I've Slept with A Gay

23

Chapter 23

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"A-ano ba?!" Binitiwan niya lang ako nang makarating kami sa loob ng isang kwarto sa second floor dito pa rin sa bar.

Binalanse ko muna ang sarili ko dahil talagang nahilo ako.

"What do you think you're doing?" he said through gritted teeth.

"I'm having fun," nakasimangot kong sagot at naupo sa malaking kama. Diniinan ko pa talaga ang huling salita.

Teka? Paano nya ba nalamang nandito ako?

"You're putting yourself in danger! You know that right?" Huminga siya nang malalim.

I just made a face at pinasadahan ko siya ng tingin.

Mukhang galing sya sa kung saang formal event. He's still wearing a suit and tie and slacks. Gulo-gulo nga lang ang buhok niya, naka-loose na rin ang tie niya. Hindi ko alam pero mas gwapo ata siya sa magulong ayos ngayon.

Ha! Nagawa ko pa siyang i-check out sa kabila ng inis ko sa kanya? Malala na ako.

"Sana man lang tinawagan mo ako para nabantayan kita!"

"Binabantayan naman ako nila Aika!"

"But where are your friends? They are almost drunk! Kung hindi pa kita nakita ay malamang na mauwi ka no'ng lalaking 'yon at tuluyang mabuntis!"

Hindi ko alam pero agad na kumulo ang dugo ko. I stood up eagerly and went to where he's standing just to slap him. Hard.

Pumakanan ang mukha niya. Bahagyang lumaki ang mga mata at hindi makapaniwalang tumingin sa akin. Ngunit agad din naman iyong nagbago.

His eyes turned cold. His expression is more serious now. I stayed still, nawala ang kalasingan ko bigla.

"How dare you!" Parang sinabi na rin niyang pakawala akong babae. Tingin niya ba ay hahayaan ko ang sarili kong sumama sa lalaking iyon? Na kakakilala ko lang? I'm more than that! If he doesn't know. "At wala namang nangyayaring masama bago ka dumating! We were just dancing! And for your information, my friends are guarding me! They have their eyes on me before you came! And they might be looking for me now! It's your fault! Why do you need to intervene? What do you care? You act like I'm your property!" Nanlilisik ang mga mata ko habang patuloy sa pagsasalita. He's just looking at me with those understanding yet, still cold eyes.

"They don't need to look for you if they have their eyes on you," he calmly said but still with cold expression. "I already sent them home by the way. And about what I've said earlier." He's cold gaze lessened- he looks like he's sorry. Nangunot ang noo ko. "My concern sounded wrong and I crossed a line. I didn't mean to offend you and own you like some kind of a property, Angeles, you're more than that. You're more than everything else."

Naramdaman ko ang isang mainit na kung anong pakiramdam na gumuhit sa loob ko. I felt my lips quiver as I anticipated his touch on my face.

Hinaplos niya ang mukha ko at naramdaman ko ang panlalamig ng mga daliri niya. My lips were frozen. "I immediately came here when I learned that you were drunkenly dancing with another guy." Inilipat niya ang kanyang paningin sa iba at napalunok. He even bit his lower lip.

"Why is that?" I don't know why I asked. Siguro'y gusto ko lamang marinig ang isasagot niya.

He seemed surprised by my question. But he recovered easily.

"I got mad, I got worried easily, I-I got jealous too.. but that's because of what I feel for you. And I'm afraid, that someday I'll lose the chance to be with you forever."