got out from beneath him. I got off his bed and pulled my underwear up as fast as I could.
"I-I'm sorry... i just... my heart really is set on Jungkook... i'm sorry... i-if you just give me some more time to get over him then maybe.. I-I don't know. I'm sorry, I just can't do this now- maybe ever.. i just... i gotta go" I could barely form a proper sentence.
I panicked as I put my shirt on. I didn't even put on my pants before running out of the bedroom and into my own. From the corner of my eye I could see Taehyung standing shirtless outside his bedroom door. Jin wasn't beside him though. Jungkook's door was open too. This only made me begin to vocally cry out.
I shut my door and buried my face in my pillow. I've only ever cried out during the day for Jungkook.
I'm so sorry to him.