Just Breathe (Marina)

Chapter 54

Vivianas POV

School started a few days ago and I'm ready to kill myself

Kidding

Kinda

Anyway-

I haven't seen Emma in a week, I know it's only a week but she is my only friend

The only person outside of my parents I regularly talk to, the only one who actually has some insight on what I have been feeling

She has just been too busy with starting school to come over, which I understand. Emma has a life outside of me and I never wanted to stop her from living it

Moms are both home today which is cool,

Mama has also been getting on me about telling mom about Emma and I-

I don't even see why it matters, it's been 3
Weeks already since mama made us sit through that very embarrassing talk so too late now

She even bought these weird things were supposed to use, emma and I looked at them and just left them in my bathroom,

I really needed to take a shower since I didn't yesterday but also I needed to shave-

Since being back moms bought me this stupid cream stuff and let me tell you- it's terrible

So I figured while they are both home now is my chance to hopefully get my razor back

I never used that to cut anyway

I walked out to the living room, mom was in the kitchen making some smoothie and mama was reading through some files

"I got a question" I say and they both look to me

"Can I have my razor back now?" I ask, I know, what a conversation

"Bambina" mama sighs

"I'm not going to try and hurt myself, I swear I just really need to shave" I say

"I don't know viv" mom says

"Seriously? I never even used that to cut with anyway. Why would I start now?" I ask them

"What's wrong with the stuff I had given you?" Mom ask

"It literally doesn't work" I say

"Come on- I'll even give it back afterwards. This is ridiculous I'm 16! I shouldn't have to ask to shave my legs" I complain and they don't respond

"Look- I know you don't trust me, and yea that sucks. But if you're just going to not trust me the rest of my life then we'll never get past anything" I tell them

"Fine, I'll go to the store later but I want it back when you're done" mom says and both mama and I look at her shocked

I didn't think she would be the one to give in

"Thank you!" I exclaim and wrap my around around my mom giving her a hug and she chuckles

I went back to my room and mama came in a few moments later and just sat on the bed

"We do trust you bambina... but, we are still worried" mama says and I nod

"I'm sorry you felt like we didn't trust you" she says and I chuckle

"Mama you locked the kitchen knifes up like I'm a toddler" I say

"I know I messed up, I took it too far. But I don't want to do that again," I admit and she puts an arm over my shoulder

"I know. We know." She says and I sigh

"Another thing.... You need to tell mom about Emma" she says