New Recruit

This Is Going To Kill Me (Chapter 64)

*Wanda POV*

"–I trust you with my heart and my life... but clearly between you and Yelena I can see that neither of you trust me. Hell, sometimes it feels like nobody on this team trusts me like I trust all of you. You all seriously just see me as an idiot, your comedic relief, and personal pain reliever." Y/n's voice comes out defeated and broken. Wanda watches as they leave her room, not giving her a chance to say anything else.

Why did I say that? Why did I do any of that? None of that was fair to y/n. I didn't even give them a real chance to explain what was going on or talk to me... I just freaked out.

It's just after seeing them walk out of the elevator with their new bartender turned PhD scientist friend, I couldn't focus on anything else besides feeling jealous. Not only did I wake up to find them nowhere in the tower, but I had to learn from Yelena that they were with some girl they met at a bar. And on top of that, I noticed Yelena's neck. The bruises were clearly fading and she didn't think anyone would notice the faint marks, but I did and I know how she got them. I could tell based on how she was acting towards me today.

I mean I just feel like y/n shouldn't have taken that girl's number regardless. I don't really think it was appropriate based on how they met and what Yelena told me about her flirting with them.

But still, I didn't give them the chance to even explain anything to me before I acted childish.

I saw how nervous they were when they first knocked on the door. They wouldn't even come in until I told them it was ok.

I heard their thoughts.. I wasn't trying but when they are really anxious it's like their thoughts are begging to be heard so they can be quieted. Instead of listening and trying to reassure them, I did what they were afraid of. I maybe didn't yell at them in the way they were nervous about, but I did talk down to them.

They aren't the one that wasn't thinking, I was. I just hurt the person that means the most to me.

All I wanted today was to lay in bed with y/n. Tell them about the mission and how much I missed them. Listen to them talk about what they have been up to and just spend time together, just us.

The entire time I was out on the mission with Natasha I couldn't stop talking about them or bringing them up. Nat got so tired of me daydreaming about them she sarcastically asked me when I planned to propose. When she said that I accidentally let it slip that I was in love with y/n.

I didn't even realize I said it out loud until I saw Natasha's face. She was speechless but not surprised.

How did I let this happen?

What the fuck did I just do?

Wanda is pulled out of thought as she hears Yelena repeatedly call after y/n. She doesn't hear y/n respond, rather she only hears their door click shut and bolt behind them. Before she got the chance to leave her room, Yelena was already there at her door looking expectantly at Wanda.

"What the hell is wrong with them, Wanda? What did you do?" Yelena's words come out thick, clearly blaming Wanda for y/n's upset state.

Scoffing at Yelena's accusation, Wanda pushes by her as they both walk towards y/n's room. "You and I both know it's not just my fault, Yelena. I don't know what you two were up to exactly while I was gone but they are upset with not just me right now." Wanda's eyes fall to Yelena's neck, causing her to shift her body to try to stop the obvious staring.

"We weren't up to anything. You can turn your jealousy down a few notches. You're starting to look like a cartoon with the smoke practically fuming out of your ears."