Liam’s POV
I checked my phone eagerly for the time and I only have a few more minutes to wait. Sarah is supposed to meet me up here at Misty Oliver’s and I’m nervous about what she has to say to me. I’m hoping since we’re in a public setting that it is good news, but I’m trying to remain realistic. Deep down inside, I want Sarah to be my girlfriend again, but if she says she is no longer interested for sure, I’ll leave her alone.
The lads were telling me if she still says no I should try some more, but I won’t. I understand if she is simply not interested in a relationship right now. Sometimes college is crazy enough without a relationship and I know relationships can sometimes complicate instead of help life situations. I also understand that Sarah could have plausibly fallen out of love with me and while that upsets me, I’ll just have to deal with it.
In a way, I have probably have already pushed her too much into forming a relationship with me again. I don’t want to push her further from me by telling her to come back more than she wants to hear. I will try my best to understand if she is permanently breaks up with me no matter how much I don’t want it to happen.
We’ve been broken up for about almost a month now, but I still hate it. Every day, I wish we were together. I know there’s really nothing I can do to change her opinion, but I can’t help but at least while still on the same continent that she’s on. Even being on a different continent with her is going to be reality soon for me and I can’t stand the thought of that either.
I hear the bell click above the door and Sarah walks in with her precious smile on my face as soon as she sees me. “Liam! So glad you came!” She greeted happily. She gave me a hug and I hugged her back. We let go of the hug. “You want to get a drink first?”
“Sure, we’ll do whatever you want, love,” I told her warmly. She smiled kindly back and we walked to the counter. There was a small line, so we got in line. “What are you getting today?”
“Oh, just a latte, probably the Mr. Blonde, it’s my favorite,” Sarah chimed. “Are you getting your usual of tea or are you doing something else?”
“It’s a bit hot for tea, so I’ll probably do an iced coffee drink of some sorts,” I answered her. “How have you been the past couple days? I haven’t heard much from you,”
“I’ve been busy which is probably why you have not heard from me, but with Spring Sing starting up in less than a week, I should be on a lighter schedule soon. Much lighter and I should more free with my time,” Sarah told me.
“Good,” I replied, “I’ve been really busy with as well with Spring Sing. I’m not looking forward to tomorrow with all of the practicing I’ll have to, but I’m glad Spring Sing is here and I’m ready to be done with it once and for all,”
“I couldn’t agree more,” Sarah added. We were at the front of the line and we ordered our drinks. Sarah tried to pay, but I refused when I pulled out some money. “You know you don’t have to pay for me. This isn’t a date,”
“What if I like buying treats for my friends even the ones I’m not dating?” I asked her. “I like being generous towards the people I care about,”
Sarah blushed at my remarks, but added, “Still, it makes me uncomfortable no matter what the situation is,”
“You’re okay, love. You’ve helped me far better than what a drink can. I think I could buy all the drinks in the world and still not thank you enough for all the tutoring you’ve done,” I complimented her. Sarah smiled back.
“Oh, I didn’t help you that much,” Sarah defended. “There are only a few things you didn’t quite get right.”
“A few things? I don’t consider thermochemistry and basic equations of solutions a few things,” I admitted. “Admit it. I probably would’ve made… a D without you?”
“You would have done better than that, silly,” Sarah teased, “I would say a B at the lowest because I know you would have figured it out eventually,”
“Eventually, maybe, but not at the pace the professor was wanting me to learn them at,” I pointed out to her. The barista called our names out and we picked up our drinks to take them to a wall at a lonely corner at the front of the store away from the counter. We pulled out two bar stools and sat down by the ledge on the wall.
“That class wasn’t that bad,” Sarah continued. “It was only a freshman class,”
“Only a freshman class?” I asked appalled. “That just makes my situation sound worse that I struggled with a freshman class!”
“Every freshman has one of those classes that they struggle with. Jenny really struggled with Calculus last semester. I literally watched her cry doing her homework because she was so lost,” Sarah stated seriously.
“Poor thing,” I cooed, “Even I didn’t do that,”
“Well, she got through. She made a good grade too,” Sarah smiled happily, “But enough about that, we probably should get to what we were going to talk about,” My heart skipped a beat as I met her eyes while sipping my delicious frappe.
“Yes,” I agreed, “What did you want to talk about?” I asked eagerly. Sarah sipped her latte and then she set it down. She met me in the eyes and her body instinctually shrunk into a smaller space.
“I have been thinking about the last time we talked right after Spring Break and I told you I still wasn’t so sure about dating again and I didn’t come right out and say I wanted to date you again, just that you were willing to give me another chance,” Sarah started. I nodded for her to proceed.
“Well, I was thinking about that conversation, and also what I have talked about with Jenny and Harry and even Niall and Cara,” Sarah started nervously, “After talking with all of you and doing some thinking and praying on my own, I think I do want to date you again,”
I smiled really big and I was so happy, she did say yes to my proposal. I hugged her really tight to show her my approval. “Are you serious?” I laughed hysterically. Sarah smiled and nodded her head. “I can’t believe it. I thought you were going to say no!”
“Really? Why is that?” Sarah asked confusedly.
“I don’t know. The tone I had gotten from you last time, you were still so sad. It sounded you had accepted your original choice and you were going to go by it. What changed?” I asked her.
“Well, I have realized that my earlier choice to breakup was a decision done when I was angry and I didn’t spend enough to really think about the implications of what they came with. I wasn’t thinking in that moment that I might have lost you as a friend forever or that I was hurting you as much as I was hurting myself,” Sarah explained.
“Honestly, it never crossed my mind how much I hurt you in the process of breaking up with you in the process. I guess I truly didn’t realize how much I had until I saw you cry for the first time the other day,” Sarah paused and I could see her eyes water, “You know all guys after you break up with them will always come running back to you saying how much they love you and all this crap that may or may not be true.
“I heard the spill before you and I know I will always have to hear it no matter how gently I break up with a guy. It’s always hard for me to hear it no matter how much I strongly believed I could never work out with the guy gushing to me. Even this one boyfriend I had who broke up with me came back to me a few weeks later demanding we get back together. He was forceful about it and I almost called the cops on him that day, but I was able to escape.
“It meant more to me that you were actually crying about me breaking up with you,” Sarah concluded, “Out of all the long grand tales I’ve heard before about why I should get back with so-and-so, I had never before had a guy cry while saying it. It’s hard to find a man out there who will actually cry in front of you because they think they’ll have to drop their man card if they do,”
“Since you did that do that,” Sarah carried on before I could add in my input, “I think your plea was the most sincere out of all the ones I’ve heard before. I found yours more believable since it was obvious that you were truly hurt from it. Most guys are so good at trying to convince a woman to stay with them, but only the honest ones will show weakness of themselves in front of you,”
“So we’re good?” I asked after a while to be sure I’m hearing her correctly.
“Yeah, more or less,” Sarah answered, “I’m sorry I broke up with you so drastically. I should’ve shut up that day and thought about it more if I had really wanted to do it. Unfortunately, I don’t have a really good excuse like Harry did with Jenny, so I’m sorry. I was already worn out that day and I just released my stress and anger on you that day in the worst possible way, and I shouldn’t have. I probably pour too much of my stress on you anyway to begin with,”
“It’s all right. I understand if you need a release through talking through your problems. All four of lads have done the same thing with me at least once. Harry and Niall probably talk to me the most about their problems. They do call me ‘dad’ for a reason,” I joked.
“Well, you don’t have to act the most mature between me and yourself,” Sarah told me, “You can be whoever you want to be. I just want you to be able to happy and to be yourself around me. Some days, it’s hard to be the good kid or the responsible one,”
“It’s all right. I just get used to it after a while, but thank you for giving me the option to be irresponsible. I might take you up on that come summer time,” I assured her.
“You might have to,” Sarah winked at me. “So you are okay with us being together again, right?”
I gave her a very perplexed look. “Of course. How would I be upset? This was seriously the best scenario that could come out of this and I certainly wasn’t expecting this. I thought you had made up your mind when you did break up with me,” I confessed.
“I thought I had too, but the longer the distance was between me and that moment, the more I regretted it. I feel like it should’ve felt right, but it didn’t. Sure, all breakups hurt, but it is rare for me to think I wasn’t right in doing so. I usually have some conflict within me over it, but this time…It got harder on me the longer I stayed broken up with you not easier which is unusual for me,” Sarah explained.
“Is it the distance between now and then is what ultimately convinced you then?” I asked her.
“Mostly, but I definitely started questioning myself when you were still crying about it almost 3 weeks ago. I had to think about happy places and animals for two weeks after watching you look heartbroken,” Sarah admitted.
“I had to think on happy things for a really long time in order to stay sane,” I also admitted.
“Well, not anymore because we have each other for real now,” Sarah smiled giddily sipping her latte slowly.
“We do,” I agreed with a smile on my face. “And hopefully for the rest of our lives,”
“I love you, Liam, no matter where we wind up,” Sarah told me sweetly.
“I love you too, Sarah,” I replied back with the biggest smile on my face. I couldn’t be any happy than this moment right now with Sarah. I had Sarah and now I am satisfied with life again.
A/N: Hello! :) I hoped you liked today's chapter!! :D As I said before, Spring Sing is coming up next in OG! But before I get to those chapters, I will going on another trip again this summer. So, I will be leaving Tuesday and I won't make it back home until next Tuesday.
As a result, do not plan to hear back from me until next Tuesday or Wednesday at the earliest. I'm sorry it will have to be that long, but I do not know if I'll even have access to Wifi while I'm on my trip most of the time :(. I hope you understand, and I promise I'll start writing again as soon as I can!
Only 6 chapters left and then the epilogue totalling 100 chapters! :) I hope you're looking forward to it!