Just Breathe (Marina)

Chapter 25

Vivianas POV

My face hurts-

Like- that is today's story.

But also, there is Emma, I'm pretty sure it's almost dinner time which means she has sat by me all day while I slept, I kind of felt bad

"You're awake" she smiles and I nod

"Yea. Listen em.... I'm really sorry about today. And I understand if you want to leave. You didn't need to stay. Especially after what I did" I tell her

"Did you mean it?" She ask and I look at her confused

"Do you really love me? More than a friend?" She ask me and I blush but nod and she smiles

"Good. Because I. Love. You" she says and I smile and lay back down on my pillow to face away from her since I know my face was really red and she just started laughing and mama came in

"How you feeling bella?" Mama ask

"I'm okay, it hurts but it's fine" I say

"We'll I made dinner, mom and I thought it would be better to stick to soup tonight" she says and I nod

"Can we eat in here?" I ask her and she nods and Emma and I follow her out to get dinner

"Looking good sunshine" mom teases

"Thanks" I reply sarcastically and she laughs

Emma and I got dinner then went back to my room and ate

"So What happens now?" I ask her and she shrugs

"What do you want to happen?" She ask and I shrug as well

I don't know how to talk about what I want

"Welll.... Viviana, do you want to be my girlfriend?" She smiles and I blush

"Yea" I say softly and she smiles

While I am so excited that this is happening, I have to wonder why. Why me?

Emma is beautiful, she's funny and kind and just amazing! She goes to school with other girls her age and will probably see them more

Why would she want to wast her time on me? I'm just. Me

"Hey... you feeling okay?" Emma ask and I nod

"Yea, I think I'll have mama get me my medicine though" I say and she gets out of bed

"I said I'll do it'" I say and she smirks

"Well.... Maybe I want to" she says and walks out of the room and back in a minute later with a glass of water and my pill

"Your mom said you can't have it until you eat though" she says and I nod ask out the pill on the end table and we finish eating

"Emma I can take my own dishes out" I tell her as she takes my bowl from me

"Just be quiet and let me be nice to you" she says and I sigh and nod and she walks out and I take my pills and she comes back with another ice pack

"Your moms orders" she says and I nod and get out of bed

"I need a shower first" I say and she nods

Once again I wasn't washing my hair so I knew it wouldn't take me long

I got dressed in my bathroom and could see all of my cuts, well actually... they aren't even cuts anymore

Just scars... but they are fading

And I'm so happy they are but at the same time... they're fading

And that scares me, and I don't know why
I want them to disappear but at the same - I don't