Vivianas POV
"Viviana Kate! Come on, I'm going to be late!" Mom yells coming into my room and I just cover my head up with the blanket
Today is just not my day, well let's be honest, no day is
Today's Monday and Emma was supposed to come over Friday night but of course she said her dad told her she couldn't come
Which meant I was in a terrible mood all weekend
Plus yesterday my moms dragged me out and made me do a bunch of stupid things
"Just go!" I tell her, I'm not in the mood right now
Honestly I wish I wouldn't have woken up this morning at all
"I'm serious. Let's. Go" mom says firmly and pulls my blanket completely off of me
"Mom!" I yell
"Now Viviana" she says and I roll my eyes and roll over so I was facing the ceiling
"What?" Mom ask and she moved across the room
"Viviana" she says, much more softly now
"What now?" I ask and sit up to see what she was looking at
"You told me you haven't done this anymore" she says and I pull my shorts down,
She had just seen all of my fresh cuts, the ones I have been hiding from her
I know it looked bad, I know it does
I cut just last night, a bunch of times, not deep, I don't do that, but it's quite a few
I even cut two small lines on my wrist.... But she won't know that. No one will, my watch covers them anyway
"Why didn't you come talk to me?" She ask and she sits on my bed
"I- " I start and sigh
"I don't know, I feel weird talking about it" I tell her honestly
"Sometimes I need something I can do to make me feel better..... it's not like it's going to kill me" I tell her, unfortunately
"Viviana" she sighs
"Baby, mama and I just want to help" she says and I nod
"I know" I tell her and she stands up
"Where is it?" She ask
"Where is what?" I ask her and stand up
"Whatever you are using" she says
"Mom" I plead
"Baby I can not just let you keep hurting yourself" she says and I walk into my bathroom and hand her my razor that I have been to lazy to use lately anyway
"I know this is not what you're using" she says and I frown
"Mom please" I say and she shakes her head
"I'm not doing this to be mean, you either give it to me, or I find it myself" she says and I know she wasn't lying
But if I give it to her..... what am I going to use?
I sighed and opened my drawer and handed her the scalpel. How hard can it be to get another one?
As soon as I placed it in her hand she sighed and put it on the counter and wrapped her arms around me
Instantly bringing tears to my eyes
"I'm sorry mommy" I tell her while I cry into her chest
I hate that I disappointed her once again
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Just Breathe (Marina)
FanfictionMaya and carinas daughter Viviana, suffers from both depression and anxiety, her parents just don't know to what extent until eventually It all becomes too much and Viviana reaches out to her moms This story will be mostly told from Vivianas perspe...
