Hi loves. We might as well just keep it up. New chapter! Woohoo!
Fun fact: When I had Josh go to the university in Detroit where he met Colin, I completely forgot that I Prevail are actually from Detroit lol it's such a great coincidence that they're from around there 'cause that made writing this plan so much easier haha.
Anyways! Thank you all for the votes and comments on last chapter! I'd love it if you could do the same this time ♥️♥️ you guys reading my chapters just makes me so dang happy. I hope you'll love this chapter too!
Enjoy, loves ♥️ it's a super long one!!
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Tyler groaned as he opened his eyes slightly, feeling his head pound and the light in the room made him quickly shut his eyes again. He heard a soft, gentle laugh, trying to open his eyes again, when he saw his boyfriend Steve. "Good morning", he smiled, crouching down next to Tyler. "Got you some painkillers", he said as he put them on the night stand with a glass of water. "How in the hell are you even functioning right now", Tyler asked groggily, and Steve ran his hand through Tyler's hair gently. "I know my way around hangovers", he said. "And how to take care of people with hangovers, 'cause I'm kind of the dad of the band when it comes to it", he chuckled. Tyler smiled softly, eyes closing again. "I love you", he said. "I love you too", Steve told him. "Did you sleep well?" he asked. "I didn't wake up once", Tyler chuckled. "My head hurts so bad", he then complained. "But waking up with a view of you makes it better", he said, noticing how Steve was only wearing sweatpants without a shirt. Tyler was obsessed with him not wearing shirts.
"Here, take the painkillers", Steve chuckled. "They'll help." "I'm never getting as drunk as I did last night again", Tyler muttered as he pushed himself up a bit, feeling like his head was gonna explode if he'd move too much. Steve gave him his painkillers and the glass, and Tyler swallowed them. "Thank you, baby", he said. "Gosh I feel like throwing up", he muttered. "Maybe you should eat something", Steve said. "And throw that up too?" Tyler asked. "I've been hearing your tummy rumble for the past hour", Steve chuckled. "It would help combat the nausea if you'd let me make you some breakfast", he said. "Alright, whatever you say, dad", Tyler said. "Don't call me dad", Steve said. "Is daddy better?" Tyler asked. "Absolutely not", Steve replied. Tyler let out a laugh, but it made his head hurt even more. "No daddy kink, got it", he said. "Don't tell me you do", Steve chuckled. Tyler smiled. "No, not really", he said. "Not my cup of tea. ...though I would like a cup of tea right now", he said. "I'll make you some tea soon", Steve said as he pressed a soft kiss on Tyler's forehead.
"Wait is- Lucas is here right?" Tyler asked and Steve nodded. "Haven't heard from him yet, though", he said. "He's probably as hungover as I am", Tyler said. "We're both not used to this", he added as he rubbed his forehead. "I'd wanna wake him up to see if I could help him, but I don't know if I can", Steve said. "He wouldn't mind", Tyler replied. "Maybe, but... I would", Steve said. "Just... doesn't feel right, not yet", he said. Tyler nodded. "Yeah, I understand", he said. He let out a yawn. "I'll go with you if you help me up to my feet", he said. Steve smiled. "Yeah, of course", he smiled. He helped Tyler get to his feet, stabilizing him since Tyler was dizzy from his hangover too. "Maybe I should put on some clothes first, though", he chuckled, realizing he was fully naked. "Could be a good idea, yeah", Steve chuckled. He got some boxers and sweatpants for Tyler to borrow and wear, and Tyler slightly shivered from the cold so he got him a hoodie as well. It took Tyler a while before he could stand and walk on his own again, without feeling like he was gonna throw up or fall over any second, but once he was doing okay they slowly made their way downstairs and to Lucas's room.
"Lukey, you awake?" Tyler asked as he opened the door. "Yeah, don't ask me how, though", Lucas mumbled. Tyler let out a laugh as he made his way to the bed, flopping down next to Lucas, wrapping his arm around his best friend. "Morning", Steve said, and Lucas opened his eyes, smiling softly as he saw Steve. "Hey, good morning", he said. "Got you some painkillers too", Steve said as he put them down on the night stand, again with water. "You are a lifesaver", Lucas said. "Gosh, I feel like a wet slice of bread", Lucas muttered, making them laugh. "That's exactly how I feel too", Tyler said as he cuddled up to his best friend after he'd taken the painkillers. "I'm sorry but did we drink something else than you did? 'Cause you look like this is the best morning you've had in years", Lucas said and they laughed. "He knows how to handle this shit, apparently", Tyler said. "Which I'm very happy about right now 'cause now he gets to take care of me", Tyler smiled triumphantly. "I'm gonna make you guys some breakfast", Steve gently laughed. He pressed a kiss on Tyler's forehead and wanted to walk away, but Tyler grabbed his hand. "Kissie", he muttered and Steve leaned over Lucas to kiss Tyler. "That's better", Tyler smiled as Steve got back up.
"So you're, like, hot hot, huh?" Lucas said. Steve let out a laugh. "Shut up. Sounds like you're still drunk", he said. "I'm just speaking the truth, that's all", Lucas said. "He is, right?" Tyler said. "Yeah, you were totally right", Lucas said. "Okay, stop exaggerating now", Steve chuckled as he started to make his way to the door. "We're not! Just let us appreciate how gorgeous you are", Tyler said. Steve looked over at him, rolling his eyes. "Whatever, babe", he said before he left the room. "It's true!" Tyler called after him. "Jeez, don't- don't scream so loud", Lucas said as he cringed a bit. "Sorry", Tyler chuckled. "I get why you like waking next to him", Lucas said and Tyler smiled. "He's beautiful as hell, huh?" He said. "Yeah. I shouldn't see him shirtless too often or I'm gonna be crushing on you and him both", Lucas joked and Tyler laughed. "I love you", he smiled. "I love you too", Lucas smiled as he pressed a kiss on Tyler's hair.
"I thought he'd have tattoos too", Lucas noted. "He does, a few on his legs. No arm, neck, chest or back tattoos", Tyler said. "Not many in general. It's more Brian and Dylan's thing. Eric has only a few too, and I don't think Gabe has any but I mean, I haven't seen him naked, so", Tyler chuckled. "Is he hot too?" Lucas asked and Tyler chuckled. "He is", Tyler hummed. "But I don't think I need to introduce you guys like that, since he's in a band too", Tyler said. "Ah right, that's a bummer huh", Lucas chuckled. "I'll keep an eye on for any normal, uninteresting guys out there for you", Tyler hummed. "Fuck you, man", Lucas chuckled. "I'm kidding", Tyler smiled.
"What about the, uh... the guy that- that you had feelings for? A few months back?" Tyler asked carefully, honestly not knowing if he was ready for the answer he was gonna get or not. "Oh no, no he doesn't get a chance. I blocked him", Lucas said. "What? Why? And why... why not? If- if you had feelings for him..." Tyler trailed. The words he spoke weren't exactly what he wanted to say, but he wanted to be there for Lucas just as much as he was there for him, so he was truly trying to be a good friend to him, too.
"He kissed me when I was still in a relationship with you, Ty. Twice. While he knew that we were together. I had feelings for him because the whole situation was so emotional and I was so conflicted about what was the best thing to do and he was there at a really vulnerable moment for me when you were on tour, but... When I thought about it, when I really thought about everything that happened... I just felt like he took advantage of my situation", Lucas said. "I confided in him, about things that I was struggling with; I thought he was a true, real friend, and he used that to his advantage, and he kissed me. You know I pushed him away, but I didn't kick him out, I gave him several more chances until he kissed me again, and even then I was hesitant to kick him out, until I truly thought of what he had done. He kissed me twice when I was vulnerable, while I was in a relationship with you and he knew that I had a boyfriend. He still did it. I'm not okay with giving him a chance or ever getting into a relationship with someone who's okay with kissing someone who's in a relationship. No matter how much I'd like someone; if I wanted to be with you again, I still would never kiss you, because you're with Steve. That's just not okay. He was okay with trying to make someone cheat on their lover and that is not okay in my book. Especially not at a vulnerable time like that", Lucas said.
"I love you", Tyler sighed softly. "I'm so sorry he... He did that. It must've felt awful", Tyler muttered. "Yeah, it did... Realizing what he really did was very hurtful", Lucas said. "So I told him to fuck off and I blocked him. He wasn't worth it", Lucas said. Tyler pressed a kiss on Lucas's chest. "You're one of the strongest people I know", Tyler told him. Lucas smiled as he hugged Tyler tightly. "Thank you, love", he said.
"Another reason for me to block him is that I couldn't ever imagine being in a relationship with him while you're my best friend. Your friendship is more important to me than a relationship 'cause you're everything to me, and the idea of you having to look at him and pretend to like him while in your mind you'd know he's the one who kissed me while we were still together... I wasn't gonna let that happen", Lucas said. Tyler tightened his grip. "You're the sweetest person on the planet", he muttered. "I... am kind of glad that- that you didn't put me through that", he softly said. "I'd never do that to you, love", Lucas said. "And you don't have to worry about that, 'cause he's blocked and removed from my life and he'll never get back in", Lucas told him. Tyler nodded softly.
"We need someone for you that's way better than him", Tyler said. "Just need someone nice who doesn't dream of taking over the world. Someone who would respect you and treat you much better than that guy did. And than I did", Tyler said.
"You didn't treat me badly, Ty", Lucas said. "But I didn't treat you the way I should have, either", Tyler said. He then pushed himself up. "Let's- let's go to the living room, yeah?" he asked, and Lucas noticed that it was a way for Tyler to cut the conversation short, wanting to avoid or at least just not talk about how he felt like he should've treated Lucas. It hurt him every time he thought of how he wished he'd treated Lucas better, and he knew he couldn't go back in the past and change it, so he had to live with it and it was sometimes a bitter pill to swallow. He rather just avoided that topic now, since he couldn't change it anyways.
"Yeah, let's do that", Lucas said. They went to the living room and got on the couch, Tyler sprawling out across it since his head was still pounding way too much for his liking. He put his feet in Lucas's lap, as Lucas sat back, not sitting too upright because his head was killing him too. Steve told them they could turn on the TV if they wanted to, but Tyler was much more content watching Steve prepare breakfast for them, shirtless, in the open kitchen. Snickers curled up to him, and Tyler smiled as he patted the kitty.
Soon enough Steve was done preparing breakfast and Tyler sat up to make room for Steve on the couch as well. He gave them their breakfast, and he sat down next to his boyfriend as they all ate. "This is so good, Steve", Lucas said. "Thank you", he smiled. "Glad you're enjoying it." "Is everything you cook as delicious as this?" Tyler asked. "I'd like to think so, but I don't know", Steve chuckled. "I'm excited to find out if it is", Tyler smiled.
A while after breakfast, Lucas's phone rang; it was Jordan again. He let him know that they were ready to leave in an hour, and Lucas told them he'd be ready by then. "Would you mind if I borrow these clothes a little longer? I'll bring them back next week", Lucas asked. "Not at all, that's fine", Steve told him. "How's your head?" He asked. "Better after the painkillers, and I'm honestly feeling much better after that breakfast and tea too", Lucas said. "Yeah, me too", Tyler smiled. "Can we smoke a cigarette before you leave?" Tyler asked and Lucas nodded. "Fresh air might be nice after that hangover", Steve said and they agreed. They went outside, Tyler cuddled with Lucas on the couch since he was about to leave, him and Steve smoked a cigarette, and soon enough it was time for Lucas to go. Tyler hugged him tightly, kissing his cheek as he said goodbye to his best friend, but Steve hugged him tightly too.
"Thank you for your amazing hospitality", Lucas said. "The food, the bed, the clothes, loving Ty, looking after him; all of that", he said. "Nah, no need to thank me for that. Thank you, for yesterday", Steve replied. "I was just trying to help my friend and be honest with you", Lucas said. "And it meant a lot, and helped me understand a lot, too. So, thank you, I really appreciate it", Steve told him. Lucas smiled. "Take care of Ty, yeah?" He asked. "I will, of course", Steve smiled. Lucas gave him another tight hug, and he now pressed a kiss on Steve's cheek too. "You deserve one too", he teased and Steve let out a laugh, pecking Lucas's cheek as well.
"Seeing you guys getting along so well makes me wanna cry from happiness", Tyler said. "You better not cry right as I'm about to leave 'cause then I can't fucking leave", Lucas said. "I won't, I won't", Tyler smiled, but his eyes were slightly teary. "I just love you both so, so much", he said, swallowing a little difficultly. "I love you too Ty, so darn much. Always will, you know that, hm?" Lucas asked as he went over to hug his best friend. "Yeah, I know", Tyler smiled softly as he hugged Lucas. "I love you", he whispered. Lucas pressed a last kiss on Tyler's forehead, before he let go. "I'll see you next week, love", Lucas said and Tyler nodded. "Look after him", he said to Steve. "I promise I will", Steve said. They said one last goodbye before Lucas left and Steve closed the door behind him.
"And then it was just us two", Tyler said. "Us three, you mean", Steve hummed as he patted Snickers, and Tyler smiled. "Right", he said. Steve walked over to his boyfriend and he wrapped his arms around Tyler's neck as he was sitting on the bar stool at the kitchen island, and Tyler's arms went around his waist as he closed his eyes. "Thank you for being incredible", Tyler said softly. "I knew you were amazing, but yesterday and today just... That just beat everything I thought I knew about you. You're truly a phenomenal person and I love you so much", Tyler told him. "I'm not doing anything special, Ty", Steve said. "Oh but you are, you just can't see it. But you're doing everything special, everything incredible", he said. "I just love you", Steve said. "And it's hard to love me in a normal way 'cause I came with a huge manual, and you just... you killed it", Tyler said. "Finding someone who loves me and wants to love me for me, with all of that luggage I drag with me... I thought it would be impossible, and you've proven me wrong", Tyler said.
"And now I wanna write a song about you", Tyler said. Steve let out a soft laugh. He kissed Tyler's lips. "We can write together, about us, if you'd like to try that", Steve said. Tyler smiled widely. "That would be awesome", he said. "Next week, after the show, we should try", he said. Steve smiled. "I'm looking forward to it", he said.
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The rest of the weekend and week - except for Sunday, Tyler and Steve attended rehearsals, visited the venue several times to rehearse there too, and while it was an I Prevail show, they had secretly made a plan to give Tyler a moment in the middle of the show to play something of his own. Tyler was ecstatic that they were gonna let him do that, after they convinced him that it was a great thing because of course Tyler first didn't wanna do it, as usual, because he was scared they'd throw tomatoes at him or something. After they all assured him that it was gonna be fine, Tyler started warming up to the idea, and he felt amazing about it. Three songs, he would play. Two together with I Prevail - songs that Tyler could choose, and they learned how to play on their instruments - and one song that Tyler would do on his own on his piano.
"So, since we have a B-stage, Brian and I were thinking we could go to that stage to do two of our songs", Eric said. "Then we'd play your two songs, and at the outtro of Lonely, we will head back to the main stage, and you'll stay on the B-stage for your piano song", he explained. "And you said there were... bridges?" Tyler asked. "Yeah kind of like how Lady Gaga usually does it. Have you seen her stage designs?" Eric asked. "Of course, and they are insane. I can't believe you guys have your own bridges too", Tyler chuckled. "They'll be ready tomorrow, then you can try them out", Steve smiled.
"I'm so excited for this", Tyler grinned.
"Are you really not gonna tell us which song you're gonna do on piano alone?" Steve asked later. Tyler shook his head no. "I haven't decided myself either yet", he said. Steve nodded. "If you're not gonna tell me, you better not tell any of the other guys either", he chuckled. "I won't", Tyler gently laughed. "I don't know when I've decided on the song, either. Maybe I won't decide until I'm on stage", he said. "You're gonna kill me", Steve said. "I'm gonna die not knowing what you're gonna play", he chuckled. "If I know, I'll let you know. Just you, though", Tyler smiled. "If you don't want to, you don't have to", Steve said. "I'm okay with telling you if I decide on it before the show", Tyler smiled.
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"You better be super fucking careful. Are you sure that Colin will be waiting at the airport? Does he know which gate?" Jonathon asked. "Yeah I am! And I'll be fine baby! I'm gonna be super duper careful", Josh told his lover as he kissed his lips. "Good, that's- that's good", he said. Josh smiled and he hugged Jonathon tightly. "Say hi to Colin for me, hm?" he said. "I will", Josh smiled. "I can't believe I'm gonna see Tyler in two days again, holy shit", Josh mumbled. "I'm so dang jealous", Jonathon whined softly. "But so so happy that you get to be there. Gonna be so special, Josh", he said. "I think so too", Josh smiled at his lover. Josh then said goodbye to his parents, and kissed Jonathon deeply one more time, before he grabbed his suitcase and he walked through the doors, waving at them as he sent them kisses until he was out of sight.
He and Jonathon had left school early, so Josh could get to his flight and Jonathon wanted to be at the airport to say goodbye before he went on the trip. Since it was the first trip Josh was going on on his own - and he hadn't been on many trips out of state at all - he wanted to be there to see Josh leave.
Josh: My boyfriend is scared you won't be at the airport when I land lol
Colin: Tell the sweetheart that he has nothing to worry about 'cause once you get on the plane, I'm getting in my car to go there
Josh: You'll be like four hours early dude, the flight is 4 hrs and 20 min
Colin: I don't care! I like airports anyways, I'll just go see all the shops and get some food and whatnot. Promised your boy that I'd be there when you'd land and I'm planning to keep my promise, so I'm gonna be there way in advance
Josh: You're a great friend
Colin: I try (((: Just wanna be there for u!
Josh: I appreciate you soooooo much
Colin: Love ya dude
Josh: Love you c:
Josh took a screenshot of their texts, before he sent it to Jonathon, telling him he didn't have to worry. He quickly got a relieved text back, and Josh smiled. Let's do this, Detroit.
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"Duuuuude!" Colin exclaimed as he saw Josh, who let out a laugh. "Hiii!" He said excitedly as he skipped over to Colin, who pulled him into a hug. "You made it!!" Colin said excitedly. "Very glad the plane didn't crash", Josh laughed as they pulled back. "Did you let Jonathon know you've landed?" Colin asked. "Yep, he and my parents know", Josh smiled. "I gotta let them know I found you, though", he said. "Let's send them a selfie!" Colin said excitedly and Josh handed him his phone. Colin took a selfie of them with Josh's phone, then Josh sent it to his family and lover, who were all happy that he had found his friend.
"I can't believe you've been here for four hours", Josh chuckled. "It was fun!" Colin laughed. "Let me grab that for you", he said, grabbing Josh's suitcase and they started walking. "Ohh man, I'm really back in Detroit already, huh?" Josh said and Colin nodded excitedly. "I'm excited to show you my dorm! There'll be some guys in the common room but we'll just quickly say hi and go to my dorm right away. My roomie is crashing with friends so we got the place to ourselves", Colin said. "And your school is okay with you bringing a stranger into the dorm rooms to stay the whole weekend?" Josh asked. "Honestly, as long as it's not a girl, they really don't care", Colin chuckled. "One of those dumb asses once tried to appeal that because 'it wasn't fair that the gay guys could spend the nights with their boyfriends' but the idiot didn't think of the fact that gay guys can't get fucking pregnant", Colin said. "Obviously not", Josh laughed. "His appeal didn't last long!" Colin chuckled.
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Josh and Colin were on Colin's bed, watching a movie they'd both seen a million times before: Edward Scissorhands. Both of them loved the movie, and were definitely up for watching something Halloween-y since it was halfway through October by now. Then, Josh's phone vibrated, laying next to his takeaway Thai box that they'd finished an hour ago. Josh picked his phone up and clicked on the Twitter notification mindlessly, when it opened his DMs. He read it, without checking twice.
Tyler: hey joshua. how are you? when are you getting to detroit?
Josh sat up with wide eyes. "Tyler sent me a message", he said. Colin gasped, and it looked as if his eyes almost popped out of their sockets. "You're kidding. What did he say?!" He asked curiously. "He asks how I'm doing and when I'm getting to Detroit", Josh said. "Well you're already here", Colin chuckled. "Don't leave him hanging! Answer!" He urged him. Josh opened his Twitter DMs, a huge grin appearing on his face as he saw that it was truly Tyler reaching out to him.
Josh: Hi Tyler! I'm doing good, how are you? I actually landed in Detroit about four hours ago! So I'm already here! :)
Tyler: oh dang, you got here early for the show. (;
Tyler: I assumed you'd have class on Friday?
Josh: Yeah... but I could only get flights to Detroit today or Saturday morning and I didn't wanna risk that in case any flights were delayed and I'd miss the show, so I have to call in sick tomorrow haha. My parents weren't sure at first but they said they didn't mind if it was just one day!
Tyler: haha. love that your parents were cool with it. are you doing anything rn?
"He asks if I'm doing anything right now", Josh said. "What the heeeell dude, I can't believe you're literally talking to Tyler right now and he's asking you what you're doing?! My man you are living the dream and you are so dang lucky", Colin said. Josh let out a laugh. "Shush it", he blushed.
Josh: I'm just watching a movie with my friend, the one I'm taking to the show with me! :)
Tyler: oh shoot, alright, i won't bother you any more then. enjoy the movie. night, joshua.
"Oh nooo he thinks he's bothering me", Josh muttered. "What did he s-" Colin started. "Okay just read along already!" Josh chuckled. "I didn't wanna just do that without permission!" Colin said. "And I love you for that but please just read along", Josh laughed.
"Okay you gotta correct this. C'mon, set it straight. He's not bothering you", Colin said. "Let him know that, but be casual."
Josh: Oh you're not bothering me! Movie isn't that great anyways. What's up?
"Was that too simple?" Josh asked. "No, I think it's perfect. Let's hope he'll take it the way I'm taking it when I read it", Colin said. "I just lied, though. This movie is great", Josh said. "But we've both seen it a million times." "Right. Besides, he doesn't need to know what movie we're watching anyways", Colin chuckled.
Tyler: just thought i could give you your tickets already instead of having you pick them up at the box office of the venue on saturday. got them right here, but I don't wanna ruin any plans you have with your friend.
"Dudeee he's totally asking you to hang out! Okay let's do this", Colin said excitedly. "He's absolutely not asking me that", Josh said. "Yeah he is! It's so obvious!" Colin told him. "Tell him I have some last minute studying to do for tomorrow but I'm watching the movie with you 'cause I didn't wanna leave you alone with my buddies from class since you don't know them", Colin said.
"Wait you have studying to do for tomorrow? Why didn't you say that?" Josh asked. "I don't have any studying to do! Just tell him that so he knows he's not ruining plans", Colin said. "Wait but then I'd be lying to him. Again!" Josh said. "No you wouldn't! If you tell him 'my friend told me' blablabla, then you're not lying because I literally told you that. Now whether I'm lying, that's a different story. But you wouldn't be doing so", Colin shrugged. "...that's a gray area", Josh said. "Very light gray. C'mon! You're absolutely gonna regret it if you don't do it, Josh", Colin said. Josh bit his lip. "But I just got here and now I'd be abandoning you already", Josh said. "Absolutely no abandoning happening here if you get to hang out with Tyler Joseph. C'mon now Josh, I know we don't live close to each other but we got many more opportunities to meet while you have no idea when you get to hang out with Tyler fucking Joseph again. If you don't grab this chance, I swear, I will blame you for the rest of your life", Colin said. "Lie about the movie a little more so he doesn't feel bad", he added. Josh let out a soft laugh as he gently shook his head.
Josh: You wouldn't ruin any plans, you'd actually be helping out my friend! He said he has some last minute studying to do for tomorrow, but now he's watching this (kinda lame) movie with me to keep me company, so I wouldn't have to hang with his dorm mates because I don't know them yet. He's kind of skipping studying for me
Tyler: ah really? great. you wanna meet me at for the love of sugar? it's a great dessert place, or so I've heard from friends. i assume you still like desserts?
Josh: Of course I do! My sweet tooth is definitely still present :) I would really like to come! :)
Tyler: awesome. I can be there in about 40 minutes. see you there, joshua. tell your friend that I said hi.
Joshua: I will! See you soon, Tyler. :)
"You got a date with Tyyyyleeeeer! Hoooly shit!" Colin exclaimed. "It's not a date!" Josh blushed. "I have a boyfriend, remember?" Josh said. "You wouldn't switch to Ty if you got the chance?" Colin asked with a grin. "Wh- what kinda question is that?" Josh blushed. "I- no, of- of course not!" He said. "Hey I'm just messing with you!" Colin laughed. "Yeah, yeah I know you are", Josh blushed, smiling softly. "I... I need to get ready right now, though", he said. "I need to look presentable. Also why the fuck did I agree to this?! What the hell am I doing?! I- I never planned anything with Ty beforehand! We just- we just ran into each other! How the hell am I- am I supposed to do this and not die of anxiousness on the way there?!" Josh panicked.
//
"Hey babe", Tyler said as he got up from the seat near the corner of Dylan's living room, walked towards the center where his friends were; the full band, including Brian, his boyfriend Steve and his own guys; Jordan, Michael, Mark, Shap and Shane in particular.
"Yeah Ty? Sup, love?" Steve smiled at him. "Imma head out for a bit", he said. "Oh where d'you wanna go? You gotta give me a second to get ready", Steve said as he was about to get up. "No, no just- just me", Tyler said. "Oh, oh sorry I misunderstood that", Steve said. "It's okay", Tyler smiled softly. He pressed a kiss on Steve's cheek. "You just stay here and I'll come back here when I'm done", he said.
"Ty what are you gonna do?" Steve asked with a soft frown. He was a little bit worried of why Tyler was suddenly going out on his own at night without saying anything earlier. "I'm just gonna go see Josh and give him the tickets", Tyler said. "Wait... Josh? The fan of yours that won the tickets?" Steve asked. "The one that I gave the tickets. But yeah, that's him. I won't be gone for long, I'm just gonna go see him for a little bit", Tyler said.
"On your own?" Steve asked. "Yeah", Tyler nodded. "...is that a good idea?" Gabe then asked, since they had all heard their conversation. "I mean, what if you can't trust him?" Gabe added. "I trust him", Tyler simply replied. "Yeah but you never know what a fan is capable of right? Even the nicest ones can be a risk to any celebrity-" Gabe said.
"I trust him", Tyler interrupted him. "I'm gonna go meet him. He's not gonna fucking kill me", Tyler said. "You don't know that!" Gabe said. "...are you sure you're going on your own?" Steve asked softly. Tyler frowned. "You don't trust me or something?!" He asked, defensively. "What? No, no Tyler I do, I trust you", Steve quickly said. That wasn't what he meant, at all.
"If you don't trust me, just say it! Be fucking honest!" Tyler said angrily, and Steve was slightly shocked - that was an understatement. His heart was pounding as Tyler almost yelled at him, and it felt so out of the blue too, as it went from 0 to 100 real quick. Steve was just asking a few questions about the situation, but Tyler suddenly got angry at him. "If you think you can't trust me then you gotta fucking tell me 'cause I'm not fucking doing this shit if you don't! I'm not gonna put up with that!" Tyler almost yelled.
"Tyler", Michael spoke up as he got up and he rested his hand on Tyler's shoulder. "You don't wanna talk to him like that", he said softly. "Like what?! I can't even fucking defend myself?! If he doesn't trust me he gotta be fucking honest and just fucking tell me!" Tyler said.
"Tyler, he does trust you! He never implied he doesn't! He literally just asked if you're sure you wanna go on your own!" Jordan spoke up sternly. "He's just concerned. That's all. He and Gabe and the others don't know Josh like we do. They've never met him, have never seen him or talked to him or spent any time with him. They don't know Josh. They're just worried, which is a great fucking thing 'cause it shows that these guys care about you. It's not a lack of trust. They care", Jordan told him. He then turned to Steve.
"I trust Josh. Michael and Mark do too", Jordan told him. "We would not let him go on his own if we didn't trust this guy with our whole hears, but we truly do", Jordan said. "There's no need to worry, yeah? Tyler knows what he's doing and we know too. Josh is trustworthy", Jordan said.
Steve nodded softly. "Yeah, okay", he said, voice soft too. Jordan turned back to Tyler and he stepped closer, softly speaking into his ear. "I know you always tell us we don't know what's best for you, but this time, I really fucking do, Tyler", Jordan started. "Do not get angry at Steve about Josh. You don't even wanna be Josh's friend, Tyler. Why the fuck would you get angry at Steve and break his heart over someone you don't even wanna be friends with?! Get your fucking shit together and prioritize the people you actually spend time with in your day to day life because you love them. You know we think Josh is a great guy and we all think he could be a great friend of yours but you choose to only look at him as a fan and nothing more, so you need to put everyone in your regular life first. Especially Steve. He's your boyfriend, for fuck's sake. Get your shit together. Steve wasn't even the one asking if Josh was trustworthy. Gabe did. But instead, you got angry at Steve for something he didn't even say or imply! Get your priorities straight. Don't ruin what you have with Steve over someone you don't even consider or want to be a friend. I know you're better than that, Tyler. Fix this, before you go to meet Josh. You made him feel smaller than ever. I've never seen Steve as small as you've made him to be right now. You broke his dang heart", Jordan told him, before he walked away.
Tyler bit his lip, swallowing difficultly. He always hated to admit it, but he knew Jordan was right. Why was he doing this? It felt like he was self-destructing in a way again. He felt awful about what he just did. He looked over at Steve and noticed how Steve averted his gaze from him, and it broke his heart. Steve truly looked small, which was tough for a guy like him; tall, muscled; he never looked small. But in this moment, he did, and he didn't even dare look Tyler in the eyes. Fuck, why did he lose his temper so badly? He was hurting Steve, he was truly making him feel small, and Jordan and Michael were right; he did not want to do that. Not at all.
Tyler stepped closer to Steve and he carefully grabbed his hand. Steve then finally looked up at him, and Tyler gently tugged at his arm, signaling for him to get up. He saw the hurt in Steve's eyes, and it killed him. As Steve got up, he lead him out of the room for some privacy as he still held his lover's hand tightly.
As they entered the kitchen, Tyler closed the door behind them. He turned to Steve. "I'm sorry", Tyler said, voice cracking. "I- I didn't mean to get so upset", Tyler sighed. "I... I know I gotta work on it and I'm really trying but sometimes I... fail", Tyler softly said.
"I gotta... try to not lose control", he muttered. "It's- it's not that I... that I can't handle you being angry", Steve said. "But... the only few times that you truly got angry, it was at someone else while you were defending me, and supporting me. But you... you never got angry at me, for..." Steve trailed. "For no reason whatsoever", Tyler nodded. "There was truly no reason for me to get so angry and I... I don't know why it happened baby, I don't fucking know. I just... felt attacked, but I wasn't, you didn't say anything mean or anything wrong. My head just somehow... pretended or made it feel like you did", Tyler sighed as he ran a hand down his face. "I- I don't mean to say that you're never allowed to get angry at me Ty, 'cause if- If I deserve it then you should-", Steve started. "But you didn't deserve it", Tyler gently interrupted him. "At all. You didn't even ask if he was truly trustworthy, Gabe asked that", Tyler said.
"I didn't mean to get angry at you, Steve. I love you. When I saw how it hurt you, that shattered my god damn heart. It fucking broke into a million pieces 'cause I just hurt you and fuck, that's the worst feeling in the world", Tyler sighed.
"I'm sorry. I don't know if you accept my apology but I'm sorry, Steve. You're everything to me, you're my baby, and I love you so much. I really, truly do", Tyler apologized.
"I'm okay", Steve said. "I... I do accept, of course I do baby", he said. "I love you, Ty. I just... We, Gabe and I, we don't know this guy, and he was asking 'cause there's been horror fan stories out there that I would never want to happen to any of us, or wish upon anyone in general. But... I trust you with everything that I have Tyler and if you trust him, then so do I", Steve said. "I didn't mean to ever imply that I didn't, I was just... I just care about you Ty, I care about you really fucking much and I just need you to be safe and sure that you wanna go on your own. I didn't mean anything by that, I really didn't. If I ask you you're sure that you wanna go on your own, and your answer is yes, then that's all I need to know baby. That's all", Steve said.
Tyler sighed. "I love you so much", he said. "Thank you so much baby, for forgiving me. Fuck, I'm so glad you forgive me", Tyler said. "I love you so much. I'm so sorry for making you feel small. Please tell me I can kiss you", Tyler said. "Always baby, no matter what was said or done between us. Always", Steve told him. Tyler connected their lips.
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👀👀👀 ohhh man oh man imagine what Josh would feel like if he knew they were arguing about him he'd feel so guilty 🥺
So what did you thiiink? Ty is reaching out to joshieeee don't we all love that :') I can't wait for you to read next chapter omg. And Steve taking care of Ty and Lukey as they're super hangover is just so dang cute to me haha, I love that idea.
Ty's doing the self destruct thingy agaaaain but he's trying not toooo and he hates when he does iiiiit but he can't stop iiiit poor babie.
I'd love to hear what you thought of this chapter ♥️ I'll see you at the next one! I think you'll love it! Reunion chapter 👀👀
Love you ♥️♥️♥️