Just Breathe (Marina)

Chapter 50

Vivianas POV

It's 4 am now and I can't sleep, I just keep tossing and turning

I'm so tired but of course I can't just fall asleep

I got out of bed quietly so I wouldn't wake my moms and went into my bathroom

I sat down on the toilet and opened the drawer where my scalpel used to be hidden

I know it's gone, but still

It's not like I want to do it but, being back in this house after what happened just makes me think of it

And I can't sleep so it's not helping

I sighed and used the bathroom before washing my hands and going back to my room

"You can't do that to people!" I exclaim after seeing my mom sitting on my bed after giving me a heart attack

"I'm sorry" she chuckles and I sit down next to her

"Can't sleep?" Mom ask and I shrug

"Here I'll lay down with you" she says and moves to get under the covers

"You don't have to" I tell her and she nods

"I want to, now come on" she smiles and I lay next to her and lay my head on her shoulder and close my eyes

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The next morning I woke up and mom was awake but laying next to me

"Hey sunshine" she smiles

"Buongiorno" I mumble

"You're just like your mama" she says and I smile and sit up

"Speaking of mama, I'm pretty sure I smell her famous French toast.. I'll race you out there" mom says and gets up quick

"Hey! That's not fair" I say and get out of bed, careful because my wrist was hurting a lot from the way I had slept

When I got out there I stuck my tongue out at mom and sat down next to her for breakfast

I took my phone out and seen Emma messages me again and I sighed

"Can Emma come over?" I ask and they both freeze and look to me

"I thought you didn't want to see her?" Mom ask and I shrug

"I don't know" I sigh

"Think first bambina, make sure you want to then if you do then yes she can come over" mama says and I nod and decide to wait till later to text Emma

After breakfast I went and got dressed before coming out and sitting with my moms

"Alright.. we have to get going" mama says an hour later

"Why?" I Ask her

"Therapy. Everyday remember?" She says and I nod and pull my shoes on

After that the three of us headed back to the hospital

"You didn't have to come too" I tell mom

"Nonsense, it's your first therapy appointment I'm coming" mom says and I nod, knowing there was no way to change her mind

Once we got to the hospital I went with Dr.Turner while my moms stayed in the waiting room

"So how was your first night home?" She ask me

"It was better then being here but I still didn't get much sleep" I say and she nods

"I can talk to your parents about getting you something to help with that" she says and I nod