complicated; jonah marais {COMPLETED}

23. prom; part 2

Jonah's POV

"Where are you going with this?" I ask, she sighs "no where" and left me alone on the dance floor confused. I stand there for a minute and watch as Shawn sits besides her, they talk for a few minutes before Shawn grabs her hand, they walk up to Chelsea and Shawn whispers in her ear and she smiles and nods. Shawn holds Lucy close to his chest, and Lucy closed her eyes laying her head on his shoulder as they swayed side to side. I sit back down at the table still watching the two dance. Shawn is talking to her but I can't see her face since she facing away from me. Chelsea sits down besides me and clears her throat grabbing my attention. "so do you like have a girlfriend?" I shake my head no, "so you're single?" Where was this going? I nod "oh! That's what I thought" I stare at her hoping she'd continue "why do you ask?"  She shrugs "no reason" she got up from her chair walking back to her friends I back to find Shawn and Lucy were gone. I put grew in my stomach, was she supposed to distract me so they could leave? I sit back and almost physically face palmed, did i hurt her?  I didn't mean to if I did, I even told her I would never hurt, not on purpose. God Jonah why are you so dumb, you can't lose her, she means to much to me. I get up walking around the entire building trying to find her, I need to find her, i need to apologise. Wait what am I apolozing for? Dummy you obviously hurt her feelings, was it because she was hinting at maybe she wants more then what we are? Wait does she like me? We can't date. That would ruin our friendship, i value our friendship to ruin it because she likes me. Gosh I'm talking to myself and I'm still acting like a duechebag. I finally find the two outside in the area the school let's us come out and cool off. Lucy was leaning back on the brick wall and Shawn was leaning on the wall facing her, Lucy had a smile on her face and the light from above lit up the few sparkles on her dress. I didn't want to interrupt but at the same time I did. I took a deep breath and jogged over to them. Lucy turns to Shawn saying something and he turns around looking at me, he doesn't crack a smile like he usually does. "Hey" I say letting out a breath to catch it again. "hi" Lucy says. "um-" I put my finger up and take another deep breath "shawn can I talk to Lucy alone?" Shawn turns to Lucy and she smiles at him gesturing for him to go, he nods and kisses her cheek walking away. "What's up?" She says nonchalantly, I gestured inside "what happened in there?" She looks at me confused "what do you mean?" I hit my lip " I mean when we were dancing i asked you where you were going with this and you said no where and left alone then started dancing with shawn. Did I do something wrong?" She shakes her head again"why would you assume that?" I move my he'd in confusion "because that's what happened" she shrugs and takes the kast sip of water fron her plastic cup "I think you're reading to much into it" she tosses the cup in the trash and begins to walk back inside, leaving once again. I catch up to her "you're doing it again!" She gives me a confused look "doing what?" She says the music gets louder the closer we get to the building "you're walking away from me" she shakes her head and laughs "no I'm not you're walking right besides me"  I feel myself getting angry "yeah because you walked away from me, why do you keep walking away from me?!" There was anger in my voice and she stops in her track "why are you getting angry?" She crosses her arms above her chest "I'm not-" I run my hands through my hair "yes you are" she says simply "I am because you're not acting like yourself!" Her eyes widen "I'm not acting like myself?" I nod and she swallows hard "and how exactly am I not acting myself?" I take another deep breath "you keep walking away from me-" she cuts me off "oh so because I don't want to follow you around I'm not acting myself?" I nod realising how dumb that actually sounds "you're my date" she rolls her eyes "yeah, your date" she scoffs "what's wrong with that?" She throws her arms up "what's wrong with that? The problem is I'm your date that you don't want to be seen with" she pushes a strand of her lose hair behind her ear "when did I say that?" She rolls her eyes again "god Jonah you're an idiot"  she walks away again and I try to catch up but she runs from me into the bathroom again. I put my hands on the cold brick outside the girls bathroom and hit my head lightly on the wall "why am I so dumb?" I say outloud. "what did I even do wrong?" I say again. "Jonah you really are clueless" I turn and jump to the sound of Shawn's voice "Shawn I don't need your smartass comments right now" I raised his eyebrows "are you sure because you're just as blind as you are stupid!" I furrowed my eyebrows "excuse me?" Shawn moved closer "not only do you have an absolutely gorgeous girl who's been there for years but you're too blind to see that and you're tootp comprehend her feelings or your own. Shes giving you clue after clue, hint after hint and you're too dumb to put all of it together. She's stuck around this entire time, she should have given up a ling time ago. I've seen you with other girls, you do some much for them but you don't treat them likd you treat Lucy but at the same time you don't treat those Lucy like those girls. She's the only girl who has been there for you almost you're entire life but you can't see tye things that everyone else sees. Everyone can see it, except you. unless you see it and just ignore it. and for that you're a fucking idiot. she doesn't deserve someone like you. " He says, angry tension builds between the two of us. I wanted to pinch him in the face but at the same time I didn't want to do this, not when I know Lucy is a few feet away. "I think you should go" Shawn says calmly, I stand my ground "I'm not leaving without Lucy, Shawn scoffs "she doesn't want to be around you right now Jonah, she ran away from you for a reason!"  I stared at Shawn blankly, hes right she did run away from me. that's all she's been doing all night. Shawn's right, everything he said was right. I turn and hit my head on the wall again, a little harder this time and leave the banquet without even thinking. My mind was clustered, I didn't know what to do, I didnt know how to feel. I ran home, I ran all the way home. I felt myself begin to cry and i did nothing to stop it, I just let all the tears fall, when I made it home I laid down on the gravel road in my tux not even caring. My mind was filled with a million thoughts, I was dizzy and my head felt like it was about to fly off. I laid on the Rocky road for an hour before a set of headlights pulled into my driveway i moved my leg so they knew I was alive. The car stopped besides me and my father steps out "what are you doing son?  You're gonna ruin the tux" I keep my eyes onthe sky and say nothing. My dad sits down besides me and sighs "what happened?" I swallow hard "I think i blew it with Lucy, like I think we aren't friends anymore"  my dad stays quiet "all night she kept running away from me" I see my dad nod "why did she run away from you?" I shrug "I don't know"  my dad shakes his head "son, what did you do?" I sigh "when we got there we were holding hands and when someone asked if we were dating, I quickly let go of her hand and when she brought it up while we were dancing she asked why it was such a big deal if we were dating or not and I kind of asked where she was trying to take the conversation and she said nowhere running away" my dad takes a few seconds taking it all in "Jonah" I turn to him meeting his eyes "Jonah who is Lucy to you?" I sit up from the hard cold ground "she's my best friend" he nods "Is that all you see her as?" I look down at the ground, is it? I'm confused by my own emotions let alone hers. "I don't know" I say honestly, my dad let's out a breath "Jonah you do know, you're just scared to admit it" he pats my shoulder and stands up "don't hurt he Jonah, I know that isn't your intentions but that's what it seems like you're doing" he starts to walk inside "you don't want to lose her so fight for her" the screen door closed behind him. "Don't lose her, fight for her " I repeated over and over. I stand up brushing the dirt off my tux and fixing my all around appearance "don't lose her, fight for her!" I yell, he take my phone out of my pocket checking the time. It was midnight, she should be home. I run to her house seeing her window light on. I run to the door catching my breath opening the door slowly. I hear her mom's voice "I'm sorry sweetheart" she says calmly. I take a second to listen more, "it's just so complicated mom, it's so freaking complicated. I don't even know what i want let alone know what he wants" Lucy's voice cracks. My heart twisted in my chest, she's right but k do know i don't want to lose her. "get some rest sweetie, don't let it eat away at you"  I hear Lucy sniffle and my heart begin to ache. I hid behind the door when her mom steps out of her room "goodnight lu, I love you" she smiles at her daughter "goodnight Mom, I love you too"  her mom walks away from her walking to her room. I run up the stairs, luckily quiet as can be and see Lucy standing there still in her dress. Her hair was down and her makeup had been washed away by her tears. She didn't see me, I looked at what was in her hand that had her attention. She held our photos from prom. The one she was looking at was when I kissed her cheek, she smiled then frowned. Her hands were shaking, she sniffled again setting the photos down. I swallowed hard "Lucy" she jumps a little "how did you get in here?? I locked the door" I showed her the key she gave to me, she let's out a breath and nods remembering. "Why a you here?" She turned around trying to avoid eye contact with me. I step into her room and grabbed her hand turning her towards me she let me do it "listen Lucy." I take another deep breath "I have no idea how i feel, and I don't know how you feel. I don't know anything except that i do not want to lose you. Ever. You mean so much to me and I never want you out of my life. I want you to be there when I take my last breath" she had began to cry even more then before "I want to be there too" I hugged her pulling her so close to me not wanting to let go. "i love you" she whispers, "I love you too". I pull away and kiss her tear soaked cheek "forever?" She kisses my cheek "forever".

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I know I said part two would come out like a few days ago, I'm sorry!! But anyways I started a new book! It's called 'more than a fan' it's another jack avery fanfic! It's also on Instagram, look up the account @fanficsofwdw and there it is!! Bye ILYA♥️♥️