Seventeen imagines

#150 "Birds" (part 3)

Master Junhui looked at my eyes as soon as I entered his room. The silence, the cool air and his gaze made my feet heavier, as I dragged it along to his side.

Minghao said I shouldn't get involve on this man I was taking care like a doll for 8 months. Yesterday was a mistake. Right. It was only a mistake when Junhui talked to me.

"Master, it's time for your breakfast," I said, eyes bowing as I sat on his bed.

"You said you believed me," he said.

My widened eyes gaze on him as soon as he spoke those words. I thought yesterday's mistake won't happen again. But here he is, talking like a real human being. What should I do? I am not suppose to respond!

I know I shouldn't talk, but my eyes can't get off from his pretty face, a face I never appreciate before. He was a doll for 8 months: no voice and no reaction. However the way he looked at me and the way I am hearing those sweet voice he had been hiding for a long time, grabbed my whole existence.

"Do you remember the story I told you about the birds?" he asked.

I clenched my hands as I try to stop myself from reacting to any words he will say.

"The two young birds didn't die because their loner brother birds killed them. It was their mom. The reason why the mommy bird only giving his two baby birds food is because, the food has poison on it. The 3rd bird who is still alive knew that fact. But because he wants to live, he act like a dead bird even though he is breathing. The bird is pathetic right? Just like me, I was pretending to be dead when I am really alive, my heart and mind is alive, even though it was already broken into pieces. All I need is someone who will keep this secret. Someone who will protect me. And someone who will believe in me."

My tears suddenly fell down from my eyes. As I look at him, I felt how hurt he was. For the past years, he locked himself inside this room, almost forget how the world looks like.

I know. Yes I know I shouldn't do this. But...but...

I held his hand and smiled at him; the sin I choose to commit. "I will be by your side. I will understand you. I will believe in you. And I will protect this secret deep in my heart, Junhui."

He bit his lip while looking at me. Tears started to fall from his eyes and his hand held me oh so tight. Junhui is trembling as this was the first time he cried all of his life. And so I leaned closer , wrapping my arms around his shoulder. Does Junhui's shoulder had been boulder like this? It brings me warm, a warm I couldn't explain.

After a few minutes, I feed him and put him into sleep.

He is like a cute puppy when he is sleeping. It makes my heart pound and my lips drew a smile. And his lips... his lips are pinkish like a rose on the mansion's garden. It look so soft and delicate. Maybe, it will be softer if his lips kiss mine.

Oh?

Oh?!

What am I thinking?! Idiot!

I shook my head and walked out from his room.

Breathing heavily, I mumbled, "This is crazy. So crazy."

I let out a sighed before walking around the mansion. I am supposed to go to the kitchen to bring the tray back but I took the wrong path because I was thinking too hard.

When I lifted my head, I realized I am now standing in front of the door of Madam's room. The door is half closed.

Junhui suddenly flashed back on my mind. He said, it was his mom. His mom killed someone.

"Stupid jerk!" Madam shouted and I almost jumped out in frightened.

My hands start to tremble. I want to run away but I just froze there , standing like a scaredy cat.

"I heard that your cousin talk to my son, Junhui. I already told you that it was forbidden," madam said.

Cousin? Could it be...?

"Sorry madam. It won't happen again," headmaster, Minghao apologized.

I covered my hand as I gasped when I heard his voice. This is my fault!

"Great," madam sighed. "If ever your cousin makes another mistake, you already know that I will kill her. No, you will kill her using your own hands. Understand?"

K-Kill? Kill me?

My body fell all weak. I am catching my breath, without making any noise. I can hardly gulp the situation.

"Yes. I understand," Minghao reassured.

I heard his foot steps coming closer. I want to escape, but my body couldn't respond!

When Minghao went out and close the door, he was surprised when he saw me.

"Ming--" I mumbled. But he covered my mouth and pulled me away from madam's door.

After running away, we stopped somewhere behind the mansion's back door. We are both panting, looking at each other eyes with sadness and fears.

"Minghao, I h-heard e-everything," I mumbled with my trembling lips.

My cousin frowned, and his grip on my hand tightened. "Go. Quit this job and go somewhere very far."

"Huh? What are you saying? Your life is in danger! How can I lef--"

"I SAID QUIT THIS FUCKING JOB AND LEAVE!" he shouted.

His eyes tell me how worried he is, how scared he is just by thinking my safety. In the end, this cousin of mine really loves me.

However...

"Sorry Minghao," I said and looked firmly on his eyes. "But I won't leave. Because, you are important to me. Also, Junhui is precious. I will protect Junhui. I will."

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