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Two updates in one day! Well, one for this one, and a few hours ago I published part 3 of my short story I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing!
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I hope you'll enjoy this chapter!! More truth or dare stuff because who doesn't love to read about some spicy truth or dare stuff. I hate the game myself irl. I love when I write about them doing it lol
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"I'll go for truth", Tyler said. "Right. Let's see... oh", Lucas said softly. "What is it?" Tyler asked. "Maybe we should get another one", Lucas said. "No, no tell me", he said. Lucas looked up at Tyler hesitantly, but Tyler told him again to tell him.
"...how often do you and your partner have sex", Lucas read aloud, and Tyler realized why Lucas had wanted to skip that question. He wished he would've listened to him. He shifted a little, biting his lip. "I..." Tyler trailed, feeling slightly guilty. He glanced at Steve, who sent him a soft smile, and Tyler looked away again. He swallowed, sighing just slightly, very softly. "We uh... haven't had any yet, so... can't answer that", Tyler softly said.
"Maybe we should take a little break. This alcohol makes me have to pee", Lucas said. "Alright, let's take a break", Steve smiled. Tyler nodded, but he was still looking down. Lucas got up, Josh wished he could do something for Tyler to make him feel better, but Steve was the one to speak up.
"What's wrong baby?" He asked as he got up from the couch to sit next to his lover on the same couch, resting his hand on Tyler's back.
"What's up, love?" He asked gently. Tyler sighed softly, biting his lip. "I'm just... sorry", he said softly. "What for?" Steve asked. "For... Uhm, just... here we are talking about all the places I've had sex with my ex boyfriend and then several moments later I have to admit that I haven't even had sex with you yet"; Tyler muttered.
Josh had been surprised by Tyler's answer, but had quickly regained himself as he didn't want to look like an idiot being surprised that he and Steve hadn't had sex yet. It wasn't weird, to him, that people didn't immediately have sex when starting a relationship, but judging by how sexual and kind of kinky Tyler turned out to be, which he learned because of this game, he hadn't expected it.
"Oh baby that's alright", Steve smiled as he pulled Tyler into a hug. "Don't worry. We're just playing the game, giving honest answers when we get asked a question. Lucas already knew what happened and how we haven't had sex yet. Why are you suddenly worrying about that so much?" He asked gently as he ran his fingertips through Tyler's hair.
"...is it because of me..?" Josh asked softly. "Because I'm- I'm here?" He added. Tyler looked up, and he wanted to say no, but realized that... maybe it was. "I... Uhm, I- maybe... maybe, yeah", he softly admitted. "So what exactly is it that you're worrying about? 'Cause Josh is the least judgmental person. Are you worrying about what he might think? About you? Or about me 'cause you haven't stopped blaming yourself even through you said you had?" Steve asked. "I... think the latter", Tyler said. "I just... keep feeling guilty and like it's my fault and I feel like I'm embarrassing you because of it", Tyler softly admitted. "Oh baby, you're not at all. You're not embarrassing me, not even a little! And if Josh would think it is, then I couldn't care less about that. But I know he won't! He won't judge you - or me, for that matter - for that at all, baby", Steve said.
Tyler looked at Josh, who smiled softly. "I really won't", he said. Tyler returned it. "I... I know you won't. It just... still makes me worried that you might", he sighed softly. "Why don't you just tell Josh about it, at least if he's okay with that? Then you got it off your chest and you'll see how Josh won't judge you for it", Steve said. He then looked at Josh. "Would you be okay with that? If you'd rather not know, that's fine", he smiled. "I- I'm- I'm okay with that", Josh smiled softly. "I won't mind."
"D'you want me to tell him?" Steve asked. Tyler shook his head. "I will", he said. He grabbed his cigarettes and he lit one, then turned to Josh while he leaned back against Steve. He took a drag from his cigarette, slowly blowing out the smoke as he fidgeted with his fingers when he looked down.
"So uh... Steve- Steve and I got this... crush, on each other, in Amsterdam and then in Berlin it became just bigger and bigger. We'd been texting in between and we... liked each other, and we'd kissed, and we both really liked that", he said. He bit his lip as he looked at the smoke coming from the cigarette. It felt peaceful, almost, the way it went up in a straight line before wiggling into a cloud.
"Then one evening, Steve invited me to his room, and I accepted the invite", Tyler said. "He basically looked me up and down and left to go to his room, and I didn't get it", Tyler said with a soft laugh. "Brian and Eric had to tell me that he had just invited me back to his room, so I... while I didn't believe them fully, I went after Steve and turns out they were right", Tyler chuckled.
"But uh... then we got to his room, and we got naked, and we uh... actually started having sex, and... I moaned Lucas's name", Tyler said, biting his lip again as the smile was gone. "Ohhh oh no", Josh softly said. Tyler nodded slowly, taking a deep drag from the cigarette. He breathed out shakily.
"We uh... stopped doing what we were doing after that", Tyler said with a slightly bitter laugh. "I thought I'd ruined it all but Steve forgave me for it and gave me another chance to explore what we were feeling 'cause it... it felt real. It was real. The sex was just... just way too fast, way too soon, and I shouldn't have let it happen", Tyler said.
"...as you can see, we turned out fine", Tyler smiled softly. "Together. But... while I know I love him so much, and Lucas and I are over and all that, I just... I'm just terrified of messing up again. Terrified that for whatever reason I'll say Lucas's name again and I will ruin everything. I'm just... scared, of having sex with my lover because I'm scared I'll mess it up", Tyler said softly. "Other stuff, even sexual things, are fine and we enjoy that, but actual sex is kind of terrifying to me at the moment because I don't wanna lose Steve."
"Which he won't", Steve said. "But he won't take my word for it." "I- I mean, if that would happen to me then I would be terrified too, regardless of what my lover would say", Josh said. "Right?" Tyler smiled softly. "Yeah", Josh nodded. "It's not that you don't trust your partner... it's just that you can't remove that fear no matter what you try", he said. "Until you'll actually do it", Tyler said. "But I've been... putting it off a bit", he admitted. "Waiting for that right moment and I don't know if I'm just procrastinating or if I actually wanna make it more special." "Maybe both", Josh said. "Probably both, yeah", Tyler said with a soft laugh.
"I'm patient", Steve said. "Just don't want you to think that any of this is embarrassing to me, 'cause it's truly not. I love you to death and I support all of you and it's got nothing to do with how often you and Luke had sex and where. Even if you had sex with Lucas twelve times a day, seven days a week, it still would not feel embarrassing or wrong to me that we haven't done it yet. I don't compare us to your previous relationship", Steve said.
"I'm really happy that you don't", Tyler softly said. "I really don't want to compare us to him and me either", he said. "Then we won't, simple as that", Steve smiled. "So no need to do that anymore, alright? No need to worry about what you and Lucas did versus what we did", he said. Tyler nodded, smiling softly. He let out a relieved sigh. "Yeah", he smiled. "Thank you love", he said. "Of course, baby", Steve said as he kissed Tyler's lips before he stole a drag from his cigarette. "Want me to refill your glass, Josh?" He then asked. "Oh, uh, yeah I'd appreciate that", Josh smiled as he grabbed his glass and he handed it to Steve. "Be right back", he said. "I uh, I'll... help", Tyler said, putting the cigarette on the edge of the ash tray, and Josh figured he wanted to talk to Steve in private about something, since no one really needed any assistance filling a glass, except for a toddler, maybe.
"We'll be right back", Tyler told Josh. "Sure, take your time", Josh smiled, and Tyler returned it. He knew Josh had caught on, and he appreciated him not calling Tyler out on it.
Tyler followed Steve inside to the kitchen.
"Something else on your mind, love?" Steve asked as he grabbed the bottle of coke to refill Josh's glass. "Uh, yeah..." Tyler trailed. "I... we- uhm... Why- why did you let me uh, kiss Lucas?" He asked. Steve looked up. "We're playing a game, aren't we?" Steve replied. "Yeah but... you- you could've said no and- and you didn't", Tyler said. "Yeah, 'cause I didn't see it as a big deal", Steve said as he turned around to look at Tyler, leaning back against the kitchen cabinets. "Should I have seen it as a big deal?" He asked as he quirked his eyebrow. "I- no, no", Tyler said. "I just... You- you know what we... feel", Tyler carefully said. "That you're not over each other fully yet? Yeah, I know", Steve nodded. "I just- I can't- I don't get how you're so... chill about it", Tyler said. "I mean, I trust you", Steve said. "And you kiss his cheek and his forehead and things like that all the time. I just didn't think it was that big of a difference", he said. "And I trust you, and him, both. If I shouldn't, then you should definitely let me know, though", Steve chuckled.
"No, no you can trust me, really", Tyler quickly said. "I never doubted that", Steve smiled. He went up to Tyler, taking Tyler's head in his hands. "I trust you and I love you, and as long as you don't just go around kissing and making out with every person you see, then I won't stop trusting and loving you", he smiled. Tyler let out a soft laugh. "I would never do that", he said. "I know", Steve smiled. "Did you feel off after you and Luke did that?" Steve asked. "I thought I could feel that, at least", he said. "I did", Tyler admitted. "I just... I don't even know. I felt like I didn't see anything wrong with it at first 'cause I was also just thinking oh we're playing a game, but then Lucas made the comment about how I'm in a relationship and I just... started doubting myself and everything happening 'cause I started worrying that you would be testing me to see if I truly would do it, or if you'd think that I'd just kiss anyone, or something dumb like that. I was worried that you would regret it, or that I would regret it, and then it felt a bit awkward and I couldn't look at him", he sighed softly. "You should clear the air with him, before we get back to the game", Steve said and Tyler nodded. "Yeah, I want to", he said.
"And this is the perfect moment for that", Steve said as he turned his boyfriend around, who then realized that Lucas had come back. "Hi", Lucas said. "Did you... hear all that?" Tyler asked. Lucas nodded, smiling softly. "I did", he said. Steve gave him a nudge, and Tyler walked up to him. He wrapped his arms around his best friend and he gave him a tight hug. "I love you", he told him. "I'm sorry I... made it awkward." "We both did. It's alright", Lucas smiled as he pulled back from the hug. "We're good, hm?" Lucas asked. "Yeah, we are", Tyler smiled. He pressed a firm kiss on Lucas's cheek.
"Alright, so; any kisses similar to the ones that happened up until now, are fair game during this game, alright?" Steve said as he walked up to them. "Just so we're all on the same page and there's no more worrying?" He asked. Tyler and Lucas both agreed. "Let's go back to Joshie", Tyler smiled.
They went back outside, sat down in the spots they were in before, and Steve gave Josh his drink. Tyler picked the cigarette - or what was left of it - back up and finished it until they were ready to continue the game.
"Ty, truth or dare?" "Truth", Tyler replied. "What song would you like to have sex to?" Steve chuckled. Tyler let out a laugh. "Gosh, that's a hard one. Um... There's several", he chuckled. "I'll go for... A Little Death by the Neighbourhood", he said. "Oh that's a hot one", Lucas said. "I'll make a mental note", Steve said, making Tyler laugh. He looked over at Josh. "Do you know the song too?" He asked. "Uh I- I'm not sure", Josh said. "Let me put it on", Tyler said as Steve handed him his phone, and Tyler looked it up. He put the song on, moving to the music gently as he lit another cigarette.
"Touch me, yeah, I want you to touch me there", Tyler sang along to the chorus. "Make me feel like I am breathing, feel like I am human", he continued. Josh blushed at the lyrics, especially as Tyler sang them. "I- I get why", Josh said, making Tyler laugh gently. "It's sexy", he smiled. "Luke, truth or dare?" He then asked. "Truth", he chose. Tyler then chuckled. "Who's the horniest person in the room?" he read aloud. "You are", Lucas said with no hesitation. "Oh fuck off", Tyler chuckled. "That's absolutely not true", he said. "Oh really? Who do you think it is, then?" Lucas asked as he raised an eyebrow, waiting for Tyler's reply. Tyler looked at Josh, then Steve and Lucas. "Oh fuck, okay fine, it's me", he said, making them all laugh. "Exactly", Lucas chuckled.
"I'll go for truth too", Steve said. Tyler hit the button. "Choose between ten thousand dollars, or being able to easily achieve multiple orgasms for the rest of your life", Tyler laughed. "Oh that's easy, I'd choose the second one", chuckled said. "Yeah you got plenty of money already anyways", Lucas hummed. "Right", Steve said with a laugh. "Joshie, love, want a truth?" Steve asked and Josh nodded.
"Oh hold on! It says it's a group question!" Tyler said after he hit the button. "Oh so we all have to do this one?" Lucas asked and Tyler nodded. "Share your biggest secret that no one in the room knows yet", Tyler read aloud. "...okay so I don't have any big secrets that none of you know", he chuckled. "I mean... Even Josh knows most of them. I... guess there's only one that he doesn't know", he said. "I got one that you two don't know about, but Ty does", Lucas said. "I've mentioned my biggest secret to Luke, and Ty knows all about it, but Josh doesn't", Steve said.
"Okay so let's rephrase that: Share your biggest secret that at least Josh doesn't know yet", Tyler laughed. "Do you have any big secrets to share? If you feel comfortable?" Tyler asked Josh. "I uh- not- not really like... personally, but we uh, have a family secret", he said. "Oh that definitely counts too", Steve said, and they all agreed. "Who goes first?" Tyler asked. "I will", Steve said.
"After my guys and I, our band, got super famous super quickly, almost overnight, I couldn't handle the stress and the pressure of it, hung out with some... questionable friends, and got addicted to drugs pretty quickly", Steve said. Josh's jaw dropped slightly; he didn't see that coming, and he couldn't imagine Steve being addicted to drugs at all.
"It got so bad that I would be on tour and my buds and the tour buses couldn't leave 'cause I wasn't back in time before we had to leave. I'd be out somewhere in a random city on my own at night, trying to find dealers to get my next fix, or I'd be passed out on a sidewalk or at a random person's place who'd sold me drugs, or in the grass or bushes in a park, and always left my friends worried sick at the bus, but I couldn't stop myself from doing it", he said.
"And other times, I couldn't get my hands on drugs, so I'd be in my bunk going through heavy withdrawals, getting extremely sick and having the feeling that I was dying every time, and I'd have to play shows that way", he said. "Sweating like crazy, head pounding, throat dry, shaking fingers. I made so many mistakes trying to play my guitar as I went through that", he said.
"Until at one point, my guys gave me a wake up call and I decided that I wanted to go to rehab, so I did. Been completely clean ever since - for years - just smoke some weed or drink some alcohol with friends sometimes, but never alone, and never too much - I know when to stop and they know when I should stop - and I've never felt better and I've never been more proud of myself", he smiled softly. "Man, I'm so proud of you too. I'm so glad you recovered from that", Lucas said. "And the drinking is safe?" He asked, and Steve nodded. "Never had an issue with alcohol, and while I don't wanna risk going overboard, some drinks are fine", he smiled. "I only had issues with synthetic hard drugs. Coke, heroin, molly, speed, LSD, ketamine; you name it and at some point in the past, I've tried it", Steve said. "Jesus", Lucas muttered. "That's... heavy." "Yeah, sorry", Steve chuckled. "Just know I've never had the desire to go back to any of that. I wanna live, and that was not living at all", Steve said. "All the money I earned went to drugs right away and I was part of a huge band but I was the only one who was broke. I don't ever want that again, and I don't want to miss out on relationships and experiences because I was under the influence 24/7. I never wanna go back to that life 'cause it was not a life", he said. "I would've been dead by now if I'd continued using the way I used to. Now I get to live and experience things and I have a home and an apartment and a boyfriend and best friends for the rest of my life and I get to experience traveling to all these places and meeting all of those awesome people all over the world while we're on tour. I never wanna lose that again, not to drugs. I used to visit countries all over the world and not remember a single thing about them because I was using drugs during that time, but now I get to actually have memories of those places and those people", he said.
"Like this last European tour with Ty. I'll never forget that, and I'm glad it didn't happen years ago 'cause I would have no good memories of it. Now I do", he smiled.
"I'm so proud of you", Tyler smiled. "You're so strong." "Insanely strong!" Lucas said. "What you did is not easy and rehab is one thing, but being able to never look back and never have relapses at all takes an insane amount of strength. You are one strong motherfucker and I love you", Lucas said as he used one arm to pull Steve closer into a side hug. "I love you too", Steve smiled, pecking Lucas's cheek.
"Ty and I wrote a song about it. We hope it'll make the album", Steve said and Tyler nodded. "It's a really good one. One of my favorites", he said. "Me too", Steve smiled. "Alright. Who's next?" He asked.
"I uh- I feel like my secret isn't- isn't big enough anymore now", Josh said. "Oh it's not a competition, you already got us curious. It doesn't matter how big the shock factor is", Tyler assured him. His hand traveled to Josh's, which was fidgeting with his other hand, and he gently grabbed it in his, squeezing lightly. "Okay uhm..." Josh trailed, glancing at all three of them, before he figured he might as well just start talking 'cause dragging it out was really not making it any easier on him.
"Uh, my... my uncle, he uh... he created a ponzi scheme of some sorts", Josh said. "I... can't say too much about it 'cause I honestly don't even know exactly what it was and the details about it myself, but... basically he defrauded a lot of people - hundreds, maybe even thousands - out of their money and he told us all that he got rich practically overnight because his business had blown up", Josh said.
"Then he got caught and they sent him to jail, but instead of my grandparents telling us... they actually told us his business's success plummeted and he suddenly joined the navy instead", he said. "My parents and my other aunts and uncles and my siblings and cousins and I had no idea; we just thought he left and joined the navy without saying goodbye because he was ashamed, not because he was in freaking jail", Josh said. "At one point my dad found a whole stack of letters that he'd sent to my uncle in the mail - they were all bundled up and returned to the sender's address - our address - because he'd been sending letters to the navy with my uncle's name on it while he wasn't even part of it", Josh said as he scratched the back of his head. "So when my dad started digging... he then found out that he was, in fact, in prison because of fraud."
"That is one of the craziest family secrets I've heard", Steve said. "Wait your grandparents just... lied about it? Why didn't they just tell the truth?" Tyler asked in disbelief. "I never really asked that", Josh said with a soft laugh. "But I think that they were... disappointed and kind of ashamed that he turned out that way after they tried raising him properly, I guess", he said. "Jesus", Lucas said. "How did your father take that?" he asked. "Well it happened when I was around twelve or so, and then we actually didn't see my grandparents for like a year or two, until they kind of... rekindled their relationship", Josh said. "Now everyone's close again", he smiled. "That's good", Tyler smiled. "And your uncle?" He asked. "He's actually still in prison. I think he's got two more years or so to go", Josh said. "Oh wow. Have you seen him since that happened?" Steve asked. "Uhm yeah, but only... two times, I think. My dad visits him sometimes and I joined him twice I think, but uh... Prison isn't a great place for people with severe anxiety so after those two times I knew I didn't have the guts to go again", he blushed.
"The idea of prison alone scares me, let alone actually going there. I totally get that", Tyler said. Josh smiled at him, gently squeezing Tyler's hand - he was never the one to do that first, but right now, it felt like it was his turn to do so, and it surprised Tyler, whose smile widened.
"Alright, Ty or Luke?" Steve asked. Tyler looked over at Lucas. "I'll go first", his best friend said, and Tyler nodded. "I... I told you guys that I knew, from a young age, that I was gay and I came out", Lucas said and Josh and Steve nodded.
"Later, in college, I... got drunk at a party, had sex with a girl, and got her pregnant", Lucas said. Steve's eyes widened, and Josh's jaw dropped. "You're a dad?!" Steve exclaimed. "No! No", Lucas chuckled. "No I'm not a dad", he let out a soft laugh. "Uhm... This girl and I, we didn't really know each other. I got dragged to a party and somehow I got so drunk that we hooked up and had sex and I could hardly remember it but I woke up next to her and it was obvious", Lucas said. "We just... left, went separate ways, didn't talk about it until one day I was in the library and suddenly she was next to me. I hadn't seen her since the party, so she took me by surprise, and she asked if I was in a relationship and whatnot. I told her no, then she said that she wasn't either, and she also hadn't hooked up with anyone else around the time we did, or after that, and that she found out she was pregnant", Lucas said.
"My world kind of came crashing down on me at that point", he chuckled. "She asked if I wanted to try... a relationship, because she didn't want to be a single mom, and I told her I was gay", he said with a soft laugh. "Which she obviously didn't see coming 'cause we slept together, so then she asked if she could choose what to do as we were obviously not gonna pretend to be a happy, straight family, and I said of course, and she said she really wanted to have an abortion 'cause she wasn't ready and never really wanted kids in the first place. Then I helped her set up an appointment and drove her to the clinic, she got a successful abortion and we've actually been friends since then", Lucas explained.
"So I was almost a dad, but luckily that didn't happen 'cause while I really want to be a dad and have kids, that moment was absolutely not the right moment for me at all. Especially since it all just happened because I was drunk one time. So that day I swore to never get drunk around strangers again, which is why I always volunteer to be the one staying sober", he said.
"That must've been a terrifying experience", Steve said. "It was, it really was", Lucas said. "And I still can't really believe I had sex with a woman", he chuckled. "But it turned out alright, so it's not like I'm still thinking about it a lot. I learned to let it go and just shelve it in my mind. I don't really like telling everyone about it as I don't want them to see me as the gay man who got a woman pregnant in college, but I know you two won't see me like that. And Tyler already knew, 'cause I felt like it was important to tell him once we got serious about our relationship", he said and Tyler nodded. "Yeah, even though there was no kid and in theory that situation didn't affect our relationship at all because you didn't actually become a dad back then, I still really appreciated you telling me that", Tyler smiled and Lucas returned it.
"I guess that leaves me", Tyler said. He let out a soft sigh as he stretched his arms, then he turned to Josh, smiling softly. Josh felt nervous; he knew that he was the only one there that didn't know about the secret that Tyler was about to tell, and he wasn't sure if he was ready to hear it either. He breathed in, shakily breathing out as he looked at Tyler.
"Remember that video? Where I... fainted on stage?" He asked. Josh nodded softly. "Did you ever wonder what happened?" He asked. "All the time", Josh softly admitted. Tyler reached out to grab Josh's hand, and he laced their fingers together. He looked down at their hands. "Did you ever... think of what could've caused it?" He asked. "Uh... Jen- she actually- actually brought up addiction at one point", Josh said with a blush. Tyler smiled. "Well it wasn't that", he said. "I uh... Hadn't eaten, properly", he said as he looked down at their intertwined hands. "Oh", Josh replied. Was that it? Did Tyler just not eat enough and he got unwell? "...for months. Years, actually", he said. Josh's eyes widened as he heard the words. Okay. That changed things. "W-what?" He softly asked. Tyler kept looking at Josh's hand in his.
"I... I had an eating disorder", he said. "...struggled with eating a lot, for a long time, and it just... just got worse and worse. I was with Lucas when I reached that point where it had gotten to the worst point", he said. "But I... would keep it from him, I'd make up lies or I'd eat with him but then make myself throw up in the bathroom later. I'd rather not eat at all, though", he said as he bit his lip.
"When my friends went out for burgers, I'd go the other way to find a small salad or something. I always said I... wasn't hungry, or that I had already had food, anything to get out of it", he said. "Lucas, he... suspected something, but I lied to him a lot, about everything, every day, just so I didn't... so I didn't have to eat", he said as he bit his lip.
"Then I started passing out and losing consciousness and I would hide that from Lucas too, until it happened on stage and they brought me to the hospital, and the days of lying and hiding my eating disorder were over", Tyler said. "I uh... couldn't do anything but confess to what was going on. So... the tour got canceled and I went off the grid for a while to recover from my eating disorder, 'cause it almost killed me. I was close to losing my life to my eating disorder. And it's... a long process. I'm still not recovered fully, but the clinic that I went to did really help me a lot with understanding how to look at food, and how to shift my thoughts to other things, how to handle gaining weight, and they learned me how to... how to eat, basically", he said.
"Luke didn't want me to go back on tour after I got back from the clinic, he wanted me to continue recovering more first, 'cause tour life is already hard enough, and having to also continue recovering from an eating disorder on top of that, wasn't... ideal. But I didn't listen and I went back on the road right away and that was the worst tour I ever went on 'cause my friends were trying to make me eat and I didn't want to and I yelled at them and had huge fights with them and I hated them and I made sure to always tell them exactly how much I hated them. Lucas was at home and he tried to talk to me but I would just argue with him and ignore him for days in a row all because of that damned disorder", Tyler said softly.
"And then around our break up, I just started falling back into my old habits, but luckily my friends were just in time to get me back up again", he said. "And now I'm doing... I'm doing good, I think. Some days are worse than others, but generally, I... kind of like the way I look, and I kind of enjoy food too", he smiled. "So that's... that's good", he said. "Like how we had pancakes today, sushi and Asian grill for lunch and pizza for dinner? That would've been my worst nightmare a year ago. I would've... had a smoothie, and maybe one slice of toast or something", Tyler said. "Now, I just... look forward to food, which feels weird but it's true", he smiled.
When he looked up at Josh's face for the first time since he started talking, he saw his wet, tear stained cheeks and Tyler had not realized that it had made Josh cry. "Oh no, I'm sorry", Tyler said as he heard the sniffles come from Josh. He pulled Josh into a tight hug. "I didn't mean to make you cry baby", he said softly. Josh tried to calm down, but he couldn't really do it as the information he'd just received was running through his mind. Tyler had an eating disorder. And he almost died because of it.
It was shocking to hear. Steve had already shocked him by telling him he almost died because of the drug addiction he had, but it was obvious that his bond and connection with Tyler was even bigger and tighter, and he couldn't imagine that Tyler would've not been there anymore because of it. He couldn't imagine losing Tyler, and it made him cry.
"I'll talk to you about it later tonight okay? I wanna talk about it with you", Tyler softly told him and Josh nodded, his breath hitching lightly. "Oh love", Tyler tightened the big.
"Oh noo poor baby", Lucas said. "I need to hug him too", he said as he walked around the table and he climbed on the couch to also wrap his arms around Josh, and Steve followed, the three of them giving Josh a tight group hug. "It's alright Joshie, we love you", Steve told him. "Yeah we do", Tyler said as he kissed Josh's forehead. "I'm much better now, yeah baby? I'm healthy now", Tyler told him as they pulled back a little, and Tyler smiled softly at him. Josh breathed in and out deeply and he nodded. "W-we'll talk about it l-later?" He asked and Tyler nodded. "Yeah baby, we will", he smiled gently. Josh let out a breath, wiping his cheeks, which Steve then also did as some more tears had escaped, but Josh was calming down more.
"We're okay. You're okay", Tyler smiled softly. Lucas handed him his drink and Josh took a few sips, then let out a deep sigh. "I-I'm okay. I- I think we can continue", he said. "Alright love", Steve said as he pressed a kiss on Josh's temple and Lucas gave him a tight hug from behind. Tyler remained close to him, holding his hand in his own as the other two found their seats again. "Alright. Who's turn is it?"
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Ohhhhh man 😌
That was the last secret Tyler hadn't told to Josh yet. He trusts him so much 🥹 also Lucas and Josh's secrets 👀 👀
I know I'm probably dragging out this truth or dare stuff too much but. there'll be more. it'll be good. I promise. 😌
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