Dating one of my brothers friend // jonah marais

a smile on my face

I woke up to the sound of loud talking. I sat up in bed checking my phone to see it was 10, i got up and got ready for the day. I went out to the living room to see the boys and that girl again, and of course the girl was there and she was all over Jonah. I walked passed them and went to the kitchen, Eva then came in.

Well you're happy to see your best friend after a week ~ Eva

I'm sorry....... I'm just not feeling myself right now ~ Brianna

Why....what's up ~ Eva

I just thought I'd stop with my shit and at least try and fix things ~ Brianna

You still can..... Jonah still cares about you ~ Eva

She's all over him...... He's gone now ~ Brianna

Jessica??? She's been here all week and i haven't got that vibe ~ Eva

She's been here all week?... Something must have happen between them ~ Brianna

Stop accusing, she's a nice girl and far as i know they go way back ~ Eva

They go way back? That makes it even worst, I've known Jonah for a year and some months and I've messed everything up ~ Brianna

Stop blaming your self, Jonah did things too ~ Eva

Yeah, name what Jonah ever messed up ~ Brianna

He was the one that unfollowed you and that's what made things worst ~ Eva

Only because he saw that picture of me and Dylan ~ Brianna

But the picture wasn't what he thought it was ~ Eva

Still everything's my fault ~ Brianna

You still have a chance with Jonah, stop waiting longer and longer to fix things ~ Eva

I wish it was that easy eva but it's not ~ Brianna

When geo and i broke up, one of sai- ~ Eva

I freaking knew it!! ~ Brianna

Knew what? ~ Eva

You and geo ~ Brianna

Oh ........ Anyways, i said specific words to geo and I'm pretty sure you nor Jonah said those words. Did neither of you really said it was actually over ~ Eva

Just as i was about to say something i heard someone clear their throat. Both  of us turned around to see Jonah.

How long have you been there ~ Eva

Long enough ~ Jonah

I grabbed a water from the fridge and was about to leave but i felt someone grab my hand. I turned around to see Jonah holding my hand. Eva then walked out the room smiling.

Always good to see you without makeup ~ Jonah

I just woke i up, i look like a dead moose ~ Brianna

"No you don't" he said laughing

You look beautiful ~ Jonah

I couldn't help but smile, it feels good to be talking to him again or even to be looking him in the eye's. For a second i forgot there was something between us.

Look I'm sorry and i kn- ~ Jonah

No don't apologize, this is all me and i- ~ Brianna

I was cut off by Jonah before i could apologize and let everything off my chest.

I swear to God Jonah if you don't shut up and let me finish I'm gonna...... ~ Brianna

Gonna what? Kiss me ~ Jonah

What?....... No ~ Brianna

I mean..... It's been a while ~ Jonah

I'm pretty sure you've been busy with that cutie, joslyn ~ Brianna

Jessie?.... I've known her all my life and nothing had ever happened between us ~ Jonah

Doesn't seem like it ~ Brianna

Why are you this stubborn ~ Jonah

I don't know..... When someone's broken they change ~ Brianna

Was it me, what did i do ~ Jonah

It wasn't you. But i can't change everything, i try but i can't ~ Brianna

Let us go through this together ~ Jonah

How's that going for us ~ Brianna

It's better than to be fighting and hurting each other ~ Jonah

Aren't we hurting each other either way ~ Brianna

Five minutes ago you looked like you wanted to fix things ~ Jonah

I do, i just feel like I'm never gonna be able to pay back. I'm having a hard forgiving myself how can you forgive me ~ Brianna

You haven't done much for me to have a hard time to forgive you. Yes you messed up but don't we all. ~ Jonah

That's it, i have done things you shouldn't forgive me for ~ Brianna

What are you talking about ~ Jonah

"On my birthday i....." I told him everything, i don't know what happened but i had to tell him. I told him what happened with both of us.

Since it's story time let me tell you a story ~ Jonah

"That girl in there" he said pointing in the living room

I've hurt her. Both mentally and physically, yes i did. I had serious anger issues and i dealt with it best by putting my hands on something. I've been neighbours with Jessie all my life, when i was 16 i was going through family issues. One day we were in my room and she said something that made me hit her. Biggest mistake on my life ~ Jonah

And she forgive you ~ Brianna

The next day we were both in my tree house. I remember that long and tearful conversation we had, i still hate myself for ever putting my hands on her ~ Jonah

Now what ~ Brianna

We apologize to each other, we forgive each other, then we hug ~ Jonah

That'll be great but can we move slow, take our time with everything ~ Brianna

Anything that'll make me have you again ~ Jonah

And for a long while inna long time i was in his arms again. It felt like it had been forever, and again a smile was on my face.